It’s been a few day since that incident. Until now I still didn’t speak to my brothers about my problem. I don’t want them to misunderstood me. And I really awfully quiet around Kris oppa. I don’t know why every time he is near me, I feels like exploding. The feeling even more worse if I hear them talk about Yejin unnie.

JJ and Jaehun also give up speaking to me. Maybe they think if I don’t want to talk about it, then they should not force me to say them. I really appreciated their effort, but for now I want to be alone. I want to sort out my feelings.

I have been avoiding my brothers all this time. Mostly Kris oppa. Whenever he is around, I’ll be go another place. And whenever they start to talk about Yejin unnie, I will excuse myself to my room. I know they worried about me. But, what can I do. It’s not like I can control my feeling like a robot.

Worst of all is, they invited Yejin unnie for dinner tonight. I don’t know whats on their minds. Did they want to see me explode??

WHAT THE HELL.

I sit uncomfortably between Lay oppa and Kai oppa. And why are they sat across me. Why???

I look at them like they are a rare things in the world. Of course they will act lovey dovey. I know that. They are couple after all. But why must in front of me. Why not they go to another place to do that.

I hold my chopsticks really hard in my hand. I stop eating already. My eyes can’t leaves that two love birds even a second. Sud