"Jisoo-yaa! What I should suppose to do? I don't know what to wear." I whimpered through the phone.

Today is the day of our date - my date and Hanbin to be specifically. I don't know what to do even what should I wear for the date. It's 8.30 already, just an hour and half to go I need to be present at Everland. However, here I am stuck still in my bedroom, trying to figure it out the best outfit. I sigh as I take a look at my reflection in the mirror, I put my mascara over my eyelashes and Jisoo is still on the phone with me.
"Just wear anything cute. A ruffles blouse with skirt, I think." Jisoo said over the phone, her voice seemed so hoarse. Honestly I feel really sorry to wake her up so early in her precious weekend but she just the only one who crossed my mind and I know she'd help me.   I scanned over my closet to find a ruffles blouse. I clipped my phone in between my neck and my shoulder. "Okay, I will wear it."
"Oh right, if Hanbin asked you to ride the ferris wheel. It's all clear that he'd confess to you."

"What do you mean?"
"Oh, cmon!" Jisoo snorted, then she added. "It's mean that he'd ask you to be his girlfriend. HIS WOMAN."

"I don't love him. He just—"
Jisoo snapped. "You love him, Hayi."
“But—”
"Stop denying, you loves him and I can see it in your eyes. It's okay to love someone. Don't be a coward and just be true to your feelings."
"I don't know what I feel exactly." There was an uncertainty between my words. I am not denying, this feeling towards Hanbin it just too vague to confirm. Does it love? I don't even know, but my heart kept racing whenever he was around.
"Then just figure it out. Your answer is right before your eyes, Hayi."
I sighed as I hung up the phone, I thrown myself to my bed, thinking about the way I figure it out. Why does my heart beat so hard while watching his presence on my mind and it aching at the same time at the moment when I tried to get him out of my mind. Perhaps, is it really love? I'll find out today.
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My heart beats faster in every step that I took today. I had reached Everland, I glanced at my wrist-watch, it's 10 in the morning. Hanbin was there already, standing still in the entrance gate of Everland—probably waiting on me. He frowned as he took a glance of his watch. His perfect figure had successfully drown an attention from the opposite . I'll admit it, who can't resist him? He's tall, he has a sharp nose and it makes his face look so damn handsome. His eyes were small, but once he stared at you, you can't even help yourself to look away. It just pulled you hard to look at him constantly like gravitation. And I love his hair today. He make it look sleek, he combed his hair in Pampadour style which somehow I love it.  I just can't keep my eyes off of him, even it was from a far—he was shining so brightly and it made me thinking, if he was the sun, then people were the planet that revolves around the sun, and I was just simply an asteroid which always get burn before it gets to close.
I let a sigh and take a few step forward while my sight still all on him. I saw a few girls were trying to hit on him, some of them were pretty and it really makes me wonder, for the sake of so many girls that has a crush on him—from one to uncountable number of the women population in this entire world—why does he choose me? Why does he love me? For a moment, I really want to know his reason. However, I don't have any courage whether to ask it or hear it came from his mouth.
"Yah! Lee Hayi! What are you doing exactly just standing there like a statue?!" Hanbin noticed me. Just like that, typical Hanbin—he yelled at me. I should be yelling him back, but rather than yelling out, I could feel a heat on my cheeks—I will never be able to act normal around him again.   Damn it! He'd see me flushed cheeks. I covered it with my both hands as he run at me. My heart is about to jump from its place right now.
"Damn it! I think you won't come." Hanbin pulled me in his arms, hugging me tightly—squeezing my waist as he wrapped his arms around my waist more tighter and tighter than before. I could hear his heartbeat and it was beating way too lout but in the other side, I feel it so calming—his beating heart feels like a night lullaby. Oh God, Kim Hanbin what did you do to me?

"I promised you, remember?"
"But, still I am worried like hell. I am planning to drag you out if you didn't show up." He grins so boyishly which is blown me away.
Damn it, way too hot, Kim Hanbin.
Now, he's staring at me from head to toes and it just successfully made me feel nervous. "Stop staring at me from head to toes!" I snapped.
"Sorry." Hanbin stopped his words as he bite his lower lips. I had never seen his reddened face just like now. It just too freaking cute. "I can't help it, you're so cute." He muttered, both his eyes were looking to the other side. A shy Hanbin is the cutest and you’re the one who looked so cute—definitely not me.
"Shall... Shall we go?" He asked me once again, he flushed still. I chuckled as I nodded, giving him a sign that I am okay with that. Hanbin smiled sweetly and took my hand. I might have a heart attack when his fingers touch me and that time the only thing that crossed my mind was; I want to be the only hand that he needs to hold.   “When was the last time we went to the amusement park?” He asked. He put his arm around my shoulder and I could inhale a wooden and musky scents. He never changed, I love the way he smell so fresh and clean.   “Around 8, if I am not mistaken.”   Hanbin now turn his sight on me. He looks so darn serious, it’s hard to look him in the eyes when his eyes were staring at me so fiercely. He reached my chin to steal my sight back to him, my heart skips a beat. “Please, look at me.” He pleaded.   “I see you.”   “No, you don’t.”   He smile gently and tracing down my hair. The wind that blow at that time brings his scents in all over me, his intense gaze on me, it suffocates me. I keep my eyes shut, feeling his touch on my cheek—his touch feels like a fire that burns my heart into an ashes.   “Don’t close your eyes and keep your eyes on me.” He kissed my eyes and automatically, it made my eyes open. He was there, staring on me as I opened my eyes.   He smiled so boyishly. “Like I said before, I will make you look at me that’s why I take you here and you should be prepared, because I’ll confess to you three times, so please keep your eyes on me and considered my feeling.” He added then gave me a ninety degree bow.   “Hanbin! WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING?! This is embarrassing, you know!” I pulled his arms and he had landed safely into my embrace. He grins, as he pull me closer by holding my waist. I push his muscled-chest, just to make a little gap around us, but still we’re too close—too close to see his deep and beautiful eyes on me, too close to feel the heat around us, too close to feel his heartbeat over my palms.   “So, Lee Hayi, listen up. This is my first confession.” I close my eyes instantly as he titled his head while his hands were touching my neck, pulling me closer to him. I can feel his warm breathe around my neck but his lips is barely touching. I won’t expect him to kiss me on my neck at this kind of place either, but have I just expected him to kiss me in some other way? No way. But, he didn’t kiss me, he just whispered on my right ear.   “I love you.”   He looked at me like all the stars and the moon were all shone on my eyes and it was enough to make my legs feel weak, even my heart can’t take it. He crushes me like a hurricane, all at once with his three damn magical words. Nevertheless, I still don’t figure it out the answer of his words yet and it pissed me off, because I am completely clueless about how I feel—I could confirm that I feel happy, but does it enough for me to confirm that I love him too?   Hanbin pulled me closer once again, this time his hug had become more possessive than before, twice tighter, as if he was scared to lose me.   “So much…” He continues. My heart was barely beating at the moment when he kissed my head softly. “Oh, you flushed! Do you like it that much?” There he is, Kim Hanbin back to his normal self, always teasing me.   “Yah! How dare you to kiss me?!” I pushed him away but he don’t mind it, he just swiveled around and took a few step to move ahead.   Then, he turned back to me, showing off his boyish grin. “But, you love it, isn’t it?”   “No!”   “Stop denying.”   “I am not!” I snapped.   “Whatever.”  He turned back again, but in the next second his eyes were back looking at me. “And anyway, would you take my hand?” He raised his hand to me. His gaze is demanding and I feel hesitant. Should I? or shouldn’t? But, who can’t resist the almighty Kim Hanbin? No one. I said it mentally as I took his hand. He smiled very sweetly—sweet and fresh like a cup of sweet tea in the morning.   “Where do you want to take me?” I asks.   “My heart.”   “Stop joking!” I whimpered, pulling his hand but I never had an intention to break free from his hand.   He stopped as he looked at me in the eyes and squeezing my hand more tightly. “I am not joking. I’ll put you in jail—a jail of my heart.”   “Damn it, you make me cringe.”   “But you like it.” He raised his hand and touch my cheek, barely touching but slowly I could feel the warmth on my cheek as he caressing me. “You’re turning red.”   “That’s! That’s because I feel hot!” I lied.   He laughed and I don’t know if hearing his cheerful laugh would be gave me such a massive flutters feeling on my stomach.   “How about roller coaster, are you scared? If you scared, my chest is wide open for you to hug.”   I rolled my eyes. “For your information, first off, I am not afraid. Second, how I suppose to hug you when we both trapped in such a tight safety belt and third, I don’t think that I will hug you in any second.”   “You said, how I suppose to hug you when we both trapped in such tight a tight safety belt? Can I tell you if you’re actually expected to hug me, right?”