how can i love him?

Erganova

-"And sh.t" i said while laying back on the sofa.

-"Errrm..." started Seungri "Why is there a boy in your living room?"

-"Did you get a wife?" asked Daesung

I sighed. Geez spare me ! As i was sitting up, I saw Daesung coming close to the angel, his finger near angel's skin.

-"Wait! Dont...."

Too late, Jin yong stepped back, spread his wings and his tail was out. The guys were flabbergasted. I refused to turn my head toward them, I was afraid to see disgust or fear in their eyes.

-"Why..... does he .....have w..w..wings?"  questioned Seungri

-"And his tail ! look at his tail?!" exclaimed Daesung "Isn't it awesome? Why are you keeping it to yourself?" - he looked at ji yong and walked toward him- "where are you from? are you an alien? Can you really fly? Since when have you been on earth? Do you know lady gaga?"

-"Stop it!" I ordered him with a deep and loud voice that startled everyone.

As Daesung was walking to him, the angel kept stepping back until he was trapped in a corner with no way to escape. They were all looking at me. I rubbed the back of my neck and asked Ji yong to get dressed. He quietly went to my room , his head down. I took my head in my hand and felt someone sitting next to me. I looked up to who it was and saw Taeyang, he was calm but confused. He frowned and said :

-"You know that he has to return right? You can't keep on living with him forever. Don't get too attached to him. You will end up being hurt. We have to send him back."

He was right. I knew that, but my heart hurt. How can i let him go? But i have to, i know.

-"I know" I replied "But i don't know where he is from, and you saw him. He is really thin. I can't let him go like this."

Taeyang agreed but made me promised to send him back as soon as the angel would be able to return his home. I am buying time. I want to be with the angel more. Taeyang was about to say something when he got pulled away and a joyful Daesung with sparkled eyes replaced him.

"So....., " he grinned "since when are you together?"

-"4 da... wait what? We aren't together!" I said

-"Well, for now" he replied

I was kind of puzzled by his last words. What did he mean? I know myself better than he do. I got up and started to walk when i fell from pain. My leg.. I forgot about it. It hurt a lot. Taeyang, Daesung and Seungri panicked when they see me crying. Yeah i'm used to have those kind of injuries, so i am able to handle it. But the pain was just too much. I thought i was going to faint again.  Taeyang drew out his phone to call the hospital but the angel prevented him from doing that. He said to step back. His eyes were serious. It was the first time i saw him like this .He kneeled next to my broken leg and touched it. I couldn't help but screamed. It was just unbearable. The angel got up and asked the other to lay me on the sofa. I'm going to faint, i swear....

-"We have to bring him to the hospital!" said Taeyang

-"No we can't" answered Ji yong while going to the kitchen.

He came back with a knife. What is he going to do with it? I was stunned, is he going to kill us? My dream was right? Taeyang grabbed his arm.

-"What are you doing? Let's just go to the hospital!" he shouted

-"We can't.... " replied Ji yong "We can't bring him to the hospital. If we do he'll die! He has a plotter inside of his leg, if we don't take it out now he'll die."

The silence was heavy. Every one tried to understand what he said. My scream broke the silence. I was in pain, a deep pain. It became hard to breath, as if something heavy was on my chest. I couldn't hear anymore, i felt dizzy. I saw the angel saying something to Taeyang who let his hand go afterward. Daesung came next to my head and covered my mouth with a tissue. What was going on? i have no clue. I felt someone removing my wet pants. I looked down and saw the angel with the knife in his hand. I started to struggle as i saw the knife going down on my skin. Seungri pressed on my shoulder to prevent me from moving. Then i felt it. The cold piece of steel in my steel. The pain was unbearable. I wished i fainted. I wouldn't have to endure it. The pain was so high that i couldn't feel anything anymore. Daesung trying to cover my screams. Was i screaming? I don't know, it was like my body was acting by itself. I arced my back as i felt a hand entering in my leg. I struggled again. Please kill me, i can't bear it anymore. I then felt the hand pulling something that was hooked on my bone. the hand kept pulling it. Wait.. my bone.. it'll go with it ! In a long , loud scream, the plotter had been removed from my bone. It's over right? It's over... A warm man covered my blooded leg and the angel did the same thing as in the cave. The last thing i saw was ji yong's worried face looking at me. Then the dark.

 

I opened my eyes and blinked. The sun was bright.  Where am i ? I sat up and remembered everything, i touched my leg. It healed. I looked down, Daesung, Seungri and Taeyang were laying on the floor sleeping. I smiled, they looked like children.

-"Seung hyeon?"

I turned my head toward the voice and saw Ji yong. He had two dark circles under his eyes and they were swollen. He has cried? I didn't have the time to open my mouth that Ji yong was already in my arms, snuggling in my chest and crying. I his hair to calm him down. Once he stopped crying, he looked at me and asked if i was all right. Although i told him i was better, he didn't trust me and kept looking at me with his worried face. I had to jump in front of him to convince him that i was really fine. We heard a moan. It was Seungri who was attacked by Daesung. Indeed, Daesung was biting his hand. I don't want to imagine what he was dreaming about. The boys woke up one by one and we ate breakfast together. There was a heavy atmosphere. No one dared to talk. I was the one who broke the silence.

-"What was that plotter?"

All eyes were on Ji yong. He looked down and kept silent. I asked again.

"Ji yong~ah... What was that plotter?"

He was still looking down but started to talk.

-"It's..it's a esnaphona. It's a military plotter that we used in Erganova"

-"Erganova? What is it?" Questioned Seungri while eating

-"My planet. I mean, where i'm from." answered Ji yong.

-"Since when are you on earth?" Taeyang asked

-"Since...-Ji yong sighed- since when there were still dinosaurs and homo abilis didn't exist yet" said Ji yong

Wait... Does it means that Ji yong has been there millions years ago? How is it even possible? We were all shocked by what he just said. Nobody could believe that, millions years...that was too much. Too much for us. Daesung laughed thinking it was a joke. But ji yong's face told us that he wasn't joking and that it was the truth.

-"Erganova's astronomers found out that there were a planet that was similar of ours. So we sent scientists to make some research on this planet" continued Ji yong
 

-"Was it because you exhausted all your natural resources and you wanted to find another planet to colonize?" questioned Taeyang

Ji yong shook his head

-"Not at all ! Erganova people took a really good care of our planet. We live with it and by it. We don't want it to be sick, if Erganova is sick then we will all die. Erganova is one of the first planet that was able to welcome life after the Big Bang. Our space time is different from yours. We were curious about what another planet that was similar as us would look like"

-"Allright, but that doesn't explain the plotter and those creatures that we fought in the cave." i said

-"As i told you, the esnaphona, i mean the plotter, is for military use. It is usually for prisoners or terrorists. With the plotter, we can trace them."

-"But the plotter was big, how could Seung hyeon not notice it?" asked Daesung

It was true. I don't remember someone implanting any plotter in my leg.

-"That's because at the beginning, the plotter it as big as a bacteria, invisible. When we implant them, you don't feel anything nor know what we did. The plotter then dig a path to the bone and settle on it. It grows up until it can transmit a signal. Esnaphonas are made for Erganovian. Our bones are stronger than yours. That's why Seung hyeon broke his leg and that gave the pain." Ji yong explained

-"And what about the creatures?"

-" At first, they were erganovian normal people, like me. But they have been corrupted by humans. I mean they started becoming greedy and wanted more. They slowly changed into those monsters. They exist in Erganovia, they're called yister, it means sins. I once defied someone i shouldn't do and got detained into the ice. The yisters we fought were asked to prevent anyone from releasing me, because i was condemned to stay here, until the end of the earth."

It took me around 5 minutes to assimilate all the things that The angel said. So he is extraterrestrial.. It's not as if i didn't know it already anyway but it felt weird hearing it from his own mouth. Taeyang's words came back to me. I won't be able to stay with him forever. Life is unfair isn't it? But i can't force him to stay here, it's been millions years since he's been on earth. I think he misses his family doesn't he? Those thoughts hurt my heart. Ji yong is already important to me. He is the little brother i ever had, even though he is much older than me.. Everyone looked lost in their thoughts. It was quite hard to swallow, all that was crazy. My phone rang and i answered.. It was a CEO asking me for writing a song for one of their band's come back. Ah.. With all that i forgot about my job. I told everyone that i had job to do and it was decided to go to the agency.

When i arrived to the agency, everyone greeted me and wanted me to tell them how was the cliff. I was surprised, i told nobody about it except the guys.... Well forget about it, telling them is like telling everyone. So for a hour, i lied to them saying that the cliff was really hard to climb and that i slipped third time and almost fell.  Ji yong was with me so i had to come up with an excuse. I told them that i met him in Texas and that i took him as a disciple. It was the worst lie that ever came out from my mouth but they all believe to my second lie.  I finally escaped from the crowd and walk to my office... Well it's more like a small room with a desk and a chair where i write my songs. I told Ji yong to sit on a chair while i was writing the song  i was requested. So i sat on my chair and started writing. When i write, i lose sense of time. A hour seem to be a second. So i don't know how many time have passed since i started writing. I put my pen down and stretched. I glanced at ji yong. He was playing with a piece of paper, ripping it and then blowing it. I smiled, how cute.

-"Have you finished?" He asked

I nodded and got up. I walked to him and messed his hair.
 

-"Let's go to meet Taeyang and the others okay?"
 

He agreed and we both walked to the dance hall. Not to repeat my mistake, i knocked on the door before coming in. there was Taeyang and Minzy here. She greeted me. I learnt that it was already 3pm. I forgot to eat my lunch. I glanced at ji yong who was talking with Minzy. Had he endure his hunger for me? Or he may have got away without me realizing it. Anyway he seems to be more sociable. I don't know why but this bother me a bit.  I showed Taeyang the lyrics i wrote and he agreed to it. It really makes me happy when Taeyang and the other like my song because i know that they'll be straight-forward if they don't like it. We were talking about the lyrics when i heard a loud scream. A scared and shaking ji yong ran hiding behind my back. I frowned and looked around. I didn't see anything that could scare him. When i asked him what was wrong, he weakly pointed to the mirrors of the back of the room.

-"There...there are other people here!" he said

So he doesn't know about mirrors? I told him that everything was okay and slowly took him to the mirrors. Once we were before them, Ji yong was shaking. I went behind him and hugged him from back. I kept saying that everything was all right and that there was nothing to be scared about. After a moment, Ji yong started to relax but i didn't want to let him go. I tighten my hug.

-"Mmmh..hyung?"

I got surprised. Ji yong just called hyung? Well, i understood and let him go. He then walked to the mirrors and touch it. I looked at me through my reflection and i smiled to him. He turned to me so quickly that it scared me. He looked quite shocked. He looked at my reflection then at me, then at my reflection. He pointed at it and then at me. I bright smiled appeared on my lips when i understood what was going on. I went closer to him and leaned on the mirrors.

-"Yes" i said " That boy here is you"

I pointed to his own reflection. His eyes were teary. While looking at the mirror, he touched his face, as if he was discovering how he looked like and who he was. That time, he offered me one of the most beautiful smile i ever saw. Pure, happy, simple, bright.... It made my heart throbbed. Such a beautiful face... I was about to do something regretful when i felt a hand on my shoulder. It was taeyang, with a stern face. I avoided his eyes. I guess he saw what happened.

-"Please can you leave? We have to prepare the room for our lessons" said Minzy

Ah, right. I forgot about their lessons. I grabbed Ji yong's hand and walked to the door when i heard Taeyang calling me. I asked Ji yong to go ahead and walked back to Taeyang.

-"This is not right" he started "You should stop your feelings right now"

-"What are you talking about?"

-"Please T.O.P, i saw you hugging him and the way you always look at him. I'm not stupid, you love him don't you?"

-"Don't kidding me Taeyang. Ji yong is an alien and he is a boy, how the hell can be in love with him?.. Anyway i'm going back home. Please hand it to the CEO for me. Thanks"

With this words, i got out of the room angrily. I was mad with Taeyang ... but the one i was the most mad with was myself. Why did i say such words when i don't think them? I messed my hair. I'm a coward.  I caught up with Ji yong.  We silently walked back to my car. The atmosphere was weird. I can tell why but it felt like this.

-"Ah, right. Let's go to the supermarket before heading home. I don't have any food anymore."

Ji yong simply nodded and remained silent. I drove to the supermarket. I kept wondering what did i do. If i did something wrong to Ji yong. Maybe someone told him something? We got out of the car and entered the supermarket.  I was picking up some meat when i felt someone hugging me from back. My heart raced at the thought it was ji yong. But it was just the cashier.

-"Oppa..! i missed you!"
 

She kept hugging me. It made me feel ill-at-ease. I didn't think we were that close. I glanced at the angel. He was looking at some food. It was obvious that he was ill-at-ease too. I pushed her slowly back and gently asked her to leave. I walked to ji yong and asked him if he had everything he wanted. He nodded and quickly walked to the casher. I sighed and followed him. I paid everything and we came back to the car. Once in there, i couldn't help but ask him while i was starting the car.

-"What's wrong?"

No answer. I didn't want to argue so i just drove quietly home.  It bothered me.. why was he acting like this? As if he was avoiding me. When we arrived at home, i parked the car but didn't unlock the doors. Ji yong looked at me and then deeply sighed"

-There is nothing wrong" he said

-"Don't lie, you're all down suddenly. So just tell me"

He looked down and didn't say anything. It somehow made me angry. I unlocked the doors and got out. I walked toward the entrance when i stopped and came to ji yong who was still next to the car. I grabbed his shoulder, stared straight at him and open my mouth to speak when we heard a loud noise and we were projected 5 meters away. After a bit, i came back to my sense and hardly got up. I looked up to my apartment.

-"Holy sh.t...."

My home was in fire. People were running everywhere. The burned people came out from the building. Some were more burned than the other. There was that mother. She was my next door neighbor. She was carrying her 5 years old daughter. She wasn't moving, blood kept dropping from her body . I couldn't take my eyes off of it. My home burning up. We could have died. Both of us. If i hadn't food to buy. If i hadn't wanted to tell him it. We would have been like those burned people in pain or even worse.

-"..Seung hyeon!"

I looked at the angel. He was hiding behind  a car and pointed to something* I glanced at where he was pointed and saw it. They were there. Hiding in the dark of the corner, waiting the right moment to come out. Already? How can it be? I grabbed ji yong's hand. For now there's only one thing to do.
Run.

 

 

 

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heegrand #1
Chapter 11: Can't wait for chapter 12
Lucky-seven777
#2
UPDATE BTW FIRST STORY EVER READED ON THIS SITE ^_^
maryrevette #3
Chapter 8: aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh que él confiese su amor y poner en peligro la vida de ji yong es un gran dilema por que eses amor lo esta devorando lentemente. y ji yong esta destruido aa causa de su rechazo constante.. solo espero que la profecia pueda cambiar y hacer que estos dos se amen x siempre
maryrevette #4
Chapter 7: pobre seunghyun .. su amor no puede ser, es terrible estar enamorado sin esperanzas... :(
maryrevette #5
Chapter 6: mi bello. ya cayo en el amor por jiyong.. (y quien no?)... ahora debera enfrentarse no solo los enemigos que quieren herir a jiyong, sino tener el suficiente valor de confesar su amor... gracias por actualizar.. :p
GracieAnn
#6
Chapter 5: Yea, I had no idea that G-Dragon was god though...
GracieAnn
#7
Chapter 5: It's a little too much. You pushed the storyline way to fast and made it less enjoyable. I like where it is going I guess but it's kinda weird