The week went by incredibly fast and it was finally Saturday, I decided to wake up early in order to prepare for my date with Ilhoon. I began by scouring through my closest for something relatively pretty, only to come up empty handed. I sigh exasperatedly “DAEHYUNNIE!!!!!!!!” I scream at the top of my lungs. Moments later, Daehyun comes rushing through the door panting “WHATS THE EMERGENCY!?” I pout and give him puppy dog eyes “I have nothing to wear for my date tonight, take me shopping pwease oppa” I can see him calm down and chuckle “Fine lets go”. I smile and grab his arm and head out the door.

After about two hours of shopping, I finally find a dress and a pair of shoes to wear as well as a few extra things along the way. “Have I ever mentioned how you are my favourite oppa?” I say batting my eyes before I disappear into my room once more to get ready. I hear him mumble under his breath about how I shouldn’t forget it and how Yongguk is going to kill him for letting you buy that outfit. Laughing, I begin to spread out my outfit on my bed and head into the shower to get a fresh start on my date. Once out of the shower I start working on my hair making sure I lock the door. No one needs to see me walking around in my underwear *Now what to do* I stare at my reflection for what seems like an hour before I begin to position my hair in a half up do and make my hair go into perfect waves. Once my hair is done, I begin to start working on my makeup taking into the smallest detail when it came to my eye makeup. I look at my end result and smile happily. Glancing over at the clock, I notice that I'm supposed to meet Ilhoon in an hour. I quickly jump up and put on my new dress and heels. I leave my room after a good two hours of prep and notice all the boys gather in the foyer of the house once they hear my heels click. As I get to the top of the stairs, I see all eyes fall on me and I can practically feel everyone holding their breath. Daehyun and Youngjae smile when they see me and I feel like I actually seem like a girl in their eyes and not just an object of their protection. Himchan holds his hands together and looks like he is about to burst in tears while Junhong stares with bug eyes. I can tell Yongguk isn't happy about the entire outfit but is happy that I am happy. My eyes finally fall on Jongup who is standing there in complete awe. As I make my way down the stairs, I begin the awkward conversation “So… what do you think” I say ending with a twirl on the main floor “My baby is growing up!” Himchan yells as he pulls out his phone to take multiple pictures. Laughing I strike a couple poses before turning to Yongguk “please don’t kill Daehyunnie, he is driving me” I try as hard as I can to avoid eye contact with Jongup, and I notice him doing the same. I finally turn to Daehyun as he offers me his arm to head to the car “see you guys afterwards” I say smiling and giving a little wave. I hear Junhong whisper damn and receive a smack to the back of the head. I giggle as Daehyun opens the car door for me and walks around to the other side “So this boy must be special” he says starting the engine, “I hope so” I whisper.

We arrive at the little café that Ilhoon had picked out for the date and I thanked Daehyun stepping out of the car and walking into the café. The setting was cozy and gave off a cute, yet romantic feel to it; I could feel myself getting nervous while I scanned the place to find Ilhoon. I spotted him at the back of the café in a corner lit with small candles and saw him nervously shake his leg waiting for me. I smile to myself as I make my way over to the table bowing slightly when I finally stop in front of our table. “Annyeong Ilhoon oppa” I beamed as he stood up and shyly held out a red rose for me. “An-an- Annyeong Sadie” he blushed looking down. Giggling slightly, I sat down and took a look at the menu. The first half hour of the date went by in complete silence, which was only broken when we ordered our drinks and our food. “So,” I say trying to start a conversation “Ilhoon, it’s not like you don’t know me,” I say giggling “you know you can look at me” I continue to giggle until he actually brings his eyes up from the table and makes eye contact “I'm sorry it’s just I'm so nervous, I have no idea why but I am, I mean you're right we have known each other for a while I shouldn’t be this nervous but I am and its crazy I'm so sorry” he gasps for air after finishing his sentence in one breath.  His shoulder start to relax and he actually chuckles a little. The rest of our time at the café had actually gone pretty well, we had acted like it was just the two of us hanging out, but there was still the air of tension when it came to anything cutesy. At one point he even leaned across the table to wipe off a bit of foam from my lip causing both of us to blush like mad. Once we had recovered, we acted like nothing had happened and continued to laugh at the drunk outside who was singing songs off key, and dancing like a buffoon. “You know I feel kind of bad for him” Ilhoon manages to get out, catching my breath I take a sip of my drink “oh really? Why?” “Because the poor fool probably won’t remember this tomorrow.” We burst out laughing once more and at last the atmosphere is normal. Another hour had past when Ilhoon had suggested we go for a walk, getting up we made our way to the door and started heading towards the local park. I was busy staring at the night sky when I felt Ilhoon take my hand, at first I was a little shocked but eventually I relaxed into it. *This is nice* I thought to myself *maybe one day this will be Jongup and I* I yanked my hand free and covered my mouth in shock, Ilhoon stared at me in confusion when I realized that I had only thought that in my head. “Sorry, I thought I saw a bat… it kind of freaked me out, but it wasn’t.” I fake my best laugh as I push him and challenge him to a race. “Yah! Are you sure that’s safe? You are in high heels” I hear him yell from a distance as I run as best as I can. I end up making it pretty far until I end up having to lean up against a tree for support. “Damn, you know it’s actually hard running in heels?” I say sitting down on the ground and taking them off, Ilhoon sits beside me and I awkwardly tense up beside him. Thankfully my phone goes off giving me an excuse to stand up and walk away for a brief moment. “Sadie?” I hear Yongguk say in his fatherly voice, I chuckle “yes?” “Your ride is on its way, where are you?” “I'm at the park three blocks from the café, how long until my ride is here?” “Any second, bye” I hear him end the call and look at my phone offended. *did I do something wrong?* I walk back over to Ilhoon and pick back up my shoes “Sorry that was my… dad… my ride is going to be here any second” I see the disappointment in Ilhoon eyes when he realizes that our date was going to be ending soon. Next thing I know he grabs my cheeks in his hands and kisses me. I stand there shocked for a bit and even find myself slowly kissing back. As I close my eyes Jongup’s face pops in my head and I push Ilhoon back in shock once more. Tears slowly begin to well up in my eyes “I'm so sorry Ilhoon, I can’t do this…” I look away as tears begin to fall from my eyes. The air grows thick between us. Illhoon lets out a sigh before breaking the silence. “There’s someone else isn't there?” I look up at him as the words flow out of his mouth, all I can do is nod “I kind of figured, I just thought maybe I could change your mind. I saw how confused you were over this boy… that’s why I kissed you… I know I shouldn’t have but I thought maybe it would help you figure it out.” I stare at him in disbelief, and find myself clinging to him as though he could take away the pain and realization that just flooded through me. “I am so sorry Ilhoon, I shouldn’t have come, but thank you I had a wonderful time.” I feel him hold me tighter knowing that I would never be his but I will always be his friend. We finally break away when I see my ride pull up at the entrance of the park. I wipe my eyes and catch the few tears off his face before they fell completely. “I know you will find someone ten times more worthy then me” I kiss him on the cheek and turn away towards my car. I open the door and plop down in the passenger seat before I realize who the driver is.

“How was the date?” I jump a little as I look over and see Jongup sitting in the driver’s seat, “it was good” I reply before looking out the window and zoning out. The rest of the car ride consists of high tension silence and me thinking about my feelings towards Jongup. When we finally arrive at the house Jongup turns off the car and goes to get out “Wait!” I yell pulling him back in the seat, before he could say a word I grab his shirt collar and pull him into a kiss. We sit there for what feels like breathtaking moments before we pull away. He stares at me in confusion before leaning back in and kissing me again. His kiss begins to get stronger and full of  passion causing me to get shocked and pulled back into reality. I stare at him wide eyed before fleeing out the car door and running into the house. I rush up into my bedroom and close the door sliding down it to sit on the floor. I guess it is official. I like Jongup.