Kris was gone. he never attended the school anymore. and it hurt Luhan... so much...

Luhan was like a zombie now. he was like a body without soul. Luhan often stared in a daze, speaking without emotion within. he was just.. pathetic, that was Doojoon said to him.

Luhan now spent more time with Doojoon. he was a bit awkward with Taecyeon since that accident. and Doojoon felt so sad watching Luhan like this.

"Lu... wanna go to cafe and grab some coffee?" Doojoon said gently as he sat beside Luhan, who put his head on the desk. Luhan looked up with droopy eyes

"no.. i.. want to stay here.." Doojoon sighed

"Lu.. stop this.. i told you.. you look.. pathetic, you know.."

"well.. maybe that's i am.." Luhan smiled a sad smile

"Lu, till when you'll be like this? it wont make him come back.." Doojoon sighed. Luhan eyes then started to be teary.

Luhan then brought his hands to cover his face. Doojoon knew Luhan was crying when he saw Luhan's shoulder started shaking. He then brought Luhan into his hug

"sshhh... it's okay Lu... sshhh..." Doojoon tried to calm Luhan but he cried harder

Luhan remembered Kris would always said the same words to calm him everytime he came to backyard and cried. and Luhan remembered those words would always success calming him down. but now those words felt so empty. Luhan didnt knew why.

oh, yeah he knew why. because those words weren't said by Kris.

Kris...

***

Luhan walked weakly towards his class. usually after opened the door, he greeted his student cheerfuly. but today he opened the door and just walked to his desk.

"good morning.." Luhan greeted simply

"good morning, sir!"

"so, open your book..." Luhan left his words in air, when he looked up from his desk and saw a familiar face sat near the window. He rubbed his eyes, trying to make sure that what he saw wasn't his imagination

"Kris..." Luhan gasped, loudly since other students looked at him and Kris. the said boy just looked at the professor boringly before looked back outside the window.

a pang shot Luhan's heart. Luhan tried to calm even inside he wanted to hug Kris and talk with him. even he didn't know what he will say.

"uhm..o-okay.. well let's continue.. so.." Luhan continued his teaching, tried hard not to think about Kris. but still he wanted to talk to Kris. after this class, he would directly go to Kris.

unfortunately, when he just finished his class and said his goodbye, Kris already gone from the class. when he walked outside the class, Luhan already lost Kris.

"uhm.. excuse me.. do you .. uhm.. do you see Kris?" Luhan asked some student who stood outside

"uhm.. i saw him walked to the principal office, sir" the student answered

"oh.. uhm.. thank you.." Luhan said sadly

Kris really avoided him. he was really out of his life. he really gone from his life.

Kris...

***

Luhan walked weakly to his office. he still thought about Kris. he felt so confused, so stupid, so pathetic. Luhan directly walked to his desk without looking up, he kept looking down onto the floor

"if you walk like that, you'll hit that hard wall, you know!" Taecyeon's voice made Luhan looked up. He saw Taecyeon stood beside his desk,holding two cups of coffee in his hands.

"here..." Taecyeon said as he offered the coffee to Luhan.

"thank you.." Luhan said as he took the cup and sat on his chair

"how are you?" Taecyeon asked Luhan. Luhan knew Taecyeon waited not an ordinary answer like 'i'm fine' from that question, but Luhan didn't want to answer with any other answer than

"i'm fine, thanks" Luhan answered

"what about you? how's your .. face.." Luhan said as he pointed some purple bruises in Taecyeon's face

"i'm fine.. these bruises were nothing.." Taecyeon laughed awkwardly. both of them then just enjoyed the coffee in silence

"uhm.. Lu.. about you.. and-"

"don't!" Luhan cut

"i don't want to talk about it, Taecyeon..please.." he added

"i just want you to know that this is not your fault.." Luhan frowned

"what do you mean?" he asked

"all of these, our fight, Kris leaving, my bruises.. these weren't your fault.. Kris was the one who's the real jerk"

"Don't say that about Kris!! you don't know a thing about him!!" Luhan protested

"he's bad boy, Lu! you deserve someone's better... someone like-"

"someone like who?" Luhan cut

"someone like me"

SLAP!!

Taecyeon's bruises cheek was getting redder after Luhan slapped him. Luhan then splashed his hot coffee to Taecyeon's face

"arggh.. Lu.. whatthe-"

"you are worse than Kris!!" Luhan bursted

"LUHAN!!" Doojoon suddenly shouted as he ran inside the office

"oh.. sorry.. did i interupt something?" Doojoon asked awkwardly as he looked at Taecyeon's red face and Luhan's fumed face

"no..we're done!!" Luhan said as he glared at Taecyeon and then turned to Doojoon

"what is it?" he asked

"Lu.. Kris.." Luhan gasped

"what happen to Kris?" Luhan asked, afraid hearing the answer

"he.. he is leaving.. he is leaving this school.. the staff said he moved out from this country.."

"WHAT?!" Luhan directly ran away from his office,leaving Doojoon and trying to find Kris.

"what happened with you?" Doojoon then asked Taecyeon who still cleaned up his face

"nothing" he scoffed

"you know what.. you shouldn't force love, because it will hurt you more.. more than when you get rejected..." Doojoon said as he patted Taecyeon's shoulder

***

i love DooJoon..

*ehem* well sorry it's just spontaneous

uhm.. yeah..

i'm sorry i'm pending the ending *what a rhyme*

next chapter probably the last chapter

All Luhan's insecurities, Kris' insecurities, and YOUR insecurities will be anwered in the next chapter.. 

Stay tune juseyoooo~