It was winter when Xiumin suddenly requested a piano class from his father. Kim Jae Dong have no words to say to his one and only son but to agree and promise him to find the best teacher.

'Yes ! Thankyou dad ! I'm bored of playing keyboard on the iPad, I'm want to be a pianist one day' says Xiumin, happily jumping up and down after hearing his father's agreement.

Jae Dong smiled, 'enough with all the jumping or you'll be a crayon pop boy'. Jae Dong words make him stop immediately.

'Wow, doesnt expect that to work.  Have you eaten you medicine dear ?' ask Jae Dong

'Already dad. I'm getting tired of it', sigh Xiumin.

'Endure it boy, you want to be healthier dont you ?'

'Medicine doesnt make the disease go away dad, it only weakens the pain.' said Xiumin.

'Believe in God and Faith my son'

'I do believe in both dad. Besides, I'm not afraid of death.'

Jae Dong smile hearing the word of his strong son.

'But, I want to love dad.'

Jae Dong eyes widen, cant actually believe in what he just heard.

'I want to feel what is it like to love and be loved. I want to have that same feeling mom had in her for you before she passed away. You always told me to not love any girl, why dad ? Is it because of this disease ? Is this disease preventing me to love anyone ?'

Xiumin's words caused his father to be silent. He stood up and tapped his son's back.

'It's late, call it a day and go to sleep. okay ?' said Jae Dong

'네, good night dad', Xiumin said sadly before heading to his room.

'The only way for you to love is to not be loved my son. I dont want that girl to feel that same heart breaking pain i had when your mom leave me' tears flowing.

'Why must it be him ? Why him, my dear God?'

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'Before this heart stop forever, please, for once let me feel what is love' speaks Xiumin in his mind.