Daesung's Pov:

The next morning was agonizing. I woke up earlier than usual and pretty much just sat on my bed twiddling my thumbs. I trusted Seunghyun but I felt like I was burdening the others.

In a way I hoped they wouldn't show up to lunch today but I also hoped they would. Why was everything so hard? If only I hadn't met him. I never wished this before but after getting Seunghyun invovled I started to resent Yunho... I shook the thoughts away...

That was too messed up. You shouldn't think like that. It's your fault Yunho ended up the way he did.

I stood up lazily and changed clothing. My parents left and Suzy stayed behind. I knew she wanted to have a talk with me from the loud cursing coming from the kitchen.

"Daesung." She came bursting in my room.

"Yeah?" I watched her struting towards me.

"Didn't I tell you to break it off with those guys from school?" She crossed her arms.

"Yes... but I-"

"You can't go back on your word!"

"I never said I was going to cut off ties." I mumbled.

"Don't you en play around with me." she grabbed my collar.

"I'm not.... Why do you hate me so much? I never did anything to you." I tried reaching for her hand but she simply took a couple of steps back.

"More like you don't remember."

"What do you mean?" I got up from my bed trying to get closer to her.

"You and your so called episodes are at fault. Although I honestly think you're just faking it to get away with some of the things you do. You simply chose the easy way out of your problems." She crossed her arms.

"I never lied. I swear I'm not lying. Even so... before I developed this... this sickness you've hated me."

"Think what you like. By the time you 'remember' you'll ask for forgiveness but by than you would have already payed for your mistakes. I'll take everything you have and everything that you hold dear."

She smiled at me. Not a genuine smile but one that held anger, resentment, and a bit of... sadness? "Your friends are here. Enjoy your few moments of happiness."

"Suzy please-" I reached out for her once more.

"Don't you dare cry to me. You have no right! You lost that right seven years ago!" She slammed the door shut.

What the hell is she talking about?

Ughh my head is starting to hurt...

I grabbed the pills that where next to my bedside. The doctor prescribed these pills to help prevent more blackouts from occuring while lessening the high levels of stress inflicted on me.

I grabbed my backpack and headed out the door. Seunghyun was parked on my drive way with Suzy standing beside Seunghyun giggling. As soon as he saw me he waved hello  Suzy's smile dropt instantly.

"Well I have to get going. I need to go stop at a friend's house before I go to school bye Hyunnie."

"Bye Suzy." She didn't turn around to bid me farewell or even a nod.

"Dae! Good morning! My brother from another mother!" I couldn't help but giggle at his grand welcome, quickly forgetting about Suzy.

"Why do you always come pick me up?"

"Well because I drive through here to get to school so I might as well pick you up on the way." He grinned waving his hands towards his car. "Hurry! Hurry! We're gonna be late because your so slow!"

"I'm coming!" I locked the door behind me, sprinting towards the passenger seat.

The car ride was quiet. I didn't try to start a conversation mainly because Seunghyun seemed to be in deep thought.

He had bags under his eyes. My life was starting to a toll on his, it was only a matter of time before Seunghyun would tire and I'd be left to stand on my own. I'd only hope that when that time comes I would have grown a spine.

Once we were inside the classroom, as usual, everyone became silent. I sat in my usual seat, feeling the tension in the room. Seunghyun sat next to me and quietly took out his notebook.

He looked over at me for the first time since he picked me up at my house.

"I'm tired." He gave me a puppy look. I felt guilty for dragging him into this.

"I-I'm so sorry. I didn't think-"

"Are you going to say what I think you are?" Seunghyun laughed loudly. "You didn't do this to me."

"But I'm making you worry. I'm putting stress on you."

"Oh god not this again. Daesung it's not you, It's me. Last night after you left, I stayed up with Chaerin, Youngbae, and Seungri till 1 watching a haunted house marathon. Than when we called it a night, Chaerin was to scared to sleep so I, being the eldest, had to hold her hand till she fell asleep which took another hour. It was awful."

"So it wasn't cuz of me?"

"No Dae. It was Chaerin's fault!" He fisted the air. I smiled at his dramatic pose.

"I didn't know Chaerin was scared of the dark."

"Pfft! Neither did I. All I know is that I'm never doing that again.Chaerin can be a pain in the bu-" Before Seunghyun could finish his sentence a roll of paper hit him at the back of his head.

I turned around watching a group of guys at the corner of the room, laughing their butts off.

"Dude, bull's eye!" One of them yelled.

"Hahaha these gays are only tainting this environment. Too bad I couldn't find a big enough rock to throw instead of this limp paper."

Seunghyun abruptly stood up from his desk knocking the chair down.

"There is nothing wrong with being gay."

"Ohh Ms. Korea is getting feisty."

"Says the one whose never had a girlfriend. I maybe fairly new to this school but even before I became public enemy number 1 I had all the girls wrapped around my pinky. In you're case however I haven't seen a single girl get five feet close."

"Seunghyun stop." I tried calming him but he ignored my pleads.

"Oh we have a wise . You should listen to your girlfriend unless you want your precious eyes stabbed out?" He twirled his pencil between his fingers.

"Try me but you probably won't get a single scratch on me." I couldn't interfere since in less than a second the kid came launching towards Seunghyun.

Seunghyun manuvered himself quickly so that the other student wasn't able to land a finger on Seunghyun. The other student was worn out within the first few seconds into the fight, giving Seunghyun the advantage. Seunghyun quickly grabbed the kid's hand that held the pencil and twisted it towards his back. The student screamed in pain, dropping the pencil. I could have sworn I heard a pop.

"You're years behind me. I went easy on you. Only your shoulder was dislocated, no need to fret." Seunghyun pushed him to ground and walked back to his seat. The other student groaned and cursed at Seunghyun as he was carried out by his friends. Everyone else stood watching with their jaws hanging loose, even I was in shock. The only one who seemed unaffected was Hyunjoong who continued to scribble on his notebook.

"I told you I was tired." I stared at him in disbelief while he grinned widely.

"...What do you mean?"

"Just now I was a bit rusty."

"Rusty? You seemed to be able to pretty great to me."

"Well if I warm up my muscles I can fight like I used to. Did you know I was actually the karate champion where I used to live?"

"I didn't. W-where did you used to live?" I gulped.

"I never told you? Well Japan... Tokyo, Japan."

"You're Japanese?!"

"Of course not! I only lived there for almost my whole life." He laughed loudly.

Other than an announcement that our teacher would be extending his vacation we didn't receive much news.

Personally I was glad he wasn't going to come back anytime soon but Seunghyun became stiff the moment he heard the news. When I had asked him what had seemed the problem he said he had a bad feeling about the regular teacher's absence.

Now that we sat in lunch I couldn't help but ponder at the thought. I was having fun with Seunghyun I had forgotten about that the teacher was going to return.

I looked at Seunghyun who seemed to be equally distracted. Seunghyun always wore a crest on his eyebrows. Lately I felt responsible for his mood. Yesterday I had come into terms with my feelings for Youngbae but despite knowing my feelings I couldn't bring myself to confess. The timing seemed so wrong and at this moment I was more concerned for Seunghyun's mental health.

I could tell something was wrong but he always hid his problems from me. It was probably because he thought of me as being weak...

"Hey don't worry." Seunghyun nudged my shoulders.

I looked away from my food to look back at Seunghyun "huh?"

"Aren't you worried?"

"Y-yeah.... How'd you know?" I blushed. He knew I was thinking about him? What do I say?!

"You're easy to read." He flicked my forehead.

"Ow!"

"Don't worry. They'll show. Even if they don't you know how that say goes... The less the merrier?"

"Huh? Isn't it the more the merrier?" Relief rushed over me. If he knew I wouldn't know exactly how to explain my train of thoughts.

"Hah! Yeah but in our case isn't what I said more appropriate?... Sorry I don't have good references like Youngbae usually does."

"No. Don't worry about it. What you said actually makes me feel better."

"Good!" Seunghyun grinned, taking a drink from his water bottle.

"Hey guys!" Youngbae sat beside me.

"Y-youngbae. W-we thought you weren't coming." I stuttered like an idiot.

"Oh god no! I was going to come earlier but my teacher held me behind. Something about tutoring another student in our class who has the lowest score."

"Really? Who?" I asked out of curiosity.

"Ummm... I think his name was Jiyong. I'll introduce him to you guys later but he seems like he is going to be a hassle. Where's Chae?"

"She didn't show." Seunghyun answered. "but it might be for the best. I don't want her getting hurt."

"Whoes going to get hurt?! Geez I can definitely handle myself. We live in the 21st century you know. Sorry DaeDae I was late because a couple of my friends wanted to share lunches so it was a bit hard to get away from them." Chaerin squeezed in between me and Seunghyun.

"Chaerin! Why'd you leave without me? I told you I was only going to the restroom." Zico burst in.

"Sorry but the girls were being a bit of a bother." Chae started eating her bag of potato chips. 

"Hey Seunghyun, Youngbae, Daesung." Zico squished himself in between Chaerin and Seunghyun.

"Why are you here?" Seunghyun questioned. "I thought you out of all of us would want a peaceful life. I mean technically you weren't even supposed to be a part of out group." 

"I know but if Chaerin wants to leave life on the edge than I guess I have to be there in case she accidently falls off of that edge."

"I can take care of myself." Chaerin pouted.

"You can but there are things that usually requires more help than one pair of hands." Zico grinned.

"Whatever." Chaerin blushed. During the little time I had known Chaerin I had come to realize that despite her strong exterior she was made out of pudding on the inside. It was pretty cute seeing her get flustered easily. If I was straight I would have had no trouble falling for her.

"Guys what are going to do about Hyunjoong. I mean he practically has the whole school in the palm of his hand." Youngbae interrupted the two's banter.

"In all honesty I could care less about him and the school but from the way I've seen things I realized that there is no way we can solve this whole ordeal without getting our own hands messy."

"No there isn't but we don't have to stoop down to their level either. If they attack us physically they should prepare themselves for double the pain. I won't let them harm Daesung or Chaerin." Seunghyun leaned forward on his arm.

"None of us will. Is there anything that can lead us to something big. I don't know like maybe a robbery or cheating on an exam?" Zico asked leaning forward like Seunghyun.

"Well like I mentioned before Hyunjoong might not actually be the leader of this all." Youngbae informed the group.

"How do you expect to find the truth." Chaerin leaned onto Zico's back.

"Well we already started by trying to get close to Suzy but it seems like shes going to be hard to crack." Youngbae rubbed his temple.

"I guess thats the only thing we have going for us isn't it?" Zico sighed heavily.

"It's not that bad. After all she is still a normal teenager who is crazily obsessed with men, especially handsome men." I muttered.

"What do you mean by that?" Chaerin asked.

"I think shes in love with Seunghyun or something..." Just thinking about that made me want to dig myself into a hole. I didn't fully approve of this plan since I knew that Seunghyun was the key component. Meaning if Seunghyun managed to get close to Suzy, enough so that she reveals everything she knows, wouldn't that mean they were in a close relationship? I shouldn't be the one to tell Seunghyun who he can or cannot date but the idea of him with Suzy made me shiver.

"Woah! Thats good! Seunghyun can easily use his looks to court her!" Chaerin chimed.

"Wait wait wait! I don't think this is a good idea. I mean I was all for getting her to be our friend but to date her... I don't think I could do that. I'm sorry but I just can't lie like that. I can't take advantage of her feelings to that extent. Plus it would feel awkward since I already have someone that I-" Seunghyun jerked upwards. "someone that I am friends with who she considers her enemy."

"Well for now lets not push Seunghyun into going that far. Lets just try to get close to her, friendship wise of course."

The bell ran before we could discuss anything further. 

Seunghyun was the only one to walk me to class since his was only down the hallway.

"I'm sorry if the conversations had made you upset or anything."

"No not at all. You guys are just trying to help. That is more than enough to keep me happy. I'm really luck to have meet you Seunghyun." I smiled up at him.

"Daesung would you like to hang out this weekend? I mean just us two without the others. I think it would be good for us to get away from all of this. I-I mean only if you would like to... you don't have to go." Seunghyun smiled.

"I uh... y-yeah I would like to go." My heart began thumping against my chest. This was the first time in a very long time that I would be able to hang out with a friend since Hyunjoong. 

"Good. I'll pick you up on Saturday at 4." Seunghyun smiled, walking backwards.

"Okay. See you than." I awkwardly waved.  

"I'll pick you up after school." He grinned.

"Okay."

"Okay. Bye." He chuckled ... still walking backwards.

"Bye." I laughed.

"Oops. Sorry." It was only till he backed up into someone that he started watching where he was walking towards.

I walked into class, ignoring the stares, lately things seemed to brighten up. I felt happy for the first time in a long time. 

I was happy.

Guilt suddenly struck me. I shouldn't be happy. Not when so many things were left unanswered. Not when even I wasn't sure if I had killed Yunho. Not when I didn't remember how I had caused Suzy so much pain. I needed to find out the truth before I could feel happy but I wasn't sure how to go about it. 

As happy as I was that everyone was willing to risk so much for me, before they would get hurt, I had to solve this by myself. 

The only way I had any idea as to how I could do just that was going to Hyunjoong. 

Hyunjoong. I need to talk to him. 

I looked over at his desk. He was sitting there, not focusing on anything in particular.

He was stressed, tired, and confused. Although Hyunjoong was hard to understand usually his body language would give him away. When we were friends I never read his body language, maybe that why I never realized he was exhausting himself at that time. It was only after we became distant that I began to fully observe him. I felt like I knew him now more than I did in the past.

I'd have to set up a day to talk to him. I had to get him alone. Knowing him he would probably would revert to his softer side if we were alone.

At least that was what I had hoped.

I stayed behind the other students after class had ended. Hyunjoong, who I knew was not feeling well was going to try to be the last one to leave. He didn't even notice we were the last to left in the classroom till I blocked the doorway entrance.

"Move I don't want to be seen interacting with you." Hyunjoong stated without much emotion. I used all my willpower to stay glued to my spot.

"Do you have a minute?"

"No." He tried moving past me but I pushed him back.

"Please?"

He sighed deeply. "Since when did you become so persistent?"

"Since I couldn't save us..."

"Don't you dare en start. What do you want?" Hyunjoong shot a cold glare at me. I looked down at my feet, not being able to meet his gaze.

"Look I just want to have a talk. I want to explain."

"Thats not going to happen anytime soon."

"Please Hyunjoong just once. I won't take up a lot of your time. I promise."

"Daesung I don't think-"

"Hyunjoong tomorrow I'll be at the park at 2. Whether you show or don't I'll stop bothering you. I wish you would show but I know I can't force you too." 

Hyunjoong stood still for a second. I couldn't tell what he was thinking about. He walked past me without giving me any type of sign. 

I smiled to myself.

In the past Hyunjoong would have forced his way past me without letting me speak a word, but this time we actually had a conversation without him causing me any physical pain.

Well almost a full conversation.

Hey guys! sorry for the long delay! DX I'm trying to make progress in the fanfic by bringing todae closer and adding some stuff here and there XD next chapter will include todae (though they won't be dating just yet) and an intro to a new couple ;) I hope to update this either tomorrow or sat. since im on spring break. However tomorrow I don't get out of work till 3pm but I'll still try to at least get some it written out~ please be patient till then! I promise this fanfic will start having regular updates~