Once again, I asked him to go out to a cafe because I want to talk to him. I chose a café instead of staying home because home would just pull me closer to his side easier.

He took me to a luxurious, romantic cozy and famous café of the city. Perhaps he wanted me to understand how much he loves me and treasures me so he chose a special place like this.

We sat facing each other across the table. I hold his hand, looked at him gently said to him “Yeobo, don’t you think that it’s time you told me everything?”

 One of his hands gently caressed my face while the other hand held my hands tightly. I felt his warm tears falling on my arm. After a while, he looked up and said to me

“I want to tell you this a long time ago but I am afraid that you don’t have enough trust for me. So, it would be pointless if I told you. Today, I know it’s time, I believe you would believe me right?”

“Yes, I will believe you. I believe you won’t hurt me again by telling lies to me again. Isn’t it?”

He was still holding and said.

“For all those year we have lived together, I felt satisfied with you in almost every aspect. You are very thoughtful; you raise and take care of the kid very well. You have conflicts with my parents but you also respect them, you didn’t make me feel puzzled. You also take good care and worry a lot about me. That is enough to say you are a good wife, good mother, good son-in-law.

One point that I felt disappointed about you is that you talked a lot about the problem from my family to yours. There are too many things we have to deal with. I felt discourage and tired.

And with her, I can share my interest, things I care. At first I was just some chatting and conversation. Gradually, it became an addiction and I started to like her. I don’t want to lie to you about this.

The day you found out, we, to be more precise she wanted to end our relationship because she doesn’t want me to suffer, you to suffer, the kids to suffer. This is from the bottom of her heart. I believe it.

I also want to end everything with her because I don’t see a future in that relationship. I love her but I love you and the kid a lot more. I’m afraid every time when I think about leaving one of our kids, leaving you. I want them to be in a situation where I can have a dad but lose their mom or have their mom but lose their dad. I feel guilty for making her life like that. She can only live in shadow and don’t have a chance to start a new life with anyone else.

But I was too greedy and selfish. I thought like that but I couldn’t do. I still very hesitant, still have feeling for her. I got back to her, continued to cheat on you. Still, I felt very guilt with you so I tried hard to make up it for you, care more about you and work hard. I also felt guilty for bringing her into this mess. I felt very misery and not happy at all.”

Kris talked like he has never talked in his like and I listened like I have never listened before. Just like that I listened and he talked looking at each other to understand.

“I am not really sure the reason why I did this. I felt pity for her. We became good friend. We started out just like normal friends. Soon, the feeling developed more. I think our feeling then changed into love but honestly, comparing with my feeling for you and our family, my feeling for her is not as deep as my feeling for you. Up till now, you have known that I cheated on you before Alice. I felt really bad for betraying your trust for lying to you. I felt lonely and you weren’t there with me. After Sehun was born, I tried to make up to you and the kids. I tried to be the best father and husband.

Alice is a very good person. She is very understanding, I am not saying that you aren’t understanding too but you have too much thing to worry like the kid, the house, my parent, your brother, your work. I don’t want more burdens on you with my problem. But now thinking back, I should share my problem with you, talk with you more and encourage you to do the same with me. Alice and I don’t want to sabotage our family. Even if you divorced me, I wouldn’t marry her.

I hurt you bad. I betrayed your trust. But you still took good care of me. You are always sincere with me. I felt guiltier than ever. I was very afraid when you and kids starting to have a distance with me. I am no longer an important part of this family. You became better person. I was very happy to see your success. But that also made me worry about you meeting other people and your new relationships. There are a lot of better people you will encounter. I was panic because of the feeling of losing you and my family. I realized how important you are to me. Now I know that I don’t really love her. My true happiness is our family. I like going home with you, Tao, Sehun there was waiting for me. I like having lunch or dinner with you.

Therefore I had a