Jessica's POV     These past few weeks had been rough. I'm really sad that what we had ended to this. The girls said I should not see him also my sister but deep inside my heart I still wanted to see him. Every time I remembered how he left me in the rain my chest tightens. No matter how much I wanted to hate him I simply can't.   We were invited to this event to perform two songs. I completely recovered from Pneumonia so I can now join them. I knew they had a hard time without me while I'm sick. This girls won't leave me unlike him.   I felt Yoona's grip on my arm, I looked at her in confusion but when I turned to look where her gaze is. My chest tightens to see Onew with his arm around this girl looking so sweet.   "Unnie" Yoona rubbed my arm.   My heart started to beat fast as anger is starting to take over me when I saw him with another girl. I clenched my fists when I saw that it was Chorong and how he pecked her cheek. Is this why he can't accept my feelings? I thought he won't like a friend? I closed my eyes when I saw how they hugged each other. He's a liar, he made me believed that he won't like a friend but what I am seeing right now contradicts to his statement.   My mind is in haywire right now. Yoona dragged me to the dressing designated for us. They kept asking me if I'm okay and all I do is let out a faint smile.   "The nerve of that guy Jessica he even brought his girl with him" Taeyeon hissed, pounding on the table.   "Looks can be very deceiving.. I took back that I said he's a great guy" Sooyoung walked back and forth while tapping her fingers on her crossed arms.   "Unnie Onew Oppa is not like that..maybe we should listen to his side first" Yoona spoke while rubbing my back.   I glared at her "Yoona you're still siding that guy after what he did to me..Isn't that enough to prove to you he's a horrible person" Yoona kept his distance to Onew but she can't removed her fondness towards Onew.   She hung her head low as the girls pierced her with their glares.   "Enough with this guys..we have to perform tonight and let's forget about him" Tiffany clapped her hands to caught our attention.   Once I stepped in the stage I suddenly felt nervous my heart is beating fast. I tried to cover my fear with my smile and do my best because I want him to know I can live without him and that I'm perfectly fine. While performing our second song my gaze landed at him staring intently at me with Chorong by her side. I felt my heart shattering when I saw he linked his arm around her arm.   I felt my tears forming in my eyes when our song is about to end. I look dumb smiling with tears in my eyes. I looked at him once again and my tears escaped my eyes because my tears are too heavy for me to contain it. I hope he's happy now but for me I can't say the same.   I'm not perfectly fine Onew..I'm broken and I hope you can fix me but the anger is starting to creep in my heart. I should let my anger towards you take over me so that If I Hate you that would be easier for me to move on from you, to forget you.   I let out a bitter smile at him tasting my tears as it flows on my face. As soon as the performance is done I bowed and left the stage. They were first escorted to our van leaving me here in the dressing room. I felt someone grip my arm and my eyes went wide to see Onew in front of me.   "Jessica can we talk?" He ran his fingers through his hair noticing that his face looks pale and he lost weight.   I yanked my arm "There's nothing left we should talk about Onew-ssi" I talked to him formally because I remembered he already cut our friendship. "I mean mister" he said we should be strangers right.   "Listen to me Jessica I have a lot of things to say to you" I gave him chance to talk and he lost his chance already.   I shook my head "I don't want to hear anything you would say"   He hung his head low "Jessica I-I lo...Jessica I'm sorry" he muttered while looking at his shoes.   I'm tired of hearing him apologizing to me. I grabbed my things and bumped his shoulder as I exited the dressing room.   Onew's POV     She doesn't want to listen to me. I saw her eyes glistened with tears onstage. My eyes cannot deceived me. I know she's still hurting but expectedly she Is Jessica so she's acting strong. Chorong said SNSD would have an event so I grabbed that opportunity to talk to her. I was delighted when Chorong told me they will perform tonight that's why I'm thankful to her because it was because of her why we're here.   "Jessica..I hope you would listen to me"I whispered through the wind as I saw no one in here anymore.   I sent Chorong home before I went to their dorm. She had to listen to me and I'll ask for her forgiveness everyday..I thought I am giving her happiness but truthfully I'm the one taking it away from her, Chorong is right. What's important is what we have today and i have to stop fretting  what would happen in the future.   "You can do this Onew" I hit my chest with my fist to ease my nervousness. With my trembling hands, I buzzed the doorbell "I hope they're here now"I mumbled while waiting for the front door to open.   Seohyun widen her eyes when saw me in front of their doorsteps motioning her Unnies to come. I bit my lower lip when I saw how they glared at me then my gaze landed on Yoona and Yuri with expressionless face.   "Yah What are you doing here huh?" Sooyoung walked in front of me while tapping her foot.   "I-Is Jessica inside?" I stretched my neck to see if she's inside.   They're flabbergasted for awhile but quickly change with disgust on their faces.   "You still have the nerve to come here! Go home because she won't talk to you!" Taeyeon narrowed her eyes.   "P-Please let me talk to her"I clasped my hands together hoping they would let me. This would be my last shot and I hope everything will go well.   "We trusted you Onew! Go home now because we won't let you see her" Sunny cried, clenching her fists.     I stooped down on the ground in front all of them "Just tell me where Jessica is" I laid my forehead on the ground.   "I know I'm the one