JANS stumbled into the music lounge and had wanted to leave if not for the Jewel song that was being sung with so much passion that it broke her already anguished heart.

I go about my business, I'm doing fine
Besides what would I say if I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday.
I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick a book up. Turn the sheets down.
And then I take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it'll be all right
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight 'cause

Dreams last so long
even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.

Yeah... You were meant for me and I was meant for you.

She hadn't hoped for anything but couldn't God have given her a better reception. He didn't have to insult her in front of his family like she was the one who instigated the whole thing. If I wasn't under contract not to talk to anyone about this, his ty attitude would be all over the internet. She stopped herself from typing it on a tweet because she still wanted to keep her job. It was a good one and it kept her paychecks neat and in a row. Being in a band was not as lucrative as it might be for those who are not Sungmin. She pouted when she remembered how she's admired and loved him for such a long time only to be reduced to neurotic fangirl who overstepped her boundaries.

“I am a musician too!” she was so pissed she couldn't keep the comment in her head. “Just because you are popular doesn't make me any less worthy of being in any freaking back-stage you over-indulgent bonehead!”

It hurt a lot to be insulted by someone she has considered her idol. She thought they had a lot in common. But it turns out he was just a jerk in sweetheart's clothing. I guess he's a really great actor. That I can tell that he is. He got me fooled. She couldn't help not to press on her chest in frustration. She was wondering if there was anyway to forget that the night ever happened.

She heard the guitar play this time and she was looking into the sparkling water that she ordered just so she had a reason to be there.

My stupid mouth

Has got me in trouble

I said too much again

To a date over dinner yesterday

And I could see

She was offended

She said "well anyway..."

Just dying for a subject change

She felt like it was exactly what Sungmin should be thinking if he had a conscience.

Oh, another social casualty

Score one more for me

How could I forget?

Mama said "think before speaking"

No filter in my head

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