*Hyunjoo's POV* 

my hands trembled as I reached for the doorbell.Should I just turn back and never look back? Why should I bother coming here? but the reason I came here is to meet Jonghyun oppa.Why am I so worried? I gathered up my courage again and pressed the doorbell 

The door opened and there stood Jonghyun oppa smiling.I sighed in relief and smiled back.Jonghyun oppa stepped aside gesturng me to walk in.I took small steps into the dorm while looking around.

I heard Jonghyun oppa chuckling behind me "don't worry.Nobody's home.They won't be back till tomorrow evening.You can sleepover if you want.It's been a while too since you've slept here" Jonghyun oppa pouted 

"I don't think Yongguk oppa would like that.Anyways,what did you want to meet?" I plopped myself on the couch 

"come here,I need to show you something" Jonghyun oppa dragged me to a room.The name written on the door caught my eyes

"what are we doing here?" I sighed and Jonghyun just gave me a smile.I stood at the door,not wanting to go in.I looked around and there was a picture of our family on his table 

"ya,come here" Jonghyun oppa snapped me out of my trance and patter the empty space besid ehim on the bed.Jonghyun oppa had a box in his hands.He took my hands and put the box in my hands "open it" 

I sighed and opened the box cautiously.It was filled with pictures adn papers.It wasn't any regular papers,it was folded nicely with "to:Hyunjoo" written on every paper.My hand trembled reaching for the papers.I looked at Jonghyun oppa for a moment and retreated my hand away.

"what are you trying to do?" I sighed and put the box aside,standing up

"look through it carefully,open the letters up" Jonghyun oppa held onto my wrist gently,pulling me back down to sit beside him 

I sighed and opened up the letters.Each and every one of them.All of them had very long wordings in it.There were some letters that even exceeded more than 2 pages but among the letters,one letter caught my eye.The letter had teardrop stains all over it

I'm sorry...

That was that written on a big piece of A4 paper.Nothing else.Only seven letter and 3 dots,accompanied with stains of teardrops.I don't know why but my heart felt so heavy.Why amd I touched by seven letters but not with 2 pages? Why? Does Yonghwa really mean something to me? A tear rolled down my cheek and fell on the letter.Adding another fresh stain on the paper.Jonghyun oppa wiped away my tear with his thumb.

"why am I feeling like this oppa?" 

"because..he's your brother.No matter how hard you try to hate him,you'll end up caring for him more" Jonghyun oppa patted my shoulders "well,enough with the letters.Let's go and watch TV" Jonghyun oppa put the letters back in the box,putting it back to its original place and pulled me to the living room.

The only show that was fun for the night was Incarnation.One of the guests were Yonghwa and Minhyuk.Half way through the show,it was going well when Yonghwa dropped a 'bomb'.I was in a daze.Why did he decided to tell it ehre? Why? What is he trying to prove?

"Actually,I have a younger sister" Yonghwa confessed 

younger sister 

that word kept on lingering in my head.I couldn't believe it.I scoffed and took my coat,walking out.I was stopped by Jonghyun oppa with his hand grabbing on my wrist gently.

"I'm going out for a walk" I pulled my hand away and walked out.My mind felt refreshed with the gust of wind breezing late at night.I felt so suffocated and heavy in the dorm.The tense atmosphere can be felt by anyone.I sat at a bench at a nearby park till the crack of dawn.

"Hyunjoo-ah!" someone shouted for my name form afar

I turned around,letting out a little laugh.It always amuses me by the way Yongguk runs.He stopped in front of me,trying to catch his breath but then it snapped me,why is Yongguk here?

"before you ask,I came because Jonghyun hyung told me" Yongguk flashed a smile and sat on the floor "how long have you been here? Have you had any breakfast?" Yongguk looked at his watch and I shook my head a little "you look pale.Have you been here all night? aigoo,come here" Yongguk pulled me inn for a tight hug 

I smiled a little and snuggled into Yongguk's arms,mumbling 'I missed you'.Yongguk gave a slight as a response and hugged me tighter.