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Overweight, yet Loving You

"Are you sure my hair look fine?"

"Yes yes, now hurry up!"

"How about my shirt? Is too thin? Do you think we'll be outside or inside?"

"Just bring a jacket or something."

"Wait I'm having a mental breakdown, what was his name again?"

"...Kim Jongin."

 

Today is one of the few occasions in which Yun, Baekhyun and Jongin are all free from work and school - one of the rare opportunities in their busy student and trainee lives to meet up and hold a decent length conversation about Yun's diet plans.

Having sat in Baekhyun's car fidgeting nervously with her fingers while he fumbled around to retrieve the parking lot ticket, Yun is slowly starting to feel more and more nauseous at the thought of meeting her new to-be-idol body trainer. Despite having heard from Kyungsoo that Jongin is a really nice person once he warms up to someone - Yun is still feeling unsure about herself and Jongin as a personal dance trainer. 

Will he accept me? What if he never warms up to me? Yeji told me that she met him because she has an Ivy Club photoshoot with EXO scheduled for next month, and that 'the tanned dancer' is really scary when he doesn't smile...

 

"We're here!" Baekhyun announces cheerfully, whistling to himself as he pulls the key out of the ignition.

But Yun cannot bring her own hands up to unfasten the seatbelt, "B-B-Baek..."

"What's wrong? he turns back to look at her despite being halfway out of the driver's seat.

"I...I can't do this."

Baekhyun raises an eyebrow in judgment, "Lee Yun are you scared right now? Of a kid who's one year younger than us? Jongin doesn't bite - he's all talk, seriously."

"But what if I fail? What if I'm too clumsy and fat and things just don't work out?!" Yun's breathing speeds up at the thought of being disliked, "what if he ends up not even wanting to teach me how to dance because I'm too stupid--"

 

"Yun!" Baekhyun slaps two hands against her cheeks in frustration, causing her to whimper in surprise and pain, "Get a hold of yourself! Do not ever try to put yourself down because of your own insecurities."

"But--"

Without another word, Baekhyun reaches across the seat, causing Yun's throat to close up as her heart begins to pound faster at the close proximity between them. Baekhyun's fingers brush minimally across her thighs, before finding the button to unfasten the seatbelt securing Yun's body to the car, and leaning back to his side of the vehicle to exit via the driver's side.

Every little thing that he does, causes me to react in the most embarrassing ways, Yun sighs to herself, before obeying Baekhyun's silently authoritive stare and reluctantly following him out of the car.

 

"Welcome to SM entertainment, what can I do for you today?" a pretty girl at the front desk asks professionally.

"She's with me," Baekhyun pulls out an employee's pass, "we'll be accessing the gym today."

"Ah, yes, Baekhyun from EXO," the girl nods in recognition upon seeing his card, "you have a meeting scheduled with the recording staff this afternoon, but other than that, please help yourselves."

Baekhyun bows respectfully, and then pulls Yun with him to a large room at the back of the first floor.

 

"Oh," he smiles a little upon entering the spacious gym, "He's here already."

Yun swallows audibly, and then follows her friend into the room.

 


 

"Yun noona! Baekhyun hyung!" Sehun's eyes disappear as he grins at the two late arrivals, tripping over his feet but regaining his balance quickly as he jogs towards them.

"Okay children, let's cut out the hugging and do more of the stretching!" a familiar voice barks at Sehun.

"Kai what are you planning to do with Yun? She looks like she's about to faint just from hearing your voice," Lay laughs, pinching Yun's cheeks happily.

"Nothing much," Jongin grins mischeviously upon meeting Yun's eyes, "just starting on lesson one with some basic stretching exercises...I have to train her waist muscles before starting on the dance steps."

 

Luhan looks towards Yun with concern, "How about we show you what dancing's all about first? Have you ever seen dancers in real life?"

The girl shakes her head, "Only on television..."

"Well you're missing out big time!" Lay's eyes suddenly sparkled with energy, "let us show you what real contemporary dancing looks like!"

 

The four lead dancers hurriedly beckon to Yun to follow them, and soon she turns a corner to arrive at an empty room with bare wooden floors, and four large mirrors placed on each side of the walls.

"What should we dance for her? History?"

"But you're not really wearing the right pants..." Baekhyun reminds from the side lines.

"Don't worry," Kai smirks, "no one important is watching anyway."

Rude, Yun thinks indignantly to herself, just you wait, when I become an even better dancer than you, I'll wipe that cocky smirk off your face with my skill!

As if hearing her thoughts, Kai smirks again, I'll be anticipating that day, his expression seems to mock.

 

"Alright, let's get the music started!" Luhan inserts a flash drive into the speaker system, and almost instantly a cool sound effect followed by upbeat-music booms from the speakers.

'Listen, neukkil su inni?

Nae simjangi ttwijireul anha

My heart be breakin’

Yun sits unmoving on the bare floor, staring intently at the swishing, tapping and stepping of the five boys' neat footwork on the smooth surface of polished wood. But it was when she slowly scans her eyes upwards, that a small gasp escapes her lips - their expressions were indescribable.

 

It was obvious every one of them enjoyed dancing to the max; but the way they carried themselves with confidence, and the charismatic glint in their eyes as they timed the seconds before mimicking each other's movements was just so perfect, that Yun finds her eyes to be glued to their forms with unwavering focus.

'I need you and you want me, jiguran i byeoreseo

Every, every, everyday naega mandeun History'

The sound of the adrenaline pumping through their veins filled the room as the music came to an end.

 

"That was brilliant!" Yun applauses wholeheartedly, "I was completely captivated."

"But did you only watch the steps?" Jongin asks seriously, challenging Yun to give him a satisfactory answer.

"Well...although you were all incredibly light on your feet and flexible at the torso...I more or less concentrated on the overall form you took on." Yun scratches her hair slowly, "How do I say this...it was like you owned the stage, and your dance was some sort of summoning of power."

"Good. You passed," Jongin suddenly laughs, "as my student, you should at least have been able to see that the most important aspect of dancing is not about getting the footwork right or the moves on time. It's about having confidence in your body, and expressing the rhythm using your limbs."

 

 Confidence in my body... Yun bites her lip anxiously, that's going to be really hard to achieve...

 


A/N: Hello! Quick advertisement for my new kaisoo one shot 'One Night: Inveigled'. As some of you may remember, the old version of OYLY had kaisoo in it because BaekYun ended up together, but the ending is now changing and there won't be any more kaisoo! Muhahaha so will Baek get the girl and leave Kai to die alone, or will Kai win Yun over and leave Baek by himself? Read on to find out! <3

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xadrimusicx
#1
Chapter 29: Kinda makes me sad when a story doesnt end with a couple, but such is life. Thank you for a story that is true to life. I have had a similar moment with no confidence like Yun and rejected a guy I liked and he liked me, and he ended up getting into a relationship after that. There is regrets but its life. I'm happy he is happy.
IrisScarlett21 #2
Chapter 29: Nooo! I wanted kai and yun to end up together! ?
Bobby_ankle #3
Chapter 29: quite dissapointed that exo is disbanding
Elizabethguppy #4
Chapter 29: This story was so great but i hope yun and jongin end up together. Great work authornim
ShakPlanet
#5
Lit
-TUANA-
#6
Chapter 29: As much as I wanted her to end with baekhyun since he's my bias lol I loved this story.
Yun is just me.
I am 167 cm, weighing 74 KG right now. . I was 85kg 4 months ago and I feel insecure about my self in every way possible. Whenever people are talking, I just think and believe they are talking about how fat I am. I am always treating myself as a fat bag even though some of my friends clearly pointed out to me that I am no longer fat. However since I am into kpop so much and I know how ideal weight is over there (mid 40s to 50 kgs) I still think that I am really fat. But the thing is I am tired. I am getting into food depression regularly.. I just have no idea what more to do.. and that's what made me read your story.. and I obviously love it because I relate to it.
swaglien
#7
Chapter 3: That hit me. I had a eating disorder and i gained like maybe 10kg i suffered alone though . I wish i had baekhyun that would help :)
swaglien
#8
Chapter 2: At first i wanted to read this bc i as well is struggling with my weight, i've read your blogs i also had drastic hair loss ( well not that drastic ) but i haven't visited the doctor... im quite worried
omonachu #9
Chapter 29: This story is one of the most realistic fanfiction here. Being fat and overweight before, I had similar experiences that could relate to this story. Like knowing yourself that you won't be able to achieve your dreams because your weight is holding you down. Or the simple fact that no one would like you because you're fat / ugly. These thoughts that I have had in the past was one of the things that I regretted the most. Back then I wanted to be socially accepted. I tried my best to be someone who I'm not just to be "accepted". If I could only turn back the time and meet my old self I would say that "You deserve everything the word has to offer. So just be yourself."
I could not agree more with your statement "Yun does not need someone to be happy". Simply because we have to embrace every flaw that we have to be able to accept the love that we deserve and be happy.
pietia #10
Chapter 29: Such a wonderful story author-nim!! Btw at the 'exo disbanding' part tho...Ugh it's life anyways..one day exo will surely be disbanded and married&hv kids T_T thank you authornim <33