while i was still watching out of the window i was still thinking about how today was it still felt like it's not real as if it was all like a dream when i felt something hits me lightly

i looked to my right and saw onew's head on my right shoulder 

''i'm sorry hyung i caused so many troubles''i whispered 

and start to look out of the window when i felt his breath on my arm he took a depp breath and spoke

''it's okay who know maybe this camp thing will actually help us''he whispered

''aren't you a sleep?''i asked

''well i was sleeping till my head got hit bu your shoulder so i woke up''he smiled

i just nodded with a smile 

''are they really going to make us stay there for week''i asked

''ofcourse if the ceo said so he never take his words back''he said helding his head up now

we stayed in silence for afew peacfull moments then onew broke the silence again 

''why did you agreed?''he asked looking at me

i looked back at him and blinked twice ''on what?''i asked

''on becoming part of us?''he answered not moving his gaze off of me

i looked at him for whole minute before answering

''well i liked dancing and singing my whole life''i said

''then why did you hesitate on the answer at first?''he asked

''it's really long story''i whispered not really wanting to talk about it 

''well what can we do?we have nothing to do anyway''he said smiling pressing on me to talk

onew's pov

he sighed  then started ''well when i was young i loved dancing so much but i was shy of showing it or you can say i was afraid of peopls opinion since i was one of the school's losers that's how they called me''

he stopped for afew seconds his face was so sad as if i just touched his wound

*damn it i shouldn't have asked that*

he then spoke again ''once my mom heard that there will me a small concert in our school i don't know how she heard about it  but she was so excited she put my name in the list and asked the teach to give me good part and all without my knowing'' he stopped again

i know it seemes pretty hard on him but i was just too curious to shut up''so what happened next?''i asked

''when i was at the school the next day the teacher called for me and told me that somehow my name in the list of the dancers on the concert of our school  i was so shocked when she told me that and asked how come that i'm on the list that i didn't even thought of participate in''

he stopped to take a breath for calming himself down 

''when i returned home i told my mother and she acted so happy and excited as if she didn't know about it the she huged me and said minho do agood job there me and your father will cheer there for you. at the word father i stopped alittle bit and mumbled dad? mom just nodded yes you know how much he want to see you dancing he is coming back within this week from his trip''

he stopped again so i took the chance ''your father was on trip?''i asked

he nodded ''yes his work forced him travel to japan often so we barely saw him''

i nodded in understanding he then continue again

''at the big day i was very nervouse but still happy because my dad happen to be back at the same day as the concert so it was the day i can see my dad after half year not seeing him i was so excited at that time but ''he stopped again with the tears were threaten to fall he kept blinking trying to stop them but it didn't really help i knew that it was all here. all his sorrow was at this moment

''but at the cocert my parents were no where to be seen i thought maybe i just didn't noticed them and did my part well after the concert was done i looked everywhere looking searching for mom and dad but i couldn't find them i still didn't wanted to lose hope so i thought that they saw me and dad had to do something important maybe so they had to leave early without me

i was convinceing my self in these thought all the way back home but i saw so many people standing in the middle of the street and talking among each other while the ambulance's voice was so loud. i was so curious about what was going on so i skipped the people and froze when i saw my dad's car. they didn't see me dancing they got in to accident right before my concert they got in to accident on the way to see me it was all because of my damn concert'' he gave up from fighting his tears and just let them to fall 

i put my hand on his shoulder and squeeze on it ''it's not your fault.you shouldn't blame your self for this''i whispered 

after he calm down abit i kept looking at him it was like he read my mind ''ask what you are curious about''he said

''how did you know that your mom is the one who asked the teach for you to participate in the concert?''okay i was just too curious to not ask so what?

''my grandmother told me mom had a hapit she never hide anything from my grandmother no matter what. one day my grandmother told me that''i nodded then spoke again

''did you stopped dancing because of that?''

''it's not like i stopped i just didn't let anyone see me and not that often as before''

''then why did you accept the contract?''

''this is the first time you ask this much you know that hyung don't you?''

''ahh sorry''i touched the back of my neck

''well i read my grandmother's letter it was like telling me to accept it and do my best at it''he said

*letter why* of course i couldn't stop my self from asking

''where is your grandma?'' *dammit i feel like i shouldn't have asked*

''she passed away''he simply said obviouly telling me not to ask more

''i'm sorry''i said he just nodded

''hyung''he asked i looked at him he was looking at me

''yes?''i asked

''how come you are part of the group?''

''simply i always loved this and tried my best to get this chance''i smiled at him 

''since when?sice when are you in sm?''he asked

''two years now they've been training us we've been living all together that's why we are like a family thats why everybody was telling you welcome to our family.if it wasn't you god knows how long we had to wait more to debut taemin takes you as his real brother before we meet you we were really surprised how taemin was talking all the time about you''

''but without me you wouldn't be going to the camp now''he said looking down

''without you we wouldn't have preformed yesterday as well'' a voice was heard from behind we both looked back 

key and jonghyun were looking at us smiling lightly 

''s s since when you were listening?''minho asked

''we never slept''jonghyun said blinking

''then why you didn't show any reaction that you are awake?''i almost shouted

''because whenever i had a question to ask minho about you asked instead''key said

''yes that's right hyung since when did you became so talkative?''jonghyun asked

''arghhh why did you spoke now then you could've just continue acting''i mumbled everyone laughed

it was 2am now we all got really tired 

we just stopped talking and dozzed of to sleep minho was sleeping already i didn't even bother to look back to check if they are a sleep because they were snoring

i leaned to the window  and closed my eyes 

i was so scared of how to make the camp chapter since i was planning to make it today but while i'm writting this chapter i was like wow i could actually make this whole chapter only in the car kkkkk 

now i have to work on the next chapter in the camp ahhhh gosh i don't think it will be good :/