Chapter 68

“I want to be with her but I can’t because she’ll hate me when she knows the truth since she loves you, you know that, Hyunjoong? God, why did you have to die, Hyunjoong? She loved you, not me.” Jaejoong sobbed again, much to Tiffany’s despair. He’s in pain & she can tell, even a fool could tell that he’s keeping all of his uneasiness inside.

“Sometimes I wish that I’m the one who’s buried here, not you! I hate you for dying & making a fool out of us like this! I love her, I really do but I have to keep away from her as she loves you, not me! If I stay, I’ll just make a fool of my love for her while pretending to be you! I somehow hope that she loves me, even though!” Jaejoong cried out incoherently, trying to control his emotions.

“God, I’m just a replacement for her, she doesn’t even remember me. I’m no one to her.”

“Jae Oppa.” Tiffany whispered, & frowned. He shouldn’t wish that he was dead. If he’s dead, she would never be able to feel so loved by him & she will never know how much he loves her. Tears began to rolled down her cheeks as she started to feel queasy, yet again.

“I hope for nothing more in my life, except...except for her love!” He cried again, making Tiffany’s heart stop & skipped a beat.

He shouldn’t have said that. She loves him. She really does. If she doesn’t love him, she will never want to carry their child in her womb. She swears that she will abort the child if she hated him but she didn’t do it because she loves him. She loves him deeply, with all of her heart.

Tiffany tried to breath quickly as her heart started to function as it normally does. She might have loved Hyunjoong, her husband, & will always love him still, but Jaejoong will always have the part of her heart that no one else will be able to have. Jaejoong is special to her & each night & days of her lives, he will remain special to her. She’s certain about that.

“I know I’m selfish to say this!” Jaejoong started again.

“But...But I still want to own her love, even though it’s as tiny as a grain of sand.” He said sorrowfully, caus