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The next day

 

 

 

Jessica pov

 

 

 

I walked to my class with a smile that graced my lips, Today is my favorite day. Mr donghae, my favorite teacher started lecturing  in my class, do you think that I like him?, right?? no! you are totally wrong..  I don’t like him as a man or has a big crush on him, But I like him the way he teaches us. he is so charming and the lesson she teaches to us is my favorite. and the subject is math. Until now i don’t know why i love math whereas all my friends hate that lessons so much, perhaps because I think about mathematics makes me challenge

 

 

 

Trying to  imagine the first we only knew that math is compose only a Numbers, but when we level up in different grades the Math we knew has a Variables. have their own formulas and principles and the worst of it is if we solve it in a wrong way our answer will be different than the others. Guess it's so challenging right?

 

I walked in the hallway and see there so many student blocking my way.

is there a free food in here? I ask myself or an Idols visiting our school
I think SS501 is in here Or Super Junior . curiosity hit me. I wanted to see them I wanted to see the cause of this crowd, and I keep imagining my Oppa .. siwon and Kim Hyun Joong remembering their faces makes me flattered for awhile. I wanted to touch him and be his girlfriend, the power of Icy Queen activated.

"step aside" i told everyone while glaring at them and the way to my classroom is cleared, and I walk with grace to see my Oppa, I keep on fantasizing them until I entered the room but the cause of this commotion is no other than the Boyish Girl amber Liu

 

 

What is good from her? She is very dorky, sleepyhead in class, lazy, her face is okay can we say handsome. Aishhhhhhhhh what I think before she is not handsome. Okey, okey i have to admit it a little, remember it!! A little handsome but still, her face like a llama and seem very stupid. All my gang Tiffany, Yoona, Nicole, luna, Victoria, Yuri, Eunjung, Jiyeon and Taeyeon loved her like a fangirl, idolizing her. I can not believe with all of my friends. and all of them keep on chasing  her like they are possessed or something and could I not see why they like this girl so much? , okey handsome girl. Aishhhhhh again and again i said it and think that she is handsome,okey a little good-looking and handsome i mean. If a boys going to chase her is normal, but this sick. Does that make sense, You guys should nodded your head and obey my orders!! If not I'll keep you frozen in place.

 

 

 

Okay guys you must think I'm anti lesbians or you may think I’m a homophobic like most of Korean people isn't it? And you guessed its a big zero, I'm not homopobic or anti-lesbian but I'm as a straight girl I'm still confused and keep on asking myself about them who choose to be lesbian or gay, Isn’t this world there are many men and women are perfect, but why they’ve prefer to be lesbian and gay?? I guess they just misinterpreted what is real love and feelings of just admiration.

 

 

I walked to the bench in front of Amber and there are so many girls swarm her. “Can you step aside” I said in a harsh tone

 

 

They just looked at me briefly and then they looked at the amber back, Along the table and floor bench next to Amber. I can see hundreds of gifts, letters and a bouquet of flowers that filled the place. They are really insane and had to be rushed to a nearest mental hospital as soon as possible, If Amber is Idol Group was reasonable, but Amber  ONLY an ordinary student who recently moved yesterday aishhhhhhhhhhh what are you thinking Jessica??? It seems my brain had been problematic since this dyke move Yahhhhhhh why you guys keep on bugging me???  Okey i will admit it, a little handsome, now you guys satisfied?? the face like a llama then suddenly a crazy like.... God girls keep hittin’ on her.

For what? The money that they should save for their College is been wasted cause they keep on buying gift from this llama.

 

 

 

 

Suddenly my pen drop from my desk, and I glance at amber and I saw her Yawning, seems like she wanted to sleep again.

 

 

I keep on slapping my face to bring my own self, cause I keep on irritated, and I dont want to fall in love to her.

 

 

“ms. jung are you sick?” asked by mr donghae

 

 

 

“huh?” i ask innocent because i don’t know what he mean

 

 

 

“do you have a headache? i see you keep on slapping your face. Is there any problem?” he said

“I felt there is a bug keep bitting my face.” I said while smilling.

 

 

“bug. How can we have a bug in here?” asked mr donghae with confused look

 

“do you want to go to the infirmary?” he said with a worry face while my classmate stared at me.

 

 

I shook my head “no need sir, I do not want to miss your lessons” i replied him. And that it’s true i don’t want miss his lessons, in my lifetime I’ve never been absent from school. Although if I catch a cold my Mom and Dad persuade me to absent for a day to rest for awhile, but for me studying is more important than to missed a single lesson it might waste of time.

 

 

 

Mr donghae give me a smile “fine, if it you want

 

 

I smile and nodded my head “yes, sir”

 

 

 

The bell rang indicating that the class is ended, I glance again at her sleeping. I wish I dont have a Husband likes her who slack like he didnt care what will happen to the world. Amen

 

 

 

 

 

“sica-ah  do you want to go to the canteen??” tiffany ask with her hand pat my shoulder

 

 

 

“wait a minute fany-ah, I'll take care of stationery and textbooks lessons earlier”

 

 

 

“Oh, oke”

 

 

 

“let’s go” We walk happily while holding each other hand upon arriving in there I saw Amber swarmed again by a bunch of fans to her, while she keep on eating ignoring all the people around her,

I just shrugged it off, and I saw my friend waving at me in just a few tables.  

 

 

“seems like amber’s fans multiplied” I heard nicole says it and she looked at amber fans is.

 

 

 

Taeyeon nodded her head “indeed, i heard that hyuna Seulgi, Yeri, Kei, So Eun, Jieun(Iu), Hani, Ellin, and Shannon confess to her in public” she added

 

 

 

“whattttttttttttttt?” we all said unison including me

 

 

 

“are they insane?” . all my friend look at me with weird glare and question mark had written all over on their face“why you guys look at me like that?” i ask

 

 

 

 

 

“what do you mean with question ‘are they insane’ sica-ah?” luna asked

 

 

 

I sighed remember all my friends who’s very stupid because can’t guess what i mean is, “ah i remember jessica mind is very difficult to predict my friend said”

 “You know that amber is a girl, ” i explained

 

 

 

“its weird if girl have feeling love with a girl too??” asked by Yuri, Tae, Tiff dan Vic unison while Nicole, Luna, Yoona, Eunjung dan Jiyeon just nodded their head mark a agreement

 

 

 

“of course, its wrong and weird” i said firmly

 

 

 

“what’s wrong?” tae asked in firmly too

 

 

 

“of course it’s wrong” ia reply “i mean, should those who have same- feelings should go to a psychiatrist, consult that they are not normal” i added

 

 

 

“who is not normal?” tiffany asked

 

 

 

“of course they are not normal because they can’t love the opposite cause they have a crush to a girl.” i said in firmly and half of shout

 

 

 

Yuri sighed so long and then she look at me in sharp “they normal jess, They are normal because they were given God a sense among the millions of flavors in the world called love. indeed, according to most people said and judge they are not normal for love of the same , but did you ever think?? How they felt when they first fell in love with the same ?? I really sure they will be confused and frustrated, blamed him/herself and asked him/herself with question like ‘why I fell in love with the same , but many women or men out there’?” yuri paused in couple times and then continue “a lesbian or gay, I think is very great because they recognize themselves belong to the two types of it, you know why?” she asked

 

 

 

I shook my head and Yuri then continue her words “because like I said before maybe they are confused and frustrated  that can only ask themselves that they are aware of could not like the opposite . They are great because they recognize themselves as belonging to the second type of ual ersion. because it may be many obstacles they will face in front of their family if they admit that they are into lesbian and gay, As scorn/mocking many people, you know not the Korean anti against ual ersion like that??” she paused her word again “Perhaps too their families who don’t accept and repel them, cross out their names are not included in the list of family or heirs may ration should they get if they don’t admit that they are into a women or man”

 

 

 

I was stunned to hear the explanation of Yuri, Why is my brain is very shallow? Not thinking much risk and the amount of suffering that must be the kind that responsibility when they admit them into the kind of ual ersion? Why I can only scoffs that they are not normal, that they are disgusting, that they should be thrown away from the planet Earth, that should they not supposed to be born in this world because they will only make a disgrace, and shameful creature called human in front of the Lord.

 

 

 

And now I just realized that I misjudged them, but I don’t want to admit it in front of my friends. Want to carry where the pride’s of jessica jung soyeon? My pride is very expensive and I don’t want to risk my self-pride.

 

 

 

“jess i know, you’re anti lesbian and homophobic but you should know since you were born and raised in America, Where many people want freedom and acceptance in there. As Yuri says they are normal because they can fell love, but they do not normally as you think and as most people in Korea think because they cannot love the opposite , what is wrong if they don’t love the opposite ?” tiffany asked me, but i just can silent and just shook my head

 

 

 

She smile, give me her beautiful eyes smile “not wrong, right? At least they can love someone although same gender with them. Just imagine if they were not in love with someone? Maybe they just feel hatred, malice and all kinds of bad human nature do, I dont want them to have it in themselves. And You try to imagine again, what if there is no love in this world?? There is no mother who loved her son or daughter, no owner garden watering their plants, no pet owners who raise animals, no teachers who educate students patiently, there is no free hospitals, no board orphanage, and no all the things that you see on earth who use love as its foundation” tiffany explained

 

 

 

“They should try to love the opposite , so Let them know that they are wrong” i protest, I actually wanted to say I'm not homophobic. But I'm reluctant to say it, anyway for what??

 

 

 

All my friend sighed very long and shook their heads in couple times “They must have tried Jess but they seems can’t do it, Now try if you're forced to forget someone you love, can you do it??” now it turn of yoona who says that

 

 

 

“of course i can, if the person was wrong and no good for me” i said with confident, even though I'm a little confused as well

 

 

 

“What if you were forced to be stupid?” now luna who says it

 

 

 

I looked at her with mouth open “you know the answer and i don’t want do it, although forced by any means” i said in firmly

 

 

 

Her clapping her hands and then she pointing her index finger toward me “And that's what they feel when they are forced to try to love the things that they do not love” she said

 

 

 

I could only silent. Although I still cannot accept people with such types exist in this world, more precisely now in school, more specifically, who was in the cafeteria this.

 

 

 

what happen next??? does jessica will accept that kind of relantionship????