namjoon loved seokjin with all his heart and more. 

 

if only seokjin liked him nearly as much.

 

it wasn't that they weren't friends—it wasn't even that they weren't more than friends—it was simply that namjoon loved too much for it all to be returned, because seokjin had scars, pale, clumsily-healed lines across his heart that kept some of it in his chest no matter what, and the more namjoon gave him, the less he could requite. 

 

namjoon, though, stayed with him.

 

 

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namjoon whispered affections into seokjin's hair deep into the night, making him blush and laugh; he murmured promises and confessions, compliments and secrets; seokjin could cry with the emotion in every word he uttered, opting instead to grin uncontrollably, a flush in his cheeks and a shine in his eyes, and if this wasn't what namjoon lived for then nothing was.

 

 

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"namjoon-ah, why do you love me so much?" seokjin asked into the night-swathed room. lying next to him, namjoon drew in a sharp breath.

 

"because you're perfect." his voice was heavy with feeling, almost uncharacteristically so. "because you're everything to me."

 

"but i'm so... afraid. i can't give you the love you give me, i'm not perfect-"

 

namjoon's lips on his cut him off. they kissed, slow and gentle, until a taste of salt mixed in and seokjin realized there were tears trailing down his lover's face. he pulled away to look at him closer.

 

"namjoon-ah? why are you..."

 

namjoon shook his head and wiped his eyes with the back of his hand, mumbling, "it's nothing. nothing, babe, nothing." he gave seokjin a warm smile that shined even in the little light of the bedroom. "just... i love you so much, no matter what." he pressed close to seokjin, and continued, voice muffled by seokjin's shoulder, "and you still don't see it, do you?"

 

maybe seokjin did. maybe he didn't. namjoon knew he would never stop loving him either way.

 

 

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A/N: maybe some day i will stop having so many namjin feelings all the time. today is not that day.

another songfic drabble i wrote valentines day weekend at camp, what am i doing with my life lmfao