10/10/11 12:19 AM L O C A T I O N  U N K N O W N

My head leaned on my window as I play around with the pencil in my hand with laptop and binders on my desk in front of me. My head hurts too much to even work. I really don't know anymore.

I got up earlier and walked toward the kitchen grabbed a mug from the empty cupboards fested with roaches. My apartment building was just that bad. I washed the mug and boiled some water. I love green tea. It soothes me.

People bother me. I don't have an interest in people around me. 

I'm pretty much like my homework. Incomplete. 

Sometimes I just think I've become mental. Which is fine. To be truly honest, I have no intentions on suicidal. There's no point. I'll just end up in hell. Even if it was the last option i wouldn't. i'm just waiting for the day for someone to murder me or to get cancer naturally or some kind of sickness whatsoever.

I have no interest in guys. Well to put in better words, I have no intention on getting a boyfriend. They're all douchebags. Although my "friends" do. I don't plan on getting married when I get older. I don't want to love anyone. I don't want anyone to love me neither. Instead I'm in love with people who I've never met on the other side. Who keep me alive. Who keep me healthy. Who tell me to study. It's amazing isn't it. That people I've never even met can do that but people around me can't. I plan on going to the place where those people are. Those people who helped.

Those who are living but appeared in my dreams.

I want to sleep.

I want to dream.

Hello~

So the first chapter was kind of short. But it will become longer I promise! I don't know If i can update often, But I will update as soon as possible when I can!

THIS IS ACTUALLY MY FIRST FIC ON AFF BUT PLEASE COMMENT WHATEVER YOU WANT I WANT YOUR OPINIONS

So this is actually a page from Gyu won's diary when she was 14. JHSFGHJSGF OK IT'S LIKE 1:15 AM HERE I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL

SLEEP WELL PLEASE CONTINUE TO READ~