*Hyunjoo's POV* 

Yongguk oppa knocked and the door was opened.I was hoping that it wasn't Yonghwa oppa.Fortunately,another man opened the door.He was as tall as Yongguk oppa and looked like someone in his mid 30s.I bowed slightly,so did Yongguk oppa

"is Yonghwa hyung here?" Yongguk oppa asked the man

"yeah,he's here.Come on in" the man stepped aside letting us in

I was getting nervous as we enter.I hid behind Yongguk oppa and he squeezed my hand a little,reassuring me it's going to be fine.The man tapped Yonghwa oppa on his shoulder and he looked up.Yonghwa oppa turned to Yongguk oppa's direction after the man said a few things and immediately smiled.He put down his guitar and walked to Yongguk oppa.I tried to hide my best behind Yongguk oppa 

"hyung,can we talk? privately" Yongguk oppa asked Yonghwa oppa and he nodded 

is Yonghwa oppa stupid? blind? can't he see me standing here? why am I even bothering to let him see me when I'm trying my best to hide? I wish I can run away from him and let him regret for leaving me and mom behind.I pulled my hand away from Yongguk oppa and ran out.

"Hyunjoo-ah!" I heard Yongguk oppa calling for me but I didn't bother to respond

I continued to run until Yongguk oppa's voice wasn't heard.I ran up a flight of stairs and ended up at the rooftop.I stood there panting,trying to catch my breath.

"Hyunjoo-ah,are you ok?" I heard a familiar deep voice with his hand on my shoulder 

I looked up and saw the person I least wanted to see.Kim Himchan.He took my hand,leading me to the middle of the rooftop.There was a chair there.I sat and down hand my head low.

"what's wrong?" he asked.His voice was so calm.Not the clingy,annoying voice of his

"none of your business" I answered him harshly.His face expression dropped.He was surprised by my sudden action.Am I too harsh? Am I feeling guilty for him? Caring about his feelings right now is the last thing I want to think.Too many things are going in my head.I sighed and apologized "I'm sorry,I'm just too stressed out.I'll get going" I stood up and walked away 

"wait" he grabbed my wrist "come here" he pulled me in for a hug.He patted my back and hugged me in a comforting hug "whatever it is,don't let your guard down ok?" he gave me a little squeeze before pulling away but he was still holding my wrist and staring at me.He pulled me close again before planting a kiss on my left temple and cheek "be strong" He smiled 

"thanks" I bowed slightly and walked away.Did he just kissed my cheek? is this real? why did he do that? maybe it was just to support me.I walked back to the dressing room and Yongguk oppa attacked me for a hug.

"thank god you're safe.I thought you went missing" Yongguk oppa hugged me tightly

"sorry for making you worry.I was at the rooftop" I patted Yongguk oppa's back assuring I'm ok

Suddenly,someone walked in.All of us turned to the door and saw Himchan walking in with his hands in his pocket.

"where were you?"  Yongguk oppa asked

"the rooftop" Himchan answered bluntly and plopped on the couch 

"rooftop? what do you mean? you were with Hyunjoo noona?" Zelo asked 

"no.I didn't even notice Himchan" 

"yeah we hung out together"

Both of us said at the same time.What did he just say? we hung out together? Before I can explain,B.A.P was called for standby as the stage as their turn was coming.I waved to Yongguk oppa and watched them walk out.I took my coat and walked out.I took a taxi to the hospital and entered the autopsy room.Mom's dead body was there.What am I going to do? do the funeral by myself? The funeral's tomorrow but nobody knows mom is dead.

I sat on the chair outside of the autopsy room and stared blankly at other people.They were all crying.Maybe their loved ones had died too.Well yeah,this is the autopsy level after all.Where all the dead bodies are placed.All of them had a close family member,I think so,to comfort them.While I have no family member left.Yonghwa? who is he? He's a stranger to me.He's just a trash to me now.He treated us like trash and let him taste a piece of his own medicine.I only know Jung Yonghwa from CNBLUE.

Next morning,I was too lazy to get up.It's mom's funeral day.If mom was still alive,I would get ready to go to the hospital but now? What should I do every morning and night besides going to work? When am I going to peel fruits for someone? I was snapped from my trance when someone knocked on the front door.It must be Yongguk oppa.I told him not to come,worrying of him getting tired but he still insisted.

"hey baby" Yongguk oppa hugged me the moment I opened the door "morning" 

I nodded and led him in.He rested on the couch while I took a shower.I wore my knee-length black dress and looked into the mirror.I never thought I would be wearing this dress.This dress is made for funerals but I realised I have no relatives.I never thought that I would be wearing it on mom's funeral 

"babe" Yongguk oppa knocked on the door "are you done? lets go" he opened the door a little and peeked in.

"hmm? oh...y-yeah,lets go" I nodded and grabbed my coat,linking arms with Yongguk oppa.

He looked great in his tuxedo.With a white t-shirt inside and a black blazer over it,along with a pair of black trousers.Oppa didn't wear any tie and let the two buttons on top ed.We arrived at the graveyard and the people that I hired were carrying mom's coffin

I watched as they put mom's coffin in the ground and buried it.My heart was getting heavy as the earth heartlessly swallowed my mom bit by bit.I refused to cry but my tears betrayed me as tears streamed down my cheeks.Yongguk oppa placed a bouquet of flowers on mom's grave stone.

I walked to mom's grave stone with heavy steps and stared at it.Kim Hyejin,1967-2012 was carved on it.Mom was so young.She only lived for 45 years.Mom battled with a rare disease for years.Mom was so strong fighting with it while I was getting weak everytime mom's face was getting pale.The endless treatments and needles being inserted inside of her.Everytime,she would say she was fine,mom's voice sounded so weak.The day Yonghwa oppa left us,mom was already sick for a few months.She was suffering alone.The fact that Yonghwa oppa left us without asking was making me hate him more.I sat there for a while,staring at mom's grave.I was snapped out from my trance when Yongguk oppa tapped my shoulder 

"Hyunjoo-ah" Yongguk oppa called and I turned around.Adding to my worst nightmare,Yonghwa oppa was standing behind him.I took my coat and walked away but Yongguk oppa held my wrist,stopping me from walking away.

"Hyunjoo-ah,please.Let's talk.We need to settle this now.You need support" Yonghwa oppa pleaded 

"support? support you say? All this while,all these YEARS! I've been supporting myself and mom while you were enjoying your life as an idol who has no background to begin with and as you can see.I'm perfectly fine" I stared at Yonghwa oppa with a glare

"Hyunjoo-ah,what happened to you? you were kind and listened to others" Yonghwa oppa took a step towards me and I backed away another step

"that Hyunjoo? that Hyunjoo is gone.She was thrown away by a person whom she used to call oppa like a piece of trash.The worst part,he never decided to check up on her in the past" 

"I was ashamed.I wanted to go back but I didn't have any pride to go back after what I did that day.I tried" 

"yeah,you tried but you should try harder.Now,it's all too late" I walked past Yonghwa oppa,bumping my shoulder with his 

"wait" Yonghwa oppa held my wrist 

*SLAP!* 

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