I used to desire your warmth so much , too much that it killed me inside, Kwon Ji Yong…

Finally, we’re BIGBANG . When I call that name, I feel like I can do anything. Now, I’m really Seungri, Victory and a cute maknae. This time, without the ghost in my soul, I will make my dream more and more better. By the way, Ji Yong and I are still far and far away, and I feel grateful because of it. After that confusing night, he was still cold to me like usually. Maybe that’s night, he was a little abnormal ? Never mind, he acts like this suits with me anyway. I’m still a maknae for him and he’s a leader to me. It’s only like that, nothing less, nothing more….

Like I remember, BIGBANG has a hard time when we debut. Among so many boy bands out there, we just can’t find the way to impress fans. All members are worry about it. To think of it, the previous life, I was scared so much, I was scared that we had to disband or we had to split so much. So, I bothered Ji Yong so much at that time. I followed him everywhere, complained to him so manythings. Aizzz, I was really a nuisane to him. Now I think of it, time we’re in trouble, maybe Ji Yong’s the one who feel the hardest pressure after all. Because he’s leader and because he’s a genius, a mighty dragon who doesn’t accept fail. I want to tell them that they don’t have to worry so much, but I can’t. Just let it happen naturally, one day, the genius leader of us will bring fame to BIGBANG.

Tonight, suddenly I want to see the moon. Hey, I’m not a over romantic man, just because of the habbit in the previous life, when I was lonely, I looked at the moon and told me that : “ See, you still have the moon with you, so everything will be alright, Seungri, alright, Seungri…” . It’s sound so pathetic , right ? But…. Forget it, it’s all in the past, I won’t let myself that misery anymore.

I walk to the rofftop to see the moon more clearly, it’s midnight, so I think no one is at here….indeed, I’m wrong. When I see a shadow who is standing in the dark, with the red light from the cigarette, and the reak hover over him, make him look like he doesn’t belong to this world… my heart wants to stop beating. I used to watch him like this. I stood at the place where he couldn’t see me, watched he smoked. He always looks too lonely when he’s like this. I wanted to hug him so much, to feel his warmth, to give him my warmth, and to let him know I would always there for him…. But now, I just want to run away. Seungri, please don’t let your heart’s in pain again. One life is enough, this life, please don’t. So, I turn around to exit, suddenly, he speaks :

“ Come here, I know who you are…Come here, makenae !”

I really think that fate is playing with me. Why do I hav