The next morning, I waked up. I saw the empty space beside me. So Kris had already woken up. I stepped down from my bed, went to the bathroom, washed my face and brushed my teeth. I could smell something delicious so I went to the kitchen to check to out.

I saw Kris cooking in the kitchen. Kris rarely cooked but he is not a bad cook. He knows how to make some decent dishes.

I felt very wonderful. I love my family to be like this, happy. And for me, I don’t need to worry about Kris seeing someone else.

It’s time for me to go to work. Usually, Kris would help me to get my car to the front of my house. But he didn’t see him do that but he was standing and waiting for me at the stair. Before, I was able to say anything; he said “I will drive you to work.”

He got in the car and waited for me.

On the way to my work place, he talked to me about some daily casual stuff. I felt more relax because of his attitude. Then we arrived at my work place, I opened the door and stepped out. He told me “I will pick you up at lunch. Let’s have lunch together.”

Sitting in my desk, my mind was somewhere else. I couldn’t really focus on my work. I had anticipated this moment for a very long time, waiting for him to come back to me with the love we used to have. I didn’t think this could happen but that didn’t mean that I didn’t want to.

A few months ago, I would never imagine or think that Kris would ever want to return to me. I had already identified that he was just doing this for the kids. We would remain like this until the kids are old enough, maybe high school student and then get divorce. That was good enough for me.

Also, inside me, there were still worries and puzzlements. I worried about tomorrow. I worried that if I believed in him again and loved him again, I could get hurt again.

Staying like this could be better, just like this. He is still beside me. Together we can take good care of the kids and each other, be happy.

But I had live with him without any real interaction. Though, I really want him, I had to restrain my desire. How can I begin? It has been a long time, it seemed that I forgot how to.

 I called Kyungsoo, a person I can truly trust and give me advice. I told him about him about my feeling and asked him if I should postpone for another week. He just laughed and told me that I was like some teenager that fall in love for the first time. He told me to relax and accept Kris. He said that “I have a feeling that everything will be fine. If you asked him for one week then there will be another one week and the cycle keeps going. I think you have been through enough to know what to do. You have to solve every problem quickly. You have overcome every obstacle and this is just the final step”

Normally, I would trust what Kyungsoo told me but this time, I just felt more puzzled. I picked up my phone and typed “Give me another week, okay?”. When I finished typing, I deleted the message because I thought of Kyungsoo’s words. Then,