Secret Love Song

It wasn't suppose to be this way. I wasn't suppose to feel this way for you. I was just suppose to be “Friend Y” with no major role in your life..but then I somehow

managed to play a more important role then I needed to, a role that I wish was never given.

You and I we're complete opposites. I'm outgoing and loud, while your quiet and shy.

I still remember the day we met. I was taking a walk when I heard someone singing in the park, I followed the sound and I saw her. The moment I saw her, I felt

something in me change, everything that I saw, that I heard, everything I felt. Everything changed. It's like the color in my life took on another form. It was so bright and

colorful that I...I just I couldn't help but smile. After that day, I couldn't stop thinking about her. I went to that park everyday, hoping that if I see her again this weird feeling

inside me will go away, but I never saw her, until Tiffany called me out. I was suppose to be Friend “Y,” an extra along with Tiffany, who she asked to set her up with Yuri,

my best friend. Gosh that day...that day when we formally met has always been engraved in my mind.

~flashback~

“Hey Yoong you okay?” Tiffany asked after all the first time meeting formalities were over. When Tiffany called me out I never thought that it was to be “Friend Y”, in

Tiffany's term, to help set her friend Jessica, who, if I may add, also happens to be the girl I've been secretly looking for, with Yuri our best friend.

“Yeah..uhm just a little tired.” I lied, trying to regain my mentality after coming in close contact with the girl that made the color in my world so bright that I feel that I need

to close my eyes, but I can't because that would mean that I would lose sight of the most beautiful girl in the world.

“Jeez, were you up late again Yoong?!” Tiffany began to scold me, I was about to reply, but Tiffany turned her attention towards Jessica.

“Jessica! The time!” Tiffany said in that loud voice of hers.

“It's okay Tiffany, I'm like the 5th person in the lineup, we've still got plenty of time.” Jessica smiled?

“Lineup? Do you play baseball Jessica?” Yuri asked, with an excited gleam in her eyes. You see, Yuri's really into sports. She's actually part of the university's swimming

team. So just mentioning sports related things will get her excited.

“Ah no, I don't..actually I'm here for my piano recital.” Jessica beamed.

“Piano? Wow that's so cool! I can play the guitar but I'm still learning, but Yoona here she can play.” Yuri smiled, while putting an arm around my shoulders.

“Ah really? You play piano Yoona?” Jessica asked me, a curious look in her eyes.

“Just a little bit, I don't play much now.” I replied.

“Ah I see. But since you can play maybe we can play together sometimes.” Jessica smiled.

“Yeah we can.” I beamed. I haven't touched or been near a piano ever since my mom passed away, but why did I so easily agree to her suggestion?

“Guys if we keep chit chatting any longer Jessi will seriously miss her performance, so lets go!” Tiffany's loud voice broke our conversation.

Yuri, Tiffany, and I took our seats in the recital hall, and within a few minutes it was her turn.

When Jessica began to play, it was mesmerizing. Immediately the entire hall was mesmerized by her. It was beautiful. She is beautiful. After the recital ended, we waited

for Jessica in the hall way. I spotted her heading towards us, as she walked towards us it was like time slowed down for me. It felt like a scene from a movie. I was about

to step towards her when Yuri beat me to it.

“Wow that was amazing Jessica. You were so cool” Yuri complemented her with two thumbs up

“Thank you Yuri” Jessica beamed, she then turned and walked towards me.

“What did you think of it Yoona?” She asked me.

“Uh me? Uhm I...I thought that it was a performance that moved a lot of hearts.” I smiled.

“Hehe corny.” Jessica stuck her tongue out cutely, before turning around and walking towards Yuri.

It's just like a movie...a movie where I am nothing more than just Friend Y.

~end flashback~

“Yoongie~~ your zoning out more than I am.” Her cute voice pulled me out of my reverie.

“Ah sorry Jessica...I guess I was too caught up in my thoughts. What were you saying?” I asked.

“Jessica?” You asked looking at me with those eyes of yours that always pull me in.

“huh? Why are you calling your own name? Weirdo” I chuckled.

“Your the weird one here..” she mumbled, just soft enough that I can still make out what she said.

“Me? Weird? I already know.” I chuckled while playfully pinching her nose. Jessica opened to say something, but before a word came out, someone came up

from behind us, and pulled Jessica in for a sweet back hug.

“Hey there princess.” She softly said.

“Yuri-ah~~” Jessica happily beamed, turning around to fully engulf her girlfriend in a tight embrace.

“Eww gross.” I voiced out while pretending to puke.

“It's only gross because you're still single Yoong.” Yuri replied, sticking her tongue out at me.

“Yeah yeah whatever, I better get going now before I get diabetes from too much sweetness.” I forced a laugh, packing my things up and walking away. I stopped a few

feet from the door and turned around.

It looked like a scene straight out of a romance movie. I watched as the two of them got swept inside their own little world. And I couldn't help but wish that it was you and

me..

The girl who drifted into my life unknowingly, the girl who brought more color and joy into my life. The girl who's in love with my best friend. The girl who I am secretly in

love with. The girl who thinks of me as nothing more than Friend Y.

“Hey Yoong! Hey! HELLOOOOO~” Tiffany's voice put a halt in my step.

“Hey Fany-ah, what's up?” I turned to her.

“Goodness Yoong, you shouldn't be zoning out while walking. What are you thinking about anyways?” Tiffany lightly scolded me.

“Sorry Fany-ah...I've probably been hanging around the Ice princess too much.” I joked.

“Maybe you have.. ah by the way have you decided on the....”

“Say Fany-ah, what do you think about going on an adventure with me?” I cut her off.

“Adventure? Now?” she gave me this ridiculous look.

“of course not Fany-ah.... hmm how about someday soon?” I seriously asked her.

“Oh jeez, I have a bad feeling about this. But something tells me you're going to do something even more idiotic if I'm not there so okay. Someday, you and me are going

on an adventure.” She agreed, interlocking our pinkies together.

“Anyways, are you heading home now? Do you want a ride?” She asked me.

“Nope, I've got to head somewhere first.” I smiled, before playfully petting Tiffany's head, and running off.

“YAH! MY HAIR!” She yelled at me, but I was already far from her.

After running for a bit longer, I slowed down my pace. Reaching my old high school, I carefully snuck inside and made my way to the practice room. I sat on the piano

bench and my hands began to play. With every note that I played, I so wanted her to hear it. I wanted the chords, the melody, I wanted my playing to reach her. To tell

her the things that my my stupid heart can't with words. To tell the girl that belongs to my best friend that I love her.

I played for a few more hours before I stopped. I checked my phone and saw 10 missed calls from her.

“Yoongie you're late!” Jessica scolded me once I arrived at Im Corporations annual summer party. The best part about the summer party is that it's totally informal, which

means no dresses! It's not like I hate dresses, but I'm too lazy to change.

“Sorry, I had an errand to run and lost track of time.” I apologized.

“Jeez, how can the daughter of the party's host be late, that's so not like you.” Jessica kept scolding me.

“Sorry, I won't be late next time, but wait..Where's Yuri?” I asked, craning my neck to look for the tanned beauty. I know that Tiffany is going for a photo shoot which is

why she's not here tonight, but Yuri should be accompanying her girlfriend.

“Ah.. the swim team has a training camp. So I don't have a date.” Jessica sadly smiled. That swim junkie, how can she not skip out on one night.

“Don't worry. For one night only, I, Im Yoona, will be Yuri's proxy.” I smiled, putting my hand out for her to take.

“Well then, it would be my honor.” Jessica beamed, placing her hand in mine. When her hand fell on mine, I felt it. It felt like my heart's incomplete puzzle was finished. It

may be cliché but time stood still for me, I couldn't help but look at her hand in mine, and wonder why does it fit so perfectly? Is this how she feels whenever Yuri holds

her hand?

“Hey Yoong you okay? You were zoned out for a bit there.” Jessica said, taking her hand away from mine, cupping my cheeks. When she did that I felt my heart race,

and I can feel my cheeks heating up.. lucky for me it's kind of dim inside the venue.

“Yeah, I'm fine. I guess I was just....ah never mind.” I stopped myself from saying something I shouldn't.

“You were just what?” Jessica pushed me to answer her question.

“Don't worry about it Jess, so anyways, may I have this dance Princess?” I bowed.

“Your being weird you know that, but since you asked so nicely. Of course.” She smiled. Carefully I led her to the middle of the dance floor. I pulled her body close to her

as a slow waltz began to play.

“Hey Yoong” Jessica softly said, while she leaned her head on my shoulder.

“Hmm?” I looked down at her.

“Have you always been this warm?” She seriously asked me, looking up to meet my gaze. Her question caught me way off guard.

“What? That's so random Jess, but to answer your question, yes. I've always been this warm.” I lightly chuckled, softly patting her head. Jessica remained quiet for the

rest of the dance after I answered her question.

“Thanks for the dance Yoong.” She smiled, tiptoeing to place a lingering kiss on my cheek. Placing a hand over my chest I was surprised. I never knew that my heart can

race any faster when I'm with this girl, but now I know that's a lie. Because somehow with just a kiss on my cheek she's somehow managed to increase my heart rate at

an unimaginable pace. Any faster and I'm afraid I might die.

“Hey Yoong, Hey! Im Yoona. Yah!” Jessica shook my body, pulling me back into reality.