Not Allowed To Love... Yet?

Away From Home

 

 
 
[POV - Manager]
I wonder why they had to be punished this way. They are only ordinary kids, with some exceptions. It's true that they are more talented than most and are quite some lookers to. Still... They are the same as everybody else inside. They do fall in love and they can be sad. Sometimes they want to give up and other times they're so happy that they're in heaven. So why are they forbidden to love?
"Um... Hyung? What's going to happen to us now?"
SeungYub asked me. I looked at the mirror and saw to dejected boys in the back. 
"I'm not sure, but..."
I started. I'm not sure what to tell them. It's true that my job is to keep them away from trouble and to help them in keeping track with their schedule, but do I have to destroy all their hopes and love for my job's sake?
"... Right now I think it's better to resume your daily lives. I won't tell you guys to stop loving them, but I want you to keep those feelings for yourself until... the time is right."
I said that, but to be honest I'm not quite sure when "the time is right" myself. But I can't bear to tell them to stop loving those girls. I myself think they are nice and capable at loving those boys back. I guess they're unlucky to fall in love with a situation where they are not allowed to love. SeungYub nodded, but his mood still didn't get any better. The usual bubbly and bright SeungJin had almost become a stone. He just sat there and stared out the window. After a couple of minutes they arrived at the dorms. SeungYub got off first, but SeungJin didn't move before SeungYub dragged him out. I saw them walking depressingly towards the entrance. I looked at them until I couldn't see them anymore. 
 
[POV - AJ]
"You hungry..?"
I asked with the purpose to break the silence. It's been that way since we left the parking lot and parted with SeungJin and SeungYub (and the manager to of course). We did exchange a few words like "it's this way" or "which way was it". So practically nothing. Not that I really minded, since neither of us was in a good mood. 
"Not really..."
She answered it. Just like I predicted. 
"Me neither... Don't even know why I asked..."
We both tried to force a laugh, but it sounded so fake that we didn't even try to strike another conversation until we got home. The moment we entered our room we threw our bags on the floor and crawled into the bed. 
"Unni... What should I do?"
I asked as a tear fell down. I reached my hand towards the celling, like I could grab all the answers. 
"I really, REALLY, like him."
I said as I hided my face under my blanket. 
"Babo... I'm the same."
I heard she answered, but I didn't turn around. I believe she cried to, since I could hear sniffling sounds that didn't belong to me. I guess we were both thinking how much we liked them on our way back and we both seem to have found our answer. Afterwards I feel asleep, tired from crying. 
 
[POV - SeungJin]
The only thing I could think about on the way back is: do I love her? Though, I kind of knew that I liked from the moment my eyes planted on her. But that was then. Now I, not only me but SeungYub to, had to face another problem. What should we tell the hyungs? We do have a proper reason and all but... We were still irresponsible and we did something that might affect our other schedules, or future schedules. We even got called to the office because of it so it's not a minor problem. It affected the whole group and not only us. 
 
"W-we're back..."
SeungYub said as he opened the door. All our schedule had ended for the day so manager-hyung went home. Our apartment room was still a little noisy, it might be because I'm paranoid, but it seems a bit quieter than usual. We tried to be as quiet as possible, for some reason, as we took off our shoes and entered the living room. 
"YA! The two brats are back!"
YunYong screamed the moment he saw us. Then HyeongKon came running towards us in full speed. He jumped upon us and gave us a bear hug while saying. 
"YA! Who would have thought that the maknae's would be the first one to find girlfriends?!"
Without our notice everybody had already surrounded us. All of them was teasing us and commented how unfair or "fast" we were. Which was quite a pleasant feeling since they didn't get mad at us. 
"Ah, but next time don't do that."
HyeongKon suddenly said with a serious voice. 
"Yeah!"
Both I and SeungYub yelled in agreement. We were both grinning in happiness until...
"So... Tell your hyung about what you did ALONE."
HyoJun asked while bumping into my arm. 
"W-what d-do y-you m-mean?"
I tried to act as calm as possible, but my stuttering didn't actually help. Though we didn't do anything "dirty".
"Ooooh! Did you just think of something "dirty"?"
He teased me back. 
"I-I didn't do anything! What about SeungYub?!"
Everybody's focus turned over to SeungYub. At first he just there completely silent, but then his face became red all the way to his ears. 
"N-n-n-nothing happened!"
He stuttered. And not only a little. 
"Okay, that's waaaay to suspicious."
SungMin said with a teasing and a curious tone. 
"N-nothing... Just..."
He said and then mumbled something that wasn't hearable. Everybody looked suspiciously at him - including me. 
"S-shouldn't we go to sleep?!"
He asked desperately trying to change the topic. 
"Yeah... But we'll ask you ALL about it tomorrow."
JaeHyung said and stared at SeungYub. I looked over at the clock. Hm, only 22.00. Quite early, but better go to sleep - not that I actually get any. We all went to the bathroom and brushed our teeth as usual, and as usual we fought over the toilet... Afterwards we went to bed. I couldn't really sleep though, so I lay there staring at the celling wondered what she was doing. Did she sleep? Or was she the same as me? What I though most of the time was: did she like me to? If she did. How much then? Just like that I kept worrying until I fell asleep. 
 
 [POV - AJ]
Hah... Morning already. I thought for myself. I looked over to the side and saw ha huge ball made from the blanket. Guess it's RJ. Unbelievably I actually slept pretty deep, considering the situation. Though I kind of had some nightmares. I better get up now... I fumbled after my phone, but it was still in the bag so I dragged myself over the floor. I finally found my phone after concentrating on focusing my eyes. 7.30... Hm... Was my eyes playing a prank on me?
"RJ!!! Get your off the bed now!"
I yelled as soon as my brain perceived the information. 
"What...?"
RJ said as she dragged herself up. Not understanding the situation. I on the other hand was already brushing my teeth while putting on clothes. 
"Whi awf wate!"
I yelled with my mouth filled with toothpaste. 
"What?"
She asked me again. I tapped on my hand (where the a clock was supposed to be), our usual sign for "clock". Then she finally understood and shot out of the bed. She didn't stress as much as me, but she still hurried. I was almost done and putted on some light makeup before grabbing a banana. 
"Hurry! Or I'll leave you behind!"
I screamed panicky. She was still at the makeup table and fixing her hair. 
"Argh! I'm going ahead!"
I said and started to run. I could faintly hear RJ's scream after me before the door closed behind me. 
 
"Whew! Arrived in time."
Just barely though, I thought for myself when I entered the classroom.   I hurried to my seat as soon as I came into the class. Not only because I felt a little awkward without RJ here. Oh, the bell rang. I looked at the door and counted to five. 
"Haah... I knew she would be late..."
I sighted for myself. The person who sat beside me started at me. Um... What was his name again? Ah! It was Minho. I smiled at his as a greeting. As soon as I smiled at him he turned around. What a rude guy. Could at least give me a sign of greeting. I pouted and then turned forward toward the board. 
"Everybody back to their seats!"
MinJung sungsen-nim yelled as soon as he came in. Everybody ran around the classroom looking for their appointed seat. 
"I will now give you guys the songs that we, teachers, have chosen for you guys,"
He started as he picked up some papers. 
"Of course we left out KyuBok sungsen-nim's options."
He said as a joke and everyone sat and giggled. It was a little funny, but not really that funny. Where the heck is RJ? At the same moment the door opened and she came in. 
"Mianhe sungsen-nim! I was late because a certain SOMEONE left me behind."
She said and glared at me. I folded my hands and apologized silently through the classroom. 
"It's okay. Get T-AJ to explain for you later. Take a seat."
He almost said my real name... Not that it really matters though. RJ rushed over to her seat and sat down. 
"So, you will all get a different song that you may use as you want. You can also rearrange it as you like. But as long as you keep the mainnpoints of the song."
He said while giving out the papers. 
"You also have to pick one people from each year to be leaders in your group. They will have the responsibly over the things that we teachers give out. Okay?"
He said and gave me the last paper. I read the name of the artist and the title. 
"Unripe Apple by Hyuna ft Ilhoon."
I read it out loud, hm... Well, it's something I can at least relate to. Then RJ came over to me. 
"Yah! You ditched me!"
She yelled at me and hit my arm. 
"Mianhe... But you don't need to hit me!"
I yelled back and faked my crying. She continued to hit me and began to chase me around the classroom. 
"AJ! RJ! Back to your seats!"
MinJung sungsen-nim yelled from across the classroom. We both bowed quickly as we returned to our seat. 
"For the rest of the day meet up with your partners and get started. Dismissed."
He said and was about to go out, but then a whole bunch of studends came and complained about the song they got. I'm quite satisfied with mine though. I packed the things I needed inside my backpack. I looked over to RJ and she was already on her way out...
"Unni! Kajima!"
I said as I ran towards her. I finally caught up with her and we continued down the hallways. 
"By the way... Where are we meeting SeungJin and SeungYub?"
I asked then we stopped. 
"Molla..."
RJ answered. 
"Where the heck have we been going then...?"
I said and looked around us.
"Molla, I followed you."
She said with a pokerface. 
"What?! But I followed you...."
Okay this was so typically us. I wonder how many times this had happened to us, in Korea...
"Well let's go to the second year's classrooms. "
I said and we started to walk. We had to go up a floor, since all the second years classrooms are there. Of course we had to take the stairs...
"Uurgh...! I really hate stairs!"
I complained while going up. 
"No kidding!"
RJ complained back. I've never been fond of stairs... Sometimes I can go for a long run, but I always get tired of stairs. 
"2-B, 2-B..."
I mumbled for myself as we walked past the classrooms. I didn't really turn my attention to it, but... It feels like everybody is staring at us. 
"Um... Doesn't it feel like everybody is staring...?"
I asked RJ in a low voice. I saw her turning around and the people around us looked away. All of them. Suspicious...
"Yeah..."
She dragged the answer out while being cautious. Maybe a little to cautious. 
"Ah, 2-B! Found it!"
I said happily pointing at the classroom sign. Both I and RJ peeked inside the classroom not knowing if we should go in or not. 
"Move it brats."
A familiar voice mumbled behind us. We both turned around at the same time.
"Ah! You are G-go-"
I yelled and pointed at her. 
"What was it...?"
I asked RJ while staring at her. 
"For Gods sake-"
RJ was about to yell at me, but then she interrupted us. 
"YOU STUPID BRAT REMEMBER MY NAME ALREADY!"
She yelled at me in the middle of the hallway. Everybody turned over and stared at us. She straightened her clothes and cleared her voice. 
"I mean, my name is Go Hara."
She answered as sweetly as she could. 
"Oooh! You just showed us your true nature!"
RJ said while making "ooh" sound and pointed at her. I held my hands up for a high five, but then got interrupted.
"What's happening here?"
 
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Explanations:
BABO (PABO) - Idiot/fool. 
 
HYUNG – A formal way for males to call other older males. Also a more respective way is Hyungnim.
 
MAKNAE - The youngest one in a group. Or as RJ are, the one that look like the youngest in the group. Often referred to that in k-pop groups. 
 
SUNGSEN-NIM - Teacher, "-nim" is a more formal way to say teacher. 
 
MIANHE - I'm sorry
 
UNNI - a formal way to call an elder girl for girls. 
 
KAJIMA - Don't go!
 
MOLLA - I don't know. 
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Translators note~
I think I will probably write most of the POV's at my perspective, "fly on the wall" or SeungJin's since it's myself and quite a bit easier. I will, of course, write RJ's and so on, but... It's a little difficult to write RJ's because she's a person that I know, but i don't know what she's thinking though... And all this an imaginary story so none of the thoughts need to be real... And I would probably not react exactly like this in real life either, but... Please understand TT.TT I'm getting confused myself. 
 
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