i'' decided to update an extra chapter to wipe away your dissapoinment! kekeke :p

sorry for made a sad dissapointing cliffhanger in chapter 7...*.*

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i think it's a touchy song...really touchy....T^T

I walked heavily along the corridor, and just kept my head down  to the ground. My eyes and my heart felt empty, even i didn’t know where would my feet took me.

I tried to remembered what the doctor had said to me.

 “Haha, d-doctor, what did you say? A-a brain cancer? You’re joking right? Are you trying to joke with me? It-it’s impossible RIGHT?”, i still didn’t believe what he said.

“Donghae-sshi, it’s true.”

And that’s all he said. He didn’t even laughed or made funny face.

‘Did he….told the truth?’, I thought.

“B-but….he…he looks like the other normal person…”, i tried to searched another reasonable cause, still didn’t believe the doctor.

Or…maybe….i didn’t WANT to believe him.

“Donghae-sshi, Eunhyuk knows about it too….”

‘Was this for real? Eunhyuk, the first love of my life…..his life will….was it true?‘, i kept denied it.

Thinking about it made me frustrated and shocked, couldn’t felt my own feeling. All i knew was i felt very hurt, right in the heart. It’s not like a disease that could be cure easily….but it more like…immortal disease. Like i had no more power to live on my life….

I felt my eyes was full of tears, my hand is shaking, and my breath felt so heavy….all my body felt so heavy…

“B-but….it can be cured right? Right doctor?! I’ll pay for the treatments, but please, make Eunhyuk cure and health again….”, i asked the doctor with tremble lips.

“I’m sorry Donghae-sshi, it’s not about money. We’ve took care of Eunhyuk-sshi like our own family here…and we sincerely want to help him too… but it’s too bad, when he brought here, it was already too late, the cancer had been spread all over his head….”, the doctor answered sadly.

“But maybe, there’s still hope. We won’t lose and give up him. i still try my best to cure him. The medicine technology are much more good and supporting too now…as long as there are people who give him spirit, i’m sure that he’ll get well…”, the doctor tried to cheered me up.

But all i had was just hopeless feeling, couldn’t handle the situation anymore.

‘Am i going to lose him?’

Was all i could thought. My eyes just looked straight forward with an empty gaze, my hand fist and shaking harder.

“NO! it isn’t true! You’re lying right?! It can’t be! he’s okay….I-I don’t trust you!”, i hit the table in front of me with my fist and yelled at the doctor, made him jumped in surprise.

“But Donghae-sshi, I-“

“Enough! Don’t say anything again!”,

I cutted his words before he finished and went outside the room, closed the door with a loud ‘BANG!’ sound.

And here i am now, i kept walking and walking along the corridor, didn’t know what to do or what to think anymore. Suddenly, my breath became heavier, and my steps became slow. I stopped my feet, just stood in the middle of the corridor. I looked to the ground, and I felt my eyes burning, something wet filling it.

Sooner, tears began to flew, and  screamed how i felt. I felt my knees became weaker and weaker, and i couldn’t control it anymore. When i looked at the room in front of me, the sign showed number 404.

It’s Eunhyuk’s room.

I stared at it for a while, silently. I moved my right hand, and held the number. Suddenly, the tears that filled my eyes began to flew……

”it can’t be…..”, i murmured.

The tears flew harder and harder, couldn’t stopped. I kneeled to the ground, cried in uncertain feeling.

I didn’t know how long the time had passed, but for sure, the tears that came, would never enough…..

Never enough to represent all my sadness…

And then, i decided to wipped my tears and stood up. I held the hilt with tremble hand….

‘do i have to come in?’, i kept indecisive to opened the door or not.

I freezed for a while, thinking.

“I have to meet him….”, and then opened the door.

“Oh, Hae, what are you doing? Coming here this late? are you miss me already? kekeke…”, i heard Eunhyuk’s voice so happy, he even made a joke.

I looked at his face sadly.

This person….this pure cleansed person…..could it be…..

I couldn’t imagine that he had those kind of sickness…and he’s being so strong, even when he knew that maybe….he’ll lost his precious life….

“Hae, what’s happening? why are you look so sad? Is there something happen to you?”, he asked me, sat up on his bed.

I couldn’t said anything. I just walked slowly, closer to him. i took his hand, and held his cheek, softly. I tried so hard to held my tears. But unfortunately, i couldn’t. it dropped passed my cheek just like that.

“What’s happening?”, Eunhyuk asked again, worried.

Once again, i couldn’t answered him. i pulled him, and took him in my embrace.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”, i asked between my tears.

“What? Tell you what? Hae, i don’t understand…what had happened?”, he kept asking.

“Why Hyukkie? Why? Sooner….you’ll leave me…right? How could you do that? You know you’re the first person who can make me feel like other people…”, i blabbered, didn’t know what i’ve said. I hugged him more tightly.

Suddenly, silence filled the air. I think he already knew what i mean with those words.

“Will it….will it….change everything?”, he finally spoke, his voice sound so sad.

I released my hug, and became the one who being confused.

“What-what do you mean?”, i looked at him, grabbed his hands and held it with my hands.

“Will it change everything…..if you know that i’ll-“, he sobbed, couldn’t continued his words. “If-if you know…..that maybe….i’ll die soon…?”, he asked, and i could saw hopeless in his eyes. It began to wet with tears.

I stopped crying, tried to think what he just said.

‘Will it…..change everything?’, i asked to myself.

“I-I….i don’t know….”, i answered stuttered and released his hands, didn’t sure with my own words.

“Hae….will you….leave me, if you know i’ll die soon?”, he look shocked with my answered, and asked again. he cried harder.

I freezed for a moment, didn’t know what to say. My heart felt so confused, and sad, and i didn’t know what happened inside it. I couldn’t find the right answer.

“I….i….i don’t know!”, i screamed in frustration, and ran away outside his room, even before he able to said anything. But before i ran away….i could saw his face, lament in sadness…

‘I’m sorry Hyukkie….but i need times…to think it clearly……’