Hi, I want to tell you something ^^ . Seems like this story doesn't take so many attention , but I'm really having fun when I write this story. i don't know why, but I feel at easy to write this. This is not a humor fiction that I used to write, but it's normal story between two person gently fall in love with each other. i want to give you my feeling for this story too. I want you to feel relax, feel happy and feel the gentle love in this story. So, if you random read this story of mine, let me know it and how you feel about it. It's my selfish wish but you know ^^ People can dream, right ??? See you next time, all your supports are my encouragement...

I wanted your smile so much. When you looked at me and smiled, I felt like I was a happy person, because finally you saw me. But, it was not true smile of you, never it was…  I wanted to see your smile…brightly as the sun…

I recovered pretty fast so only in one month, I can run and dance like crazy again. It’s so good ! In that one month, I didn’t see Kwon Ji Yong at all. And I feel so relieve because of that. God, that dream of mine… I can’t even imagine that if Ji Yong know… Not good, not at all ! He will kill me for sure. And more important, that warm I felt… it’s so dangerous for my peaceful life, I don’t want to think about it, no more, I want to live my life, without Kwon Ji Yong in it, so… Forget it, forget how comfortable it was, forget how relaxed I felt… Just a dream ! Yes, Lee Seunghyun, dream can’t come true… I convinced myself like that so many times, and told myself not be stupid anymore…. Is it work ? I don’t know , really don’t know… But even if it’s my lies, I accept it so I won’t hurt anymore… I’m rather lie myself that it’s nothing to me than be in pain… just once in the previous life is enough for me… That misery, please don’t come again…

So, I try all my best to have distance from him again when I practise with BIGBANG. Lucky for me, maybe Ji Yong’s back to his true self, he doesn’t ack strange to me again, he just focus on our album. BIGBANG want to attack Japan’s music market, and we want to show the fans in there the new side of us. So we must try double harder than we used to be. This is pretty hard for us, but it’s more stress for our genius leader – Kwon Ji Yong. I have seen him not sleep for nonstop three days. It’s not good for Ji Yong but I know him, he won’t rest if he still don’t find the way. And of course , no one can’t stop him either. I remember, that time, I tried to make him to sleep, but… he just looked at me with cold eyes and told me get out, didn’t trouble him anymore. In a minute, I have realized that I was nothing to him, nothing, not even a person who cared so mcuh for him… It was damn hurt, but, once again, it was me who too stupid to think he cared for me…. Now, I won’t make me become a clown again. However, I can’t neglect him, I won’t love him but I still care for him like a maknae to a hyung, TOP, Daesung and Taeyang hyung care for him like that, too. So, I don’t feel scared to treat him well to him like making coffee for him, cooking late dinner for him, or giving him coat when it’s cold… It’s normal, right ? It’s quite normal for a maknae to treat him like that, because he’s my hyung, right ? Yes, that’s it, it’s only a brotherly love of mine…

Today, I practise dancing with Top hyung. You know what, my hyung has everything. Good looking that every man in this world must  e jealous of him, a voice who born to be an awsome rapper, and a charisma that no one can win against him, but… yes, but, when he dances, you will break all your dream about him and must roll on the ground to laugh. He dances like alien !! TOP hyung in this life or the ptevious life, both doesn’t like dancing. He told me, why does he have to dance when he only wants to rap ???? And why does he have to dance properly when he can dance so funny ??? And all the questions like that make me speechless…don’t know what to say anymore… So now, I just laugh with all my might when he begins to dance. Hahaha, maybe I laugh so much so he feels anger to me. TOP hyung hugs me