Sad chapter. But it will open another door for this story. Wait for it. Don't blame me for the angst, it must be here ^^. Thanks you and see you next time !!

There’re things in this world… You want it…You need it…You dream of it…You desire it… But, you won’t never have it… Giving up is the easiest way to go but you know… Love…once you love, till the day you can’t go on anymore, till the day your heart is broken, till the day your soul is full of wound….you still can’t forget… Love is like that, so beautiful , yet so cruel… My love for Kwon Ji Yong, maybe forever is the tattoo in my heart…

This time is really like a dream of me. I and Ji Yong…we’re now always together. Ji Yong usually smiles toward me, everytime I look at him, I always see the gentle light in his eyes, and it’s only for me. If he has a chance, Ji Yong will hug me tightly and kiss in my cheek. At weekends, when nobody is in dorm, he and I watch movies, and he holds my hand, nests our fingers into each other. I feel his hand’s warm, and it makes my heart beat so fast, very fast. Every night, before I sleep, he will kiss my fore head and whisper to my ear sweet good night. And like that, I always sleep so peacefully, no nightmare, no fear, no pain… Tells me, is this real ? Is this not a beautiful dream ? Can I…can I believe Kwon Ji Yong ? Can I receive this happiness ? And can I…can I love him ? I Deep inside my heart, I want an answer to say yes, yes, Seungri, love him, just love him, love him with all his heart, love him with the love from the previous life to this life, the love that you can’t give up… Seungri, try it, just one more time, try to love again… This time, maybe it will be different… Kwon Ji Yong, may I believe you… I want to trust you… I want to love you… So I open my heart, I open my wound, I open the wall I built aroung my soul, let him go in again. I smile, I laugh and I love…  Kwon Ji Yong, Kwon Ji Yong, Kwon Ji Yong… When I look at him, I just want to see the rainbow in the sky !!

One day, Ji Yong must go to Japan to film a music video alone. I can’t go with him. It’ll be one week, seven days and 168 hours !! I will miss him so much. Haizzz, love is really so sick. It makes me want to puke because of myself now !!! But… I can’t help it. My love for him is really more and more days by days. He looks at me and smiles. I think he can see that emotion in my eyes. He pats my heart lightly and embraces me, promises me that he will come back soon, he will be back to my side. I snuggle to his embrace more, want to feel his warm more, don’t want him to go, don’t wanna… I feel like that I’m like a child or a puppy now, and maybe look so shame, but I don’t care anymore, I just go with my feeling… He laughes softly and asks me that will I miss him and