Mama (for a friend)

I am not ready,

Seeing you lying on your bed so quietly, 

I would rather have you snapping at me, 

I would rather hear your sharp tongue wagging at me, 

I would rather have you arguing with me. 

I am not ready, 

I want to hold you more, 

I want to kiss you more, 

I want to laugh with you more, 

I want to love you more. 

I am not ready,

The doctors said you might not last the night, 

Atmost, you might have only days to live. 

I still want to believe in a miracle, 

I wish for you to live for a long time. 

I am not ready, 

I am not even married yet, 

You have not seen my children, 

You have not seen your grandchildren, 

I wholeheartedly wish for you to live for a long time. 

Writer's note: Composed March 12, 2016 for a friend, who's mother is in a critical conditon right now. 

I am sending a lot of hugs, and love to my friend's mom, my friend and their whole family.

I don't know what to say to you,

I don't know what is going on right now.

I am worried, but I don't know what I could do,

I could only sit here and pray for you.

Writer's note: This is my way of coping. With a heavy heart, I don't know how to express myself properly, I do it through poems sometimes.