~Park Soyun's Story~

"This is the first and probably the only time that our resident maknae will ever ask me for help so come on and hurry it up, will ya Soyunie~?" I eyed her questioningly as I pulled a soft grey over-sized sweater over my head.

"Why does he care about looking good all of the sudden, I'm pretty sure he's fine just the way he is. Even without taking a shower in the morning, girls still flocked themselves towards him during school all the time..."  I've known Jungkook for as long as I could remember and not once did he ever care about what others thought of him. Does he really care that much about looking "good" for Yerin?

"Well, if you really must know... This morning Jungkook told me that after walking Yerin home yesterday;  he saw her house and it was the size of our entire school. According to his assumption; she's rich and so, he told me that he wants to make a good impression by looking RICH himself. His words, not mine." Sora Eonnie waved her hands frantically, emphasizing her last sentence.

*Chuckle* "Kookie, looking rich? Wow, the power of love sure does wonders..." I shook my head from side to side in disbelief, just thinking about how he had acted during school yesterday made me burst into a round of laughter.  

"Indeed it does~ So tell me Soyunie, what's going on between Namjoon and you? He didn't come home until late last night and he wasn't picking up his phone either when the boys tried calling him earlier. And you my dearest sister are avoiding the Namjoon topic all together, so I know you're keeping something from me? Spill it." Eonnie's gaze at that moment was truly deadly as silence engulfed the air around us. I opened my mouth to speak, when suddenly....

*BARGE* "HOW LONG DOES IT TAKE TO GET READY?!!"

"Tadah~ How's this?" Staring at Jungkook coming out of the dressing room for the hundredth time, I couldn't help but to laugh. It had probably been over an hour since we ( Sora Eonnie, Jungkook, and I) had arrived at this shopping center and yet every single outfit that Jungkook had managed to pick out or try on consisted of pretty much the same styles and not to mention ALL red.

*STARE* "Are you kidding me? Yah, don't you dare "Tadah" me Mister. How many times do I have to tell you that you need to broaden your choice of colors Jungkook. Wearing red everything isn't gonna get you the girl, trust Noona on this. Now, go try these on~!" Watching Sora Eonnie throw a mound of clothes towards Jungkook, I knew she was seriously trying to help him out as a small smile crept onto my face. Jungkook was more than just a friend to us, along with the rest of the oppas; they had become our family. To Sora Eonnie and I, they were like our real brothers...even Namjoon.

At a time like this, I really miss you oppa... I wonder how life would have been like if the accident never happened, would we all still be as close as we are now? Would Namjoon and I have turned out differently if you were still here oppa? Right now, I honestly wished that you were here oppa. I have so many questions that I want to ask you about but I can't.

*POKE* "Why are you smiling with such a sad expression on your face like that? Is that even possible? It's creeping me out a bit Soyun ah~ And where the heck did Tweedledum and Tweedledee run off to?" Sora Eonnie lightly poked my left cheek as she squinted her eyes worriedly at me before turning her head to scan across the store looking for Jimin and Taehyung oppa, who had met us there not too long ago but quickly they had somehow disappeared out of sight.

"Huh? They were just right next to me..." I responded a few seconds too late as Sora Eonnie was now an inch away from my face grinning mischievously at me.

"Hmm~ Well anyways, since we have some alone time right now; wanna tell me what's going on or do I have to pry it out of you?" Sora Eonnie kept her gaze on me for quite a while before I realized what she was talking about. It took me a few more seconds of hesitating before I decided that it was about time I told her what had happened with the whole Namjoon situation.

"...we got into a huge fight last night Eonnie." I mumble softly, unsure of how she was going to react. Sora Eonnie was always unpredictable and this time wasn't any different. Instead of being shocked or concerned, she looked quite content as she slyly grinned at me.

"Ohh~? Well, that totally explains all the yelling I heard and his late night randevu with the boys. What happened? The boys wouldn't tell me a single thing, damn to their so called stupid bro-code!" Without even stating his name, she already knew who and what I was referring to. Sora Eonnie my back as she inched even closer towards my side without much effort, not that she wasn't already practically glued to me wanting to know the details of the night before.

"He was trying to apologize about the whole flyer thing but I got angry and said some things that I probably shouldn't have said..." The longer I thought about what had happened, the more I started to feel guilty. Namjoon was definitely trying to apologize but I couldn't seem to hold in my anger at that time. If this would have happened a week before, I probably would have stayed quiet and accepted his "lecture" and his "I'm sorry" without thinking twice but the me now was someone different. I became someone I didn't even know anymore, which was kind of frightening to say the least.

"Umm...about those flyers..." I peered over at Sora Eonnie as she spoke up but I had managed to jump in before she had the chance to continue on with her sentence. The more I thought about it, the more my guilt started to dissipate and I started to harbor even more anger towards Namjoon during that moment. I don't know what had overcome me these past few days but every time I think about him my emotions go haywire and I start feeling everything all at once. I love but I hate him at the same time and it's starting to seriously drive me insane.

"I really don't care about those stupid flyers Eonnie. I was mad because he got angry at me, thinking that I was just like all the other girls out there who would do stupid things like that to get his attention. He said we weren't a real couple and it hurt. Of course I know that we're not a real couple but the way he said it, it just...hurt." I could have went on and on but the truth was I was still feeling so distraught by Namjoon's words yesterday. His words had seemingly cut right through me and it hurt.

"Soyun ah, I'm sure he didn't mean it like that. Like you said, there are things that you don't mean to say but when you're angry it comes out unintentionally. Same goes for Namjoon, I know he would never want to hurt you intentionally. It's just a lovers quarrel silly~" Sora Eonnie smiled teasingly as she patted my back once again trying her best to calm my restless thoughts. Unfortunately for her, her efforts didn't go accordingly.

"...but he did, Eonnie and he's right. We are not and we will never be a real couple..." No matter how long I chase after him, the "us" that I want will never become real. I could feel the throbbing of my heart, painfully crashing to the pit of my chest as I stood there silently, not wanting to relive what had happened all over again in my head.

"Listen Soyun ah, regardless of what you or Namjoon say; you guys have always been a couple. A relationship doesn't need to be deemed official for it to be real. Think about it... When you're in a bad mood, he tries to cheer you up no matter what. When you ask him to do something even if he'd rather die, he still does it for you. When other guys are around you, you don't notice this but he does get super agitated. He gets extremely jealous Soyun. He gets mad at Jungkook even. Poor Kookie sometimes gets beaten up for being too touchy with you, that has to mean something right~?" Sora Eonnie bombarded me with question after question, but I already knew the million dollar answer. I knew him better than anyone but sometimes I wished that I didn't.

"He does those things because he sees me as his little sister Eonnie and...he...he would never get jealous because of me..." I was so sure of myself that he cared and always looked out for me like an older brother would. But this was the first time that I've ever heard someone tell me that Namjoon actually got jealous aside from Jungkook who was always just joking around. There's no way that he'd ever be jealous. He never even got jealous when it came to Sora Eonnie, so why would he be because of me? The truth was clear as day and no one could have convinced me otherwise.

"How do you know how he feels, if he himself doesn't even know. Trust me Soyun, if he only saw you as his sister; he wouldn't be beating up people. Especially his own friends." I knew better than to take into consideration what Sora Eonnie had suddenly said. I knew better than to even remotely think that there was a grain of possibility in her words but everything took a turn once I heard a familiar voice come into the conversation.

"Are you guys talking about Namjoon hyung?" Jungkook suddenly appeared out of nowhere, poking his head cutely between the two of us while sporting a curious look with his new change of attire.

"Oh speaking of the alleged victim. Yah Kookie, doesn't Namjoon beat you up? Mmm~ By the way, I like this outfit on you, it makes you look manly. A true "sang namja"~ You're all grown up now..." Sora Eonnie was so proud of her stylizing work that she immediately forgot all about what she was talking about just a second ago as she went on without even a warning, pinching Jungkook's cheeks like he was the cutest little thing that she had ever laid eyes on. Jungkook tred to get away but it was already too late. He glanced at me for some help but knowing all too well that he wasn't going to be rescued anytime soon, he answered Eonnie's intial question without avail pouting like crazy for me to save him once again.

*NOD* "All the time, although usually its once a week. But lately its been an almost everyday routine Oww Noona~ Stop it, you're embarrassing me!" A small smirk was displayed on Jungkook's face before he grimaced in annoyance at Sora Eonnie's attack. He tried his best to swat Sora Eonnie's hand away from his face but unfortunately she's a bit aggressive when it comes to people fighting back against her.

"What, Namjoon oppa beats you up? ...why?? Why didn't you tell me this?" Jungkook was the closest to me aside from Namjoon and yet I had no idea? Why would he keep something like that from me? Why on earth would Namjoon beat up Jungkook in the first place? I couldn't seem to tell if he was being totally honest or sarcastic but I was just as confused when Jungkook replied to my round of questions.

"Well technically no, he doesn't exactly beat me up per say but he does yell at me all the time. And why? Because, you never asked. Do you really not know why no one, especially guys besides all the hyungs and I; never seem to want to approach you Soyun?" Jungkook and Eonnie stopped their cat fight and eyed me as I suddenly didn't know what to say. What is going on?

"...?" It was true, the more I thought on about it the more that I came to realize that what Jungkook had said was beyond correct. No one ever really approached me, but I didn't think it had anything to do with Namjoon. Wait, no one talked to me because of Namjoon?!

*GRIN* "Really~? You don't know, do you?? And here we all thought Namjoon hyung was the only slow one. Tsk tsk tsk~" Jungkook shook his head teasingly as my brain tried to process and come up with a logical explanation. I suddenly recalled the numerous times that I had a few guys scurry away from me before getting even remotely close to me. I knew people were scared of Namjoon but was he really the reason why those guys ran away before even saying a single word to me? Was he the sole reason why my guy classmates never once talked to me?  My brain instantly came up with what it had deemed to be the truth behind the matter.

"What are you trying to say? I guess Namjoon oppa's just overly protective over me that's all, what's the big deal?" I couldn't help but to snap at Jungkook. I knew the look in his eyes, he was suggesting something that was impossible. At this point I was so confused and yet I ended up defending Namjoon. I defended him like he was just a brother and that's how he treated me, like a little sister. For the second time, I subconsciously reprimanded our relationship as he stated, "we're not a real couple" and I was so used to him seeing me like that that it automatically came out that way. Even though my heart wanted him, my brain knew better than to want something that can never be mine.

"Protective is just saying it nicely and a great way to cover up his true feelings Soyunie~ Hyung always gets mad when the opposite comes near you and trust me, he actually hates it more than anything else in this world. Even though you and I are close, he seems to not like it whenever I'm alone with you either. To the point that we all came to realize that he acts like that because he's just plain..." Jungkook suddenly inched his way closer to me, placing his lips so close to my ear that I could feel his hot breath tickling against my cool chilled skin.

*Whisper* *"...jealous~"* Jungkook pulled away instantly chuckling to himself as he quickly rushed back to his dressing room before I could start to interrogate him. I found myself rooted and frozen in my own thoughts for quite a while, not noticing that Sora Eonnie was studying my every move at this point. Jealous? That word again. Namjoon, jealous?  He didn't like guys being close to me?

*Mumble* *"Then what happened earlier with Myungsoo..."* Was that because he was jealous? I've never seen Namjoon so angry in my life and he even forcefully pulled me back inside the house. I subconsciously took a hold of my wrist, the same one that he had gripped onto earlier. Was Namjoon actually jealous of Myungsoo? No, no way that would be impossible right? But somehow Namjoon seem