Bom walked slightly behind the rest as she stared at TOP's back in front of her. A million things ran through her mind and all of them were about what to do with him. Should she leave, should the three girls stop this mission and go far away from YG? Should she stay? What if they found their real identies? Would they forgive them...would TOP forgive her?

 

Bom stopped walking and closed her eyes, letting out a deep and tired sigh. How did she end up here? For the first time in her life she hated being who she was. She hated being in the police, she hated lying to YG, she hated the fact that when all this was over TOP would never want to see her again. A small tear crept out of her closed eyes and ran down her cheek, the same cheek TOP had kissed on before. Her trembling hand reached for the place where TOp had kissed her and with a pain in her heart she opened her eyes and watched the gang still walking away. 

 

They looked so happy that Bom couldn't help but smile sadly at them. Why couldn't time just stop here?

 

Instead of following them, Bom turned around slowly and walked away unable to bear the guilty feeling her heart, she quickened her steps and walked away before they would notice.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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"JIyong I found it", Dara repeated shaking him slightly but Jiyong just sat there in a daze, "Jiyong are you listening? There's an address too, we can go find-"

 

JIyong suddenly stood up with his gaze hard on the table.

 

 

Dara let go of him and edged back slightly, "..waeyo?"

 

 

Ji stared at the table not answering. This was what he was looking for but now that it was in front of him, something deep inside was stopping him. Was it that he hadn't forgiven his mother yet or was it fear of what he'd find, he wasn't sure himself.

 

 

"Jiyong", Dara tilted her head to get a better view of him. She didn't know why he was being like this suddenly, this was what he wanted afterall.

 

Jiyong suddenly turned around and started walking away.

 

 

 

"Jiyong!", Dara ran after him and pulled his arm making him face her, "What's wrong? I said we found her!"

 

 

JIyong clenched his jaw and slid her hand off his arm before walking out of the building.

 

 

 

"Jiyong!!", Dara shouted after him but he ignored her and left her there confused.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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"Where's Bom?", TOP asked as he turned around looking at the busy street behind him.

 

 

 

"Oppa", Minzy was too busy trying to tell Seungri the pros of walking next to CL.

 

"Does it matter where I walk?", Seungri hissed at Minzy and Gummy.

 

"Yes!!", they shouted back pulling him towards CL.

 

 

 

"So you think someone in the government stole the NIS device?", CL asked Taeyang.

 

"I don't think, I know", Taeyang said, "It's the only explanation, no one else would have the resoures to break into NIS unless it was one of them."

 

"But why would they want to steal from their own?", CL asked, highly curious. If Taeyang was right then she had to tell chief.

 

"That's what we're trying to find out", he sighed.

 

 

"Where's Bom?", TOP pulled Taeyang back a bit and asked again.

 

"Bom?", Taeyang and CL looked around and noticed Bom wasn't there.

 

TOP looked around too, suddenly feeling anxious.

 

"She probably went into a shop", CL said casually, "She usually does that don't worry."

 

 

"What's wrong?" Minzy asked when she noticed TOP looking anxious.

 

"Bom?", TOP mummered still looking behind him.

 

"Where is she?", Minzy looked behind where TOP was looking.

 

"Relax, Bom's probably just gone into one of the shops", CL explained again which was true. Bom had a habit of just disappearing and then reappearing out of no where when they were out, so she really wasn't worried.

 

 

"But...still", TOP furrowed his brows.

 

 

"Oppa!", Minzy suddenly smiled, "Why don't you go find her and meet up with us when you've found her"

 

Gummy nudged Minzy and tried to stifle her giggles.

 

"Yeah...that's probably for the best", TOP nodded and walked back.

 

 

"Really she'll be back-ACK". Cl called out but Minzy just pulled her arm and yanked her to walk ahead.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Dara walked up a hill slightly outside the town while looking at the piece of paper with the address she'd found at the library. She didn't know why JIyong was suddenly acting like he wanted nothing to do with his mother again, but she knew deep down he wanted to know about her. So if he couldn't make himself go then she'd go for him. 

 

 

 

"Excuse me", Dara stopped a halmoni as she came down the hill, she ran up to her and bowed politely.

 

"Neh", the old woman nodded back and looked at her curiously.

 

"Can you tell me where Kwon Soyeon lived?" Dara asked showing her the address.

 

"Soyeon?", the halmoni blinked back, "Did...you know her?"

 

 

 

"Um...not exactly...", Dara smiled awkwardly.

 

"Who...are you then?", the halmoni asked warily.

 

"I'm...a friend of someone who knows her", Dara said slowly, "Did...you know her?"

 

"Yes", the halmoni said slowly as tears glistened in her eyes, "I'm...I'm her omma."

 

Dara froze on the spot as chills ran down her spine, "...what...what did you say?"

 

 

"I'm Kwon Soyeon's omma", she repeated as she wiped the tears away.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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TOP walked into next shop and looked around for Bom but he couldn't find her. He took his phone out and called her again but like the last ten times he;d rang her she didn't pick up. 

 

"Dammit!", he muttered before running out of the shop.

 

 

He grimaced up at the dark clouds up above as heavy rain drops started to splatter on the ground, he put his collar up and started running down the street looking for her again.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[Music: Always be mine by Urban Zakapa]

 

 

 

 

"Aish it's raining", Seungri muttered as the gang ran to the nearest food stall and covered themselves from the rain under it's tin roof.

 

 

"Ahh it's cold", Minzy complained as Taeyang rubbed her hands together.

 

"Should we call TOP hyung?", Daesung asked pulling his phone out.

 

"No!", Minzy shook her head, "Let them be, they'll know where we are."

 

 

 

Seungri put his hands in his pockets and looked at the gang when he noticed CL rubbing her hands together and looking at the rain before sighing. SHe was standing on the far edge and had her shoulder slightly uncovered by the roof so the rain was wetting her slightly there. But she didn't seem to notice as she rubbed her hands together and chatted away to Gummy.

 

Seungri looked at her longingly and slowly stepped back and walked to her standing behind her. He hesitated slightly and looked back at the others making sure no one was looking. He took a deep breath and slowly lifted his hand and placed it in the air above her shoulder without her noticing and stopped the rain reaching her. 

 

Suddenly not feeling the rain drops on her shoulder, she turned to her side and blinked back when she saw a hand there stopping the rain. SHe followed his hand to his face and saw Seungri looking out in the rain with a stoic expression. Cl looked back at his hand and her heart could not help but waver because of him.   

 

 

Taeyang nudged Minzy and pointed at Seungri and CL.

 

Minzy's mouth parted slightly when she saw Seungri collecting the rain in his hand and stopping it from getting on CL. Her eyes started to moisten and she had to look away towards Taeyang.

 

"Hey", Taeyang wiped her tears, "I thought you'd be happy."

 

"I am", Minzy broke into a smile, "You don't understand how happy I am oppa."

 

 

Not realising CL had noticed, Seungri looked back and saw her staring at him with sadness in her eyes. Seungri furrowed his brows slightly not understanding why she looked so sad suddenly. 

 

CL bit her lip slightly and stepped a little closer to Seungri so that he didn't have to keep his hand out in the rain for her. She kept her head down as she felt his body right behind her, she tiled her head slightly to the side and looked at him quickly before turning back to the front again and smiling softly, obviously touched by him.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Dara stepped into their room where Jiyong was lying in bed, she closed the door and leaned her back on it and stared at him.

 

 

 

Jiyong looked up once she came and furrowed his brows when he saw her shocked expression, her eyes were red and puffy and the way she stared at him started to make him uneasy.

 

 

"Where did you go?", he asked as he got up and walked towards her, "...have you been crying?"

 

 

Dara clenched her teeth and tried her hardest not to cry again, she gripped the door knob behind her tightly for support.

 

 

Ji paused for a moment and furrowed his brows again, "Did...something happen?"

 

 

 

Dara's lips trembled as she opened them to speak, "...you...need to come with me."

 

JIyong blinked at her not understanding what she was on about.

 

Dara's trembling hands reached for his, at her touch he looked down at his hand still not understanding what was wrong.

 

 

"Ji...you need to see someone..." she breathed out quietly.

 

"Someone?", Ji repeated.

 

 

 

 

 

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[Music: Winter Love by The One]

 

 

 

 

TOP ran into the park with his coat over his head he ran along the path bumping into people running past him to get out of the rain. He squinted his eyes and looked around the park hoping to find Bom.

 

He'd grown nervous now, she wasn't picking up her phone and was nowhere to be found. What if another gang recognised her and took her? He couldn't help but think for the worst and it made him run a bit faster. 

 

Suddenly he saw a figure sitting on a bench at the far end of the path, he paused when he realised it was Bom and couldn't help but sigh with relief. 

 

 

 

 

 

Her eyes suddenly flickered open when she felt something cover her, she looked up and saw TOP covering her with his coat.

 

"I've been looking everywhere for you", he breathed as he tried to protect her from the rain.

 

As soon as she saw him, her eyes started to moisten, she watched as he covered her up and buttoned up the front not caring that he was getting soaking wet but only caring about her. She looked up at his distressed face, that distress was for her right? Why did she have to make him worry? Who was she to make him worry about her?

 

Her hand slowly reached for his face and gently touched the side of his face. TOP looked at her quizically as Bom looked at him sadly.

 

"Come on let's get you home", TOP started to button up the coat.

 

But her hands rested on top of his to stop him from buttoning her up more. He looked down at his hands and then back at her, his eyes flickered slightly when he realised she'd been crying.

 

He cupped her face and looked at her intently wanting to know why she was crying, but the sadness in her eyes knocked the air out of his lungs that he couldn't even speak.

 

 

Bom looked up at him, her vision blurred from the tears, "...why....does it have to be like this?"

 

TOP furrowed his brows and traced her cheek with his thumb.

 

"why...do I have to do...this to you?", Bom muttered slowly as she held onto his hands.

 

 

TOP kneeld down in front of her and pulled her into a hug, he her hair trying to calm her down, "did....something happen?"

 

Bom bit her lip and hid her face in his shoulder and tried to stifle her tears.

 

"hey...ssh...it's ok", he her hair again, "tell me when you're ready....ok?"

 

 

Bom wrapped her arms around his neck and cried even more, "....i'm...so sorry TOP....I'm...so sorry", she broke down in his arms.

 

He held her tightly in the rain not knowing what to do except just hold her.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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"Stop the car", Dara said quietly.

 

Ji stopped the engine and waited for Dara to say something. She'd had that same shocked expression since she came back to their room and now she'd dragged him somewhere and wasn't telling him anything.

 

 

"Are you going to answer me now?", Ji asked impatiently, "Where are we?"

 

Dara unclipped her seat belt and got out quietly. Ji sighed in fustration and got out of the car, "Dara what's going on? Who do i have to meet?!"

 

Dara slowly turned around to face him, "Let's go", she said softly before entering the gate of a tiny hut right next to where Ji had stopped the car.

 

 

 

"What's going on?", Ji asked again following her slowly.

 

Dara took a deep breath and knocked on the door, ignoring Jiyong behind her.

 

Ji was about to shout in fustration when the door opened to reveal a tiny old woman, he furrowed hisbrows at her and then at Dara.

 

 

The halmoni smiled at Dara and then she noticed Jiyong behind her and her face fell as she stared at him. 

 

Ji looked at the two women before bowing to the halmoni politely.

 

 

The old woman covered with her hands and turned to Dara with tears in her eyes, "Is that...did your really bring him to me...did you?"

 

Dara nodded slowly and the old woman held onto the door for support.

 

"Dara-"

 

 

"Jiyong", Dara spoke still looking at the old woman in front of her, "You're not alone."

 

"Neh?", JIyong asked confused.

 

"You're not alone", Dara smiled sadly at him.

 

 

"My baby, my grandson", the old woman held onto Jiyong's hands as she cried, "I knew one day you'd come back to me...my Jiyongie...jiyong-ah"

 

Jiyong froze on the spot as it dawned to him, he slowly looked down at the tiny halmoni in front of him in shock.

 

 

"She's your grandma Jiyong", Dara said quietly.

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[Music: King 2 Hearts Hang-ah's dream]

 

 

 

 

Bom stopped in front of the hotel, it'd stopped raining now and she slowly took TOP's jacket off and held it out to him with her head held low.

 

TOP tilted his head and sighed before taking the jacket.

 

 

"Thank you for the jacket", she smiled half-heartedly and started to make her way into the building when TOP stopped her by holding onto her hand.

 

She looked back at him slowly waiting for him to say something.

 

 

"God what the hell", he muttered to himself and pulled Bom back to him, "Look I don't know what's going on with you, one minute you're happy and close and the next minute you're cold and distant. I can't figure you out Park Bom so tell me straight, what's going on?"

 

 

Bom stared at him, her heart racing, she wanted to tell him everything. She wanted to tell him that she was falling for him, that she wanted to have him close to her, she wanted to tell him she wished they'd met through different circumstances, she wanted to tell him everything.

 

 

"Bom", he whispered, stepping forward, "You can tell me."

 

 

But she knew she couldn't, she couldn't tell him anything.

 

 

"...i can't", she whispered back.

 

 

"You can...", he said as he cupped her face gently, "it's me."

 

 

"exactly...it's you...", she said quitely biting her lips to stop herself from crying.

 

 

TOP looked at her intently, what was she hiding? He gently traced his hands on her arms and held her, "Bom-"

 

 

Bom closed her eyes, "...don't..."

 

 

TOP sighed at the sad sight of her and leaned in to kiss her forehead instead, "ok..."

 

 

A tear escaped her eye again and she held onto his shirt tightly, she looked up at him not knowing what to do. TOP traced her brow with his thumb and leaned in slightly, Bom wanted to push away but her head leaned in slightly too. TOP tilted her head up gently with his finger under her chin and kissed her softly on the lips. Bom closed her eyes, knowing this was wrong her hands still traced up his neck and behind as she kissed him back.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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[Music: Snowflake by Gummy]

 

 

 

 

 

Jiyong and Dara sar in the tiny kitchen while halmoni ran around getting things ready.

 

 

Dara watched Jiyong as he looked around the room as if he was trying to imagine his mother walking around. She looked away sadly and stood up to help halmoni.

 

 

"Don't be silly", halmoni stopped her, "you go sit down my dear, I'll bring dinner now", she smiled and brought a tray of food and laid it on the table in front of them.

 

Jiyong sat there staring at the woman, not knowing what to think. This was just all too much for him right now, for someone who thought he was lonely in this world, there was someone there.

 

 

"There, eat a lot neh", halmoni served some rice in Jiyong's bowl and other side dishes, "I...I always....dreamed...", she stopped herself to wipe her tears away, "I dreamed....of cooking...for you.."

 

 

Jiyong looked down at the homemade food that his grandmother had cooked for him.

 

"I can't say it's good but...anyway eat eat", she turned to Dara too and nudged her to eat. She then turned back to her grandson and watched him as he slowly picked up the chopsticks and picked up a tiny amount of the food and eat it.

 

She waited as she watched him stoically chew his food, she looked slightly disappointed and looked at Dara and smiled.

 

 

"Halmoni it's really yummy", Dara smiled brightly at her trying to liven the mood.

 

"Ani...it's not-"

 

 

"It's..."

 

 

Halmoni turned to JIyong when she heard him speak.

 

"It's nice", he said quietly still looking at the food.

 

Dara smiled and looked at halmoni who covered with her trembling hands.

 

 

"How....long...I've waited....", she stuttered through sobs as she held onto Jiyong's arm, "I thought I wouldn't get to see you before i die..."

 

 

 

Jiyong looked down at her hand on his arm for a moment before speaking, "...what...was she like?"

 

Dara looked up at him, he looked so vulnerable right now asking...wanting to know about his family.

 

 

"Your omma?", his grandma looked down at her hands, "...she loved you a lot."

 

Jiyong dropped his chopsticks on the table as he tried to calm himself down, he tensed up as he listened to his halmoni.

 

 

"she didn't want to abandon you Jiyong-ah...she loved you-"

 

Jiyong abruptly stood up, but his grandma held onto his hands tightly afraid he'd leave her.

 

"don't blame her JIyong...don't it wasn't her fault Jiyongie...we tried-",

 

Jyong turned away and looked out of the window when he felt the tears forming in his eyes.

 

 

"she was so young...only 17...she made a mistake but she never thought you were a mistake never", halmoni cried as she told him the truth, "she was so young, and my husband wanted...he wanted...her to...abort you", she broke down but held his hands tightly, "but she didn't want to, she wanted to keep you she did that's why she ran away."

 

"stop it", Jiyong finally said, "stop it please....I don't want to hear anymore."

 

Dara slowly stood up too, she wanted to comfort both of them, but she couldn't do anything to help.

 

"JIyong....you need to know", halmoni cried, "she wanted to keep you so much she ran away....she left us, but when she had you...."

 

"she abandoned me", he muttered.

 

"No...no", she shook her head, "please sit down jiyong...please my grandson...please", she tugged on his arm gently, still not letting go.

 

 

"Ji...", Dara said and he looked up at her. She nodded slowly at him and he sighed finally before sitting back down.

 

 

"After she had you, my husband was furious, he felt like your mother had made him into a laughing stock. Although your halapoji was a good man, at that time he forgot about his daughter's pain and only thought of his....so when she had you...she came back home saying that she wanted to keep you and if we could help her."

 

Jiyong stared at the space next to Dara as he listened to the story...his story.

 

 

"But your halapoji was so mad that she'd betrayed him that he...he wanted to give you away", halmoni cried, "one night your omma overheard halapoji talk to some people about giving you away and she panicked and she ran away with you there and then, she didn't even think to take clothes or anything with her, she just ran with you in her arms."

 

 

The whole time Dara's eyes were on Jiyong as she listened to halmoni. She watched the tired look on his face, the look of someone who'd had enough of life. 

 

 

"She didn't get far when your halapoji caught up with her, she was so scared they'd take you away that she hid you in a park so she could lie to halapoji and tell him she'd given you away. But when she came back for you...you were already gone."

 

 

Jiyong clenched his hands into fists, his whole world crumbling down in front of him. Everything he thought about his mother was a complete lie, he'd hated her so much all this time for nothing.

 

 

"After that...", halmoni stared at the wall as she remembered, "she was....she was....not Soyeon anymore...she wasn't my daughter anymore", she cried, "with people still talking about us, your grandad decided to move away so we did...we moved far away. But after...my husband died 5 years ago, Soyeon begged for me and her to come back here....incase....incase you come looking for us....", she sobbed, "...more than me....more than anyone else....she wanted to see you....she wanted to see you grow up into a good man."

 

 

Tears fell down Jiyong's eyes as he felt numb from everything.

 

 

"so...please...don't hate your omma...don't hate her", halmoni cried, "all she ever thought about was you...all her life, she never married...never wanted to start a family....she just wanted you."

 

Jiyong held his head low and clenched his teeth.

 

Halmoni wiped her tears and got up disappearing off somewhere. In the silence of the room, Dara could hear Jiyong breathing heavily trying to stop himself from completly letting go and crying. She wanted to sit next to him, she wanted to hug him and tell him see you were loved, you've been loved all your life but she couldn't find the courage to go to him.

 

Halmoni finally reappeared and placed a tiny baby shoe on the table in front of JIyong, "When we moved...your halapoji threw away everything...but your mum managed to keep this."

 

JIyong's eyes slowly lifted and saw the tiny tattered shoe in front of him. His hand slowly reached for it and he held it in his hand.

 

"She....she kept it with her every single day till the day she died", his halmoni whispered.

 

Jiyong held his head low and suddenly everything he'd been holding back came out and he sobbed his heart out as he clutched onto the shoe.

 

His halmoni quickly embraced him and Jiyong leaned on her like he should have done all those years and cried.

 

Dara covered at the scene and cried too. Why was life so cruel to him? He didn't deserve any of this, and even after meeting his only family, it was still sad because of how the family broke up because of him. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Annyeong everyone! mianhe for the late update (well for me anyway). I'm going to be really busy for the next month or so, so I won't be able to update everyday but i will update whenever I can ok. Mianhe again.

 

also bittersweet update today :( and i know a lot of you are really anxious about when the guys' find out about their identity and all that but al will be revealed as the story goes on so please wait for me arasso.

 

Thank you my lovely readers xxxxx (i think i have time for one more update lol)