I woke up feeling dehydrated and in pain. I felt stiff all over and I couldn’t move my feet and back.

                                       *If this is what heaven feels like then I want to go to hell.*

‘Oh my gosh your awake. ’ Mimi’s voice was killing my head and I felt my brain throbbing violently

I opened my eyes slowly and looked to the side and saw Mimi

‘Funny. You look exactly like this girl Mimi I know’ I laughed till darkness surrounded me again.

*No, not again*

‘Miss Bom. Can you hear me?’ I heard a voice calling my name.

‘Can someone turn the light off?’ I mumbled

‘Can you open your eyes?’ that unrecognizable voice again. Maybe I'm dreaming and ill wake up and ill be at home.

I opened my eyes and quickly closed them when bright light hit them making me flinch. I could now smell bleach and something like roses nearby that my nose twitched.

*Ouch! Man my nose hurts like hell*

‘Where am I?’ I mumbled again eyes still closed

‘You’re in hospital. Did you want me to call your parents for you?’ I opened my eyes again and saw that the voice belonged to a doctor and she had a clipboard on her hands writing and checking me but also watching me at the same time.

‘No please don’t’ I sat up too quick and she pushed me straight down. I felt so dizzy.

‘Sorry but you were in a major condition. ’

‘No not yet’ I said with strong emotion and was about to cry so the doctor knew better and didn’t continue with the argument.

When the nurse left I quickly looked around for an escape route and I looked at the needle stuck on my wrist and tried to pull it out.

‘I don’t think you should do that’ a voice came from beside me and i freaked out.

’Ahhh! I almost ripped out the wires connected to a screen on top of my bed that was keeping check of my heart rate.

Mimi stood up from her seat and helped me back onto the bed acting like she didn’t scare half my life out two second ago.

‘You know you scared the living hell out of my mum. She thought you were a hobo who chose to sleep over without any shoes on. Don’t worry my mum would sign for you to leave. ’ When I didn’t say anything she continued

‘After seeing those bruises and marks my mum literally was going to drive to your house and do the same to your mum. Thank goodness none of us knows where you live’. She sat back down and watched me in silence

‘Thank goodness’ I repeated sarcastically. I started touching my nose and flinched when if let pain again and thought better not to keep touching it.

‘Maybe you should start living with us. We have an extra room and my mum would love to have an extra daughter’ she suggested but I could tell that she has been talking with her mum.

I was touched to the core that she suggested to take me in like a sister but I couldn’t.

‘I would love to but my little brothers and sister’ I said when I thought about it all.

‘Well next year they go high school, obviously they’ll go to my school. You can visit them’ I knew Mimi was trying to reason with me and she always won and we both know it.

I sat there quietly looking down at the dirt under my nails. I felt like screaming out in pain but I kept myself quiet as possible.

‘I don’t know what to do any more’ I sighed and looked at Mimi like she could answer my question for me but she kept quiet waiting for me patiently like the sweet girl she is.

When Mimi’s mother came she kept on checking over me like a mother hen and I was starting to feel annoyed from all the attention. She signed me out without questions asked and I was wondering if they were even allowed to do that because I was underage but she had a talk to the doctor and my mum but I don’t know what was said as I drifted off to sleep again.

Man I hated this drifting off to sleep thing.

It was almost midnight as we drove to Mimi’s and her mums place. I don’t remember much of the time I was in hospital because I was asleep for most of the two weeks I was there but I was glad I was finally out of there.

I chose to stay with them for a little while until I sorted things out with my mummy and they were full of joy but I had a strange suspicious thought that they hoped that I would change my mind and stay with them permanently. Mimi was excited to have me stay with her and she already thought of me as a little sister and I liked having someone look after me when it had being me that felt the same way towards my little brothers and sister.

I was always supposed to be the oldest. The one the family depended on to help out the little ones with problems and show them the way of life. I had so much put on me that I thought ill go crazy and I was glad to be rid of that for awhile since I love my family too much to let it go.

If I dressed wrong or acted wrong then mum would say. ‘Look at you, do you want the kids to grow up like you. So stupid and a waste of life to begin with, go find something to clean’. And away I would go like a little slave but I still loved her even thought she made me feel so bad.

I liked living at Mimi’s house. What was even more exciting was getting ready to decorate the bedroom. My bedroom.

We had just come back from buying a huge tin of white on white paint and I was so excited. I wanted an elegant room because it was something I wasn’t. Something I’ll never be. Call it dry humor but I was getting very sarcastic ever since I made a weird move to the new school.

School! I totally forgot about school but my brain didn’t want to think about that today out of all days so I started thinking about what colored sheets I wanted for my bed.

I'll need to go back once i heal my wounds but right now my room needs healing.

Five hours later with me and Mimi nearly blending in with the walls, thanks to trying to paint the ceiling and we knew we put too much when the paint started dripping on our heads. There was so much paint on us then there was on the walls that I didn’t see Mimi as I tried to climb down from the ladder and I fell on top of her. Laughing together we headed out and I ran back in to open the window so the air can dry the room up. I paused for a second and looked around in silence and I smiled a little myself.

Can I start over? What am I starting over from?

‘Park. Hurry up foods getting cold’ Mimi’s voice broke me out of my thoughts and I quickly ran down for lunch before she called out to me again.

Pure white colored walls and a pitch black rug. My room turned out great after two days of painting, carrying cupboards and a huge bed up the stairs including getting all my things and clothes from my old house.

I waited till my mum went out to d her daily shopping then I quickly gathered my clothes and a picture of my family when I was only a little girl smiling not knowing what life she was going to go through. There was still a faint smell of paint that still needed airing out and I didn’t mind leaving the windows open since it was hotter over here then I'm usually comfortable with. Mimi’s mum bought me a Greek black queen size bed as a birthday present and I loved it so much. I didn’t want to sleep in it because it would have wrecked the white coved duvet that I ran my hands through. I had my own glass table for studying and matching cupboards.

They were my family now and I was theirs. An invitation was sent to us inviting us to a family wedding a couple of weeks later, Mimi told me it was an arranged marriage but it was good cause the bride and groom knew each other when they were younger.

I was touched to see my name on it but I didn’t have anything to wear. I asked Mimi to help me look for one since I have never been to a wedding and she told me that she’ll take care of everything, I suddenly had an idea so I called CL if she wanted to come as my plus-one and she was excited to go to her first wedding as well.

CL slept over in my room and the morning of the wedding I walked downstairs and found Mimi’s mum cooking me breakfast. As always, she’s always cooking. She hurriedly sat me down and disappeared for a moment. I was going to start eating when she appeared carrying a dark blue raw silk dress. I tried not to shriek out in delight and took it from her and looked at it properly. Mimi’s mum made me a dress with her bare hands, I noticed she tried to imitate the top half to a traditional Japanese costume only it was a dress that came up to my knees and was puffy on the bottom and was very beautiful especially with the material painted with cherry blossoms.

I loved it and I put it on the back of the spare chair and hugged Mimi’s mum. She was surprised for a second then patted me on the back with a smile.

‘Nice dress made for you’ she said pointing to my dress.

‘Thank you’ I said then she nodded then gestured for me to eat.

Mimi and CL came down excited and they loved my dress, Mimi did my hair into a half braid with whatever hair i had left and it made me look younger and showed my face making my cheeks and jaw line stand out and CL did my makeup hiding my bruises that i still had on my face, it turned out great. Really great, my eyes looked huge and my lips looked soft.

Mimi’s mum drove us when we were finally ready, when we finally got to the wedding I was in wonder from the size of the church, I think the only time I was in a church was when I was baptized. I stood behind Mimi as we entered the church then I suddenly stopped.

I started to think if I could even enter a place like this. I didn’t think I was good enough to walk in. I started turning away when someone grabbed my hand. I looked back and saw Mimi smiling at me.

‘You can come in’ she said tugging on my hand

‘I don’t know’ I said shaking my hand

‘God loves everyone. ’ She shrugged at me like it was nothing

I nodded to myself and took in those words. I quickly drew in a deep breath and walked in behind her. The interior of the church was beautiful, wonderful pictures of saints in glass covered the windows and every candle from the roof to the standing ones was lit.

The church was already filled and we squished in with a few people Mimi knew. After a few minutes a little orchestra started playing and we settled down.

The door opened and the groom walked in as happy as sunshine followed by five other groomsmen. They were all young and handsome but what caught my breath was the fifth groomsmen. I couldn’t help but stare at him. The hardness of his face made him look fierce and I shivered.

He walked past and his cold eyes flicked towards me without acknowledgement, he looked bored and out of his element and the look he gave me made it look it was my fault he wasn’t smiling. I looked down quickly with embarrassment trying to remember if I even knew him, walking down the isle next was a little flower girl in white holding hands with anther little boy dressed in a white suit and a rose in his chest pocket holding a little cushion with a gold ring on it.

As they were walking down the isle and the girl was throwing rose petals around, the ring feel off the cushion and the little boy ran for it still holding onto the girl’s hand sending a few giggles through the church.

Following after them were the five other bridesmaids, I felt the feeling of jealousy, I always wanted to be a bridesmaid, and they wore a sleeveless bold purple colored dress which dragged onto the floor and the corset of their dresses was white with a gold glittery dragon painted onto it. Their hair was curled and hanged onto one side with little silver flowers hanging like gems in the tangles.

The orchestra changed their song and I was suddenly familiar with the wedding march starting up. When it was time for the bride to walk down we all stood up and turned towards the door with anticipation.

The bridesmaid was beautiful and I automatically felt tears coming to my eyes. She was walking with her father and he looked as proud as any other father who has a beautiful daughter. I looked at the faces around me and they were all filled with joy then I turned my head to the groom.

I couldn’t describe in words how he looked when he looked at his future wife walking towards him. I quickly blinked away a tear and the groom unexpectedly looked at me like he was trying to say that I'm going to be doing the same one day. Or maybe he just happened to move his eyes past me. Either one.

When the priest asked us to be seated the groom’s men were seated in the seat in front of mine and I had a good side view of that one guy who saw daggers into me.

The ceremony was short and sweet and the whole time I kept looking at that one boy. He didn’t move a muscle through the entire ceremony and I felt like chucking something at him to make him budge. I whispered this to CL then she got out her tissues and pegged it at his back without warning me.

The good thing was that they were praying so every head in the church was down but the bad thing was he turned around and looked straight at me and I turned to CL in horror but her head was down like the others, I pretended that nothing happened and looked straight ahead like I didn’t notice anything strange. I waited a few minutes then he turned back around.

I could feel CL's body shaking from silent laughter and I tried to control mine too, I don’t know if it was just me but when they asked for the final objections everyone seemed to panic for a few seconds looking around like someone’s going to run in screaming ‘I object’ from the top of their lungs.

Finally the I-do was done and everyone forwarded out to the stairs where photos were taken and guests were driven to the reception. We were seated at our table and I took off my high heels with relief. I ate my side bread and stole Mimi’s when she wasn’t looking.

I was getting bored at watching people filing in finding their tables. Finally the bridal party filed in, claps and introductions were made but I missed out on that boys name because everyone cheered when he appeared with his beautiful partner and we were all asked to sit down and be served after the groom and blushing bride were introduced formally.

The food was nice but I was still hungry after I demolished my plate. We were having deserts when they announced that the bride and groom were going to now have their fist dance.

The lights darkened and everyone started cheering and clapping when they walked to the dance floor. Their song started playing and everyone quieted down and started taking pictures. The song was cant let you go by Seo Young Eun.

Next the bridesmaid and groomsmen were asked to join them and then the parents and other couples. I sat there smiling and watching them and I felt myself go sad without realizing. I wanted to dance but I doubt anyone would ask me. We giggled when a boy sitting at the table behind us asked CL to dance and we forced her up ignoring her protest.

‘You know with a dress like that, I'm surprised no one asked you to dance yet?’ a voice said next to me.

I didn’t acknowledge the person that spoke to me until Mimi nudged me hard. ‘Ouch!’ I looked at her giving her a look and noticed that she was moving her head like she was twitching to the side.

‘What’s wrong with your neck’ I asked and I looked up to my left and saw the boy again.

I'm sorry, were you talking to me?’ I said with a dumb face

‘Well you are the prettiest one here’ he said like it was nothing. I couldn’t help but stare at his beautiful features. ‘Do you want to dance? Again. ’ he said a moment later and put out his hand.

Again? When have I danced with him, I'm sure I would have remembered

I was speechless and I stared at his hand. I didn’t know how to dance and I didn’t want to embarrass myself. I'm sorry but I don’t want to leave her sitting by herself’ I pointed to Mimi but Mimi had already turned her whole body away from me like she didn’t know me. I sighed and looked back at him. He still had his hand out then without thinking I put my hands in his and he helped me up following him to the dance floor. I quickly forgot about everything and everyone around me.

We stopped in the middle of the crowd and I must have made a wrong move because he stopped me from making any further damages by grabbing my left hand and put it on his shoulder and took hold of my other hand and he slid his arm around me pulling me closer getting a gasp from me and a raised eyebrow from him.

‘What don’t go all shy on me now’ he said with a smile and if I didn’t know better I think he must be trying to test me.

I didn’t know what to say to him and I could feel his warm breath on my shoulders. We moved in circles swaying to the slow beat and I slowly rest my head on his shoulders and I felt his arms tighten.

We moved past CL and her partner and CL put up her thumbs at me and I giggled.

‘What are you laughing at?’ the boy asked me, I moved my head so that I was still leaning on his shoulders but I was also facing him.

‘Nothing I just didn’t realize how nice this was’ I admitted and I felt him laugh a little.

‘So you do smile. ’ I said it like a statement and I was actually surprised he laughed.

‘What do you mean?’ he said. We still haven’t moved from our position. One would think we weren’t even talking at all. ‘I have never seen you smile before. ’ I whispered and I felt him snort which made me laugh into his shoulder.

The song changed to anther that made me close my eyes but we haven’t let go of each other. I felt him move his head when anther song came on and I opened my eyes finding anther pair staring down at me. We were like that, I don’t know but I was trying to read him, the same with him. I liked the way he held me and I wished he wouldn’t let go until a few more songs would finish but he let go and I felt disappointment rain over me.

‘I think I stole you away from your friends for a long time’ he said walking me back to my table.

Mimi and CL were getting their bags and signaled to me that we had to go.

Have we danced for so long?

I quickly looked to my side to ask for his name but he disappeared and I looked around but he was already seated at his table like he was there the whole time. I stared at him for a few seconds but he didn’t look my way, not even a little glimpse. It made me think that I dreamt that sweet dance with him and I turned sadly and slowly walked towards the door feeling the deepness of that disappointment.

The drive home was long and too quiet for my liking but I didn’t care. I was too confused about what just happened. Did he just dance with me for the sake of it? Was I just his little toy for the night? I was so cut and confused about what he did and why was I cut. I mean, yeah I just met him but he didn’t have to just walk off you know. A goodbye would have been nice. A lot nice and I didn’t know whether to scream with frustration or cry. I leaned my head on the window and stared at the trees drifting past and I saw his face on the reflection of my window. I closed my eyes to block it out and I slowly slept the whole way home.

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Back at the wedding...

I'm sure shes the same girl from the party we crashed, but she looks different tonight, i wasn't sure that was her when i saw at the church until we danced. it's exactly how we danced at the party. She looks more thinner then last time i saw her, her hair is also much shorter too but she still looks beautiful. I need to know her, I'm going to go ask Mimi for help. I need her to remember me.

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Thanks for the comment, I'm still looking for someone to make a poster for this story, any recommendations?? ^^, anyway there is one more part for year 8 coming soon. Hope you guys enjoyed this.