The future looked still so dark to me. I felt lost. I didn’t know what future had plan for me or my family. I felt so tired, had no energy. I looked at the family picture on my desk. I knew that it would be very tough to find a direction for me and my family.

I pictured a possible future for my family. In the kitchen, there could be me standing cooking alone in the kitchen or someone else standing there. I could end up living with only one of my sons. There could be no more Kris. I could never see my sons happily playing with his dad. There would be no more happy dinner or breakfast.

I remembered my phone call with Kyungsoo. His advice cheered me up. He was the only one that I can talk to.

Flashback

Kyungsoo said “I have told you this before.  Don’t suffer alone. The one who is the reason for all of this should pay for what he did. He can’t have the best of both worlds. ”

He continued “You need to choose between family and love. I think you can get over him much easier than Sehun and Tao. My situation back then is different from yours. My son is more understanding cause he was older. And in your case, I can sense that Tao and Sehun are much more sensitive. A broken family can have bad effect on them. But living in lies is not good either. I suggest you should talk to him first. Rip off your husband’s fake mask. Let’s see what he has to say. Then you can plan out from there. Slowly let the kid know about the situation. Fix or break depending on his attitude. I want you to be slow and steady.“

After a long day of working, I had to go back to the place where there was a person that I don’t want to see. I wished that he was on business trip so I could have more time to think. But that was not going to happen.  I needed more energy to face the problem waiting for me.

I knew that I can keep a happy life cover for the kids but I would not be fair for me. I never want to live in lies and betrayal. I really hated that woman. She knew that pain I have been through. He was cheated and her son was growing up without a father. Why did she cause this pain for me?

Once again, I asked him to meet at a café. I tried to be calm and cool just like the first time. I wanted this to be the time for both of us to speak about our choice. I wanted to keep this family first.

 “I’ve already known everything. I want us to frankly talk about this. Let’s be honest.”

“I don’t… Why do you