(A/N: If it's okay, please play this> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-TONc62E0uM I don't know about music players, please help me?)

89 hours

My knees shivered as I looked at the rings displayed on the counter.
I only have few hours left and I have to make a worthy use of it.
In the first place, why did I agree at Chanyeol's suggestion?

"Have you chosen one?"
 

I scratched my head as I kept staring at the rings.
 

"All of them are pretty...I can hardly choose one..."

"Jeez."
 

Chanyeol hit my head as he pointed on a pair of plain rings.
 

"How about this, right? It's simple but it looks elegant."

Examining the ring, I thought carefully of her preferences.

Yes, she is a simple lady. She loves plain things.

"How much is this?"
 

The cashier looked at me and talked disappointedly.
 

"Sorry sir but, someone reserved it already-"

"Do you want it?"
 

A young lady walked near to me. She wears a simple floral dress yet she looked extraordinarily beautiful. She stood beside me and smiled brightly.
 

Her features...they were very similar to Jinri's...
 

"Ahhh...are you the one who reserved it?"
 

She held her hat and talked shyly.
 

"Yes...I'm sorry...do you want it?"

"Ah! No! It's fine...I'll just find other-"

I was about to go away and look at the other displays when she grabbed my hand and smiled at me. I was shocked of her innocent beauty.

"Just take the ring. I'll buy another pair. I think you are giving that to someone very important."
 

Releasing my hand, she smiled again and walked away. Before she stepped into her car, she waved her hand and let out another bright smile.
 

"Hey!"
 

Chanyeol snapped his fingers in front of my eyes making me flinch. I scratched my head and looked down on the floor.

"You seem fascinated with her beauty."

I looked at Chanyeol sharply and talked stuttering.

"Ah...it's-it's not that. She looks like Jinri very much that's why..."

"Nevermind. Let's hurry up and give that ring to her. Have you prepared the vow?"

Arching my eyebrows, I talked quietly.

"What...vow?"

Chanyeol smacked my head and shouted at me.

Why does he always do that to me!? It's sickening.
 

"Ouch! You're too much!"

"You can't blame me! You're so stupid! Didn't I say that you'll propose to her?!"

"Ah...yeah yeah. I'm sorry then."
 

Smiling, Chanyeol walked away. I eventually followed him as my heart beats of nervousness and unknown feelings. He placed his hands on his pocket and mumbled.

"You gotta do your best or else I'll punch you."

He turned his head and waved as a sign for goodbye, walking his way to his destination.

This is 2nd to the last of the available wishes left for Jinri. And since she cannot get up from her bed anymore, I want to make this special.

I hope she'll not reject me.

After this, however, I'm more than willing to grant her more wishes.

86 hours

There is peace all over the room. As I walked slowly to Jinri's room, my bones chilled and I felt my body freezing and sweating. I'm not the type of guy who does sweet things. But for the sake of Jinri's happiness, I will do everything.

I got closer to her room. Only steps away. But then nurses and doctors rushed in that they bumped on me but did not care. I felt curious and scared. My body trembled as I tried to hold the door knob with my hands shaking. I  slowly opened the door. It creaked, until it completely gave me a wide path and revealed doctors and nurses trying to revive...Jinri.

The beep of the ECG is unstoppable. I could not move from my position. I became a stone that I unconsciously dropped the ring I bought. Tears formed on the lids of my eyes but would not fall.

Doctors and nurses surrendered to revive her. With a look of disappointment and empathy, a doctor shook his head as he looked at his watch.

"Lee Jinri. Time of death: 2:00 PM. Please, record."

He walked towards me and patted my shoulders. Tears fell. Continuous and relentless. I can't refrain from crying. My heart aches and I feel so empty. And it seems like something heavy lies on my shoulder.

“I’m sorry but we were unable to do anything. She suddenly became so weak. It seems like her body gave up. We knew she had been enduring the pain. We shouldn’t have allowed her to be exposed to exhausting activities.”

The nurses followed the doctor outside. Jinri's face is paler. Her lips are drier. Her skin is rougher. Yet, she remained beautiful with an innocent appeal.

I picked up the ring and took little and slow steps closer. Staring at her, with tears still falling down my eyes, I held her hand tightly and placed the ring in her finger. My hands shake and shiver. I felt more agonized that starting now...

She could never be with me again anymore.

“Jinri-ah. Wake up.”

She is no more wearing a wig. But still, she looked beautiful and will always remain beautiful in my eyes.

I stared at her longer. More tears fell from my eyes. I know she’ll never be awake anymore because she is now resting in peace. But the fact that I am still hoping for an impossible thought adds more grief in my heart. I wept louder and heavier.

It hurts. It hurts so much that I am not even able to marry her. The true marriage I wanted. It hurts that I wasn't even able to see her with her wedding dress.. It hurts that I did not even hear her calling me Jongin. Not the ‘oppa’ she used to call me before these things happened.

I lifted her hands and gently kissed them. With trembling and cracking voice, I spoke weakly.


“Jinri. I want to tell you something.”

Wiping my tears, I tried forcing a smile as if nothing happened.

Maybe she can answer me no more. But I know that she hears me. And that she will answer wherever she is.

“Will…will you marry me?”

My heart broke down more and more. My voice cracked and shivered that I can’t even talk properly. I forced myself to let out a smile again. But I can’t do it this time. Reality is whispering loudly to me that made me feel much more sorrow and I can’t put an end to my tears.

“Thank you. Ah…I look so stupid. Don't I?”

Trying to laugh, I did my best to hold back my tears from falling again. I slowly held her hair and brushed it with my fingers. With my thumb, I pressed her forehead and kissed it. I pressed her lips too…

And slowly drew my face nearer to hers until our lips laid together. I did not think about her condition. Because in my heart, she is still alive and that I am already engaged to her, though she is gone. Her presence remains in me… though I could not hold my tears back.

Though everything's gone. 

Though I could never see her again.

Though I can't marry her anymore.

“Jinri, I…I love…you. I’m so sorry.”


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