Silent Tears

Poems(Random, Different Kind)

Silent Tears

Is this why I have this deep sadness? 

Rooted to my very core?

Is this why I have this intense pain? 

Ingrained to my very fiber? 

Is this why I am lost even before I started? 

My breath held in a chock hold?

Is this why I am doomed even before  I begun?

My heart squashed under a stump? 

Is this why I always fight for every breath? 

​​My lungs squeezed in a tight rope?

Is this why I always battle for any strength? 

​My muscles quivered like a jello? 

Is this why I always feel unwanted? 

I am always afraid to be left behind? 

Is this why I always feel broken? 

I am always afraid to feel?

Is this why you always feel sorry for me? 

Your eyes always betraying you? 

Is this why you always feel bad for me? 

Your actions always exposing you? 

Is this why you can't stand the sight of me? 

I am always a recall of your deed? 

Is this why you gave me away? 

I am always a reminder of your feat?

Is this why I always have anger issues? 

I am always concerned, and I always ask why? 

Is this why I always have displeased issues? 

I am always troubled, and I always ask why? 

How do I let all these go? 

Do I let you go as you let me go? 

How am I going to be set free? 

Do I even have a chance to be free? 

Why did you shackle me? 

Why did you?

Why did you blind folded me? 

Why did you? 

Do I forgive you? 

Will that open my cell?

Do I pardon you?

Will that at last free me? 

Do I force a change? 

Will that solve my problem? 

Do I break down my prison?  

Will that remove my dilemma? 

 

Writer's note: Finished composing April 28, 2018

I was told that my birth mother tried to abort me. I am trying to come to terms about it. 

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Lovexiu16 #1
Chapter 303: Your poems are beautiful.
To this day, I’m still in shock, as if they’re playing a trick on me.
I just hope, where he is, there’s no more sadness for him.
starlove
#2
Chapter 303: I miss him so much already eonni. The day seem longer since I heard about it when I woke up this morning. The signs were there. Everyone always just too blind to see it. The fans' high expectation of our so called perfect idol drive our idols to madness. Ignored the signs we did and now we suffer the consequences of our brightest star leaving this cruel cruel world. Our dino is now free and watching over us all
redrose_rabbit
#3
I love the cute yet simple cover!! c:
azxema
#4
Chapter 300: i can relate to this to a whole new level
azxema
#5
Chapter 295: i hope your cousing is surrounded by love and support rn and wish her and husband strength. we all know her son is in a better place now, he went as untainted and pure soul.
hafizfar #6
Chapter 9: And you seemed so frustrated over it much, and I could see it crystal clear :') and thats truly describe each writer's feeling when they are having a hard time.
I stumbled upon this fic, and I would like to give it a try because who knows what life is about to offer aite? Well, I am not regretting my choice at any perspectives.
I hope you have a nice day and may you write and inspire more <3
(while I continue read your words :v )
jenmarenchenjihae
#7
Chapter 262: Healing and Beautiful life are my favorite. They gave me a new idea for my story. And it's actually making me want to write! Considering the fact that I barley update my stories.
I really wanted to see how you write so I went to ur author tags. I ship 2min, so I was about to read what you wrote, but then it turned to be in Tagalog. I don't know JYJ that well and don't ship anything in TVXQ, so I decided to red ur Keo fabric. I have otps in Vixx and stories of them. But ur drabble was really good! I like ur style of writing!(btw it was hard giving up Leobin and Haken for the drabble.)
dream_keeper88
#8
Chapter 250: Was this brought on by the debate? Climate change was one of their topics, right?
I like the style in Old Man :3
dream_keeper88
#9
Chapter 246: It can be on open-ended but it's obvious that they didn't appear in her dream.
jenmarenchenjihae
#10
Chapter 4: Wait do you write these? Cause these are amazing!