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Overweight, yet Loving You

|9 days later| 


"Calorie diary averaging 1200 calories per day...under 20 grams of sugar consumed daily...haven't had chocolate in over 6 days...a minimum of half an hour on the treadmill each day...forward shoulder roll mastered...basic leg splits mastered...tours chaînés déboulés and chassé learnt..." Jongin ticks off the goals listed in Yun's diary one by one, and then closes it with a satisfactory smile. "Now, it's time to weigh you after a full week's worth of dieting and exercise," he pretends to wipe sweat off his forehead dramatically, "and let me tell you this: if you haven't at least lost 100 kilograms, I will personally make sure that you will never get to taste dinner again for the rest of your life!"

"Alright...just be quiet!" Yun dismisses him with a wave of her hand. After getting to know her trainer and new friend more personally, Yun now understands how he functions, and no longer feels intimidated or uncomfortable around him. "You're such a drama king," she laughs, as one foot tentatively steps onto the scale.

The two hold their breaths as the numbers roll upwards, increasing in value rapidly before coming to a stop.

 

Jongin peers over Yun's shoulder, and gasps a little when he sees the numbers.

 

"91?! Wow, even I surprised myself!" Jongin roars in triumph as he pumps his fists into the air, "I helped you lose five kilograms in a week! Hang on...that's like...just under one kilogram each day!"

But in contrast to Jongin's loud celebration, Yun stands frozen into place on top of the scale as she whispers, "Nine days..."

"What?" Jongin cups a hand over his ear, "say that again? I didn't hear you."

"Nine days...not just one week..." Yun looks up at him with tears rolling down her cheeks in happiness.

Jongin rushes to her side, and wipes his thumb over the trail her tears left behind as his other hand winds around her now visible waist. "Don't cry," he whispers with his forehead dangerously close to touching her's, "you're less attractive with snot above your lips."

 

"So...does that mean I am attractive when I'm not crying?" she asks uncharacteristically boldly, but internally braces herself for Jongin's rude remark like the day he had met her at Baekhyun's birthday party.

"...Yes," he answers after a moment of silent surprise, laughing next to Yun's ear breathlessly, before reaching out to hug the girl tenderly, "you did well, Yun. Good job for making it through the past nine days."

Yun's heart immediately stutters as Jongin's lean bicep muscles press into her back, Is he telling the truth? I'm attractive when I'm not crying? The rate of her heart increases to a rapid rhythm to pound against her ribcage. No, Jongin can't lie, he said so himself - he says whatever is on his mind even though it might end up hurting someone else.

Slowly, cautiously, Yun brings her own arms up to wrap around Jongin's waist. This is the first time someone has ever told me I'm attractive...and the first time my heart has fluttered with so much excitement and happiness. Even Baekhyun's never said this kind of thing to me before...

 

...What's going on with my heart?

 


 

On the other side of the room, however, Baekhyun and SM entertainment's owner Lee Soo Man witness the pair as they are wrapped in each other's arms intimately. The pair of them had originally come in hopes of discussing the choreography of 'Baby Don't Cry' with Jongin, since the teaser is scheduled for release in three days. But instead, they became witnesses to a possible scandal between a hotly sought after trainee...and an overweight nobody.

"Well...what do we have here?" the older man clicks his tongue disapprovingly, "EXO is going to debut in less than two months, what does Kai think he's doing?"

Baekhyun remains motionless, body frozen in shock as the heart warming scene unfolds in front of his eyes. How is he supposed to feel about this? Are Jongin and Yun going to start dating each other? Are they in love with each other? Baekhyun internally panics, and his face contorts into a frown with all the confusing questions running around in his head.

Lee Soo Man steals a glance at the fuming Baekhyun at his side, raising an eyebrow questioningly as he sees the vocalist's reaction. Does he...is this boy interested in the fat girl too?

 

"Baekhyun, what are you thinking right now?" the powerful shareholder taps the younger man's shoulder lightly, breaking him out of his thoughts. "You...do know that your contract specifies no romantic relationships until the first year after debut, right?"

"Nothing," Baekhyun quickly turns to leave with a suppressed scowl upon his face, "you do not need to worry about me at all, sir, just make sure that Kim Jongin doesn't break the rules again." 

Well I definitely don't believe you're thinking about 'nothing'...I see a girl hugging one of my both valued trainees...and what suspiciously resembles a love triangle... Lee Soo Man thinks to himself with silent amusement, as Baekhyun makes his way angrily towards the elevator across from the private gym. But he didn't say anything out loud, and only watches as Baekhyun presses the button violently before the elevator door slides open and then shut.

This is interesting... he raises in eyebrow as he turns back to the couple in the gym room, very interesting indeed...but also very very dangerous for business...

 


 

"Yun, can you sing for me?" Jongin puts on his best puppy-eyed look, and sits down on the treadmill casually before smiling up at her, "Baekhyun says you're really good, and I really want to see your talents."

"I'm not really that good..." she blushes, looking anywhere except at Jongin.

"Don't be so stingy. You've already seen me dance, so it's only fair that you show me something you like doing now."

Yun shakes her head timidly, "Baekhyun was just exaggerating, I'm really just average."

Again, a sharp pain pricks somewhere to the left side of his chest at the way Yun affectionately calls out Baekhyun's name. This is definitely not a cold... "Just sing for me, please?" Jongin dismisses the unusual feeling once more, and settles more comfortably into his seat on the treadmill's running belt.

 

"Fine," Yun sighs, but smiles nonetheless at the thought of singing after days of vocal inactivity, "what would you like to hear?"

"I don't really mind," Jongin shrugs, "what do you usually sing?"

"Shall I sing you my favourite EXO song then?" her cheeks warm to a cute pink, "Baekhyun sang it to me privately, but I know the teaser hasn't been released yet."

"Of course! Anything!" the younger man encourages his student.

 

She takes a deep breath to calm herself, clearing gently and fixing her posture before starting.

As soon as Yun opens , however, a sweet yet powerful voice immediately fills the empty room.

'Deoneun mangseoriji ma jebal

Nae simjangeul geodueoga'

Jongin's eyes widen in amazement as he registers Yun's voice. Without warning, his head starts to imagine a rainy day, and an umbrella as he and Yun stand under it. A tear escapes the corner of her eye in his imagination, and Jongin sees himself slowly lean in to kiss her sadness away.

'Baby don't cry, tonight

Eodumi geochigo namyeon

Baby don't cry, tonight

Eobseotdeon iri doel geoya'

It is as easy as one plus one now, Jongin admits to himself, I have feelings for Yun...romantically...

 


A/N: Ohoho the triangle is in full effect! Thanks for reading as usual <3

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xadrimusicx
#1
Chapter 29: Kinda makes me sad when a story doesnt end with a couple, but such is life. Thank you for a story that is true to life. I have had a similar moment with no confidence like Yun and rejected a guy I liked and he liked me, and he ended up getting into a relationship after that. There is regrets but its life. I'm happy he is happy.
IrisScarlett21 #2
Chapter 29: Nooo! I wanted kai and yun to end up together! ?
Bobby_ankle #3
Chapter 29: quite dissapointed that exo is disbanding
Elizabethguppy #4
Chapter 29: This story was so great but i hope yun and jongin end up together. Great work authornim
ShakPlanet
#5
Lit
-TUANA-
#6
Chapter 29: As much as I wanted her to end with baekhyun since he's my bias lol I loved this story.
Yun is just me.
I am 167 cm, weighing 74 KG right now. . I was 85kg 4 months ago and I feel insecure about my self in every way possible. Whenever people are talking, I just think and believe they are talking about how fat I am. I am always treating myself as a fat bag even though some of my friends clearly pointed out to me that I am no longer fat. However since I am into kpop so much and I know how ideal weight is over there (mid 40s to 50 kgs) I still think that I am really fat. But the thing is I am tired. I am getting into food depression regularly.. I just have no idea what more to do.. and that's what made me read your story.. and I obviously love it because I relate to it.
swaglien
#7
Chapter 3: That hit me. I had a eating disorder and i gained like maybe 10kg i suffered alone though . I wish i had baekhyun that would help :)
swaglien
#8
Chapter 2: At first i wanted to read this bc i as well is struggling with my weight, i've read your blogs i also had drastic hair loss ( well not that drastic ) but i haven't visited the doctor... im quite worried
omonachu #9
Chapter 29: This story is one of the most realistic fanfiction here. Being fat and overweight before, I had similar experiences that could relate to this story. Like knowing yourself that you won't be able to achieve your dreams because your weight is holding you down. Or the simple fact that no one would like you because you're fat / ugly. These thoughts that I have had in the past was one of the things that I regretted the most. Back then I wanted to be socially accepted. I tried my best to be someone who I'm not just to be "accepted". If I could only turn back the time and meet my old self I would say that "You deserve everything the word has to offer. So just be yourself."
I could not agree more with your statement "Yun does not need someone to be happy". Simply because we have to embrace every flaw that we have to be able to accept the love that we deserve and be happy.
pietia #10
Chapter 29: Such a wonderful story author-nim!! Btw at the 'exo disbanding' part tho...Ugh it's life anyways..one day exo will surely be disbanded and married&hv kids T_T thank you authornim <33