AN: This is the sequel of LET ME LOVE YOU. I haven't done any fluff because as of now I can't feel it. :) so here's my updated as well the FINALLY I FOUND YOU, the sequel of Bus Ride and Searching is posted already. :D enjoy! 

 

 

 

Let Me Prove To You

 

I thought I was doing the right thing. I always tell myself that this is the right thing to do but why does my heart tells differently? Why do I feel this hurt? Why does it felt worst that I ever felt before?

I’ve known him since we were young. He was my best friend. We were inseparable. And then one day it change. One day we felt differently for each other. It’s not the brotherly love we always had and even if we didn’t tell it by words, we just know and we felt the same. We were so happy and young that we didn’t even care about people might think. We have the same dreams too. We wanted to be a famous singer so we audition and got casted. We always go to our training together and leave the place together. Our dreams, our habits, our every thing are the same that’s how we were inseparable.

When after my mother died because of a car accident I was devastated. The cause of my mother’s death was because of my father. She was casing his car when she saw him picking up his mistress and she got herself hit a post when entering the intersection. She was still alive when we got to the hospital but her heart and lungs gave up when she saw my father. She always loved him and yet he doesn’t. Love ruined everything. I saw my mother’s death when she believed in love. That’s why I decided not to love. I started to shut everything about Sungmin because I know I’ve loved him.

The day after my mother’s funeral, Sungmin decided not to continue our training as an artist. I don’t know why and because I felt betrayed that he gave up on our dreams, on me I started hating him. I realized maybe it’s a good thing so it’s easier to completely shut him out of my mind. Months have past as I started training again, I pour all my energy and feeling in my training to become what I wanted and to make my mother proud because I know she wanted me to become a singer. Since the day that Sungmin quitted I didn’t see him regularly or heard anything about him. Sometimes I saw him in the same company I’ve been training but I just ignored him and shut the feeling of longing whenever I see him. 

The day I finally debuted as a singer have come. Everyone congratulated me when my first on stage performance was a success. It is also for so many months my first time that I feel happiness. They said that they felt every sadness in every song that I sing. I know too because I don’t know how to be happy. I don’t know what is happiness means. It was buried deep down along with my mother and Sungmin. But today I feel it came back, the happiness I’ve been missing.

We had a small victory party for me and it will be the day that I will meet my manager. I only have a temporary manager because the one they assigning me has return from training yesterday. I was called by the CEO of the company I’m label off and I was shocked to see him. There standing beside the CEO, wearing black suit and a smile is Sungmin. I felt my heart ache. All the feelings I’ve been hiding, the longings, the happiness and love comes rushing back to me and I hate him for that. I hated the way he look, the way he smile and the way he look at me. I hate him yet I know I don’t.

From that day I treated him coldly. I showed him that I really don’t care about him. I don’t want to feel what I should be feeling. I don’t want to be near him yet I don’t want him to leave me again. People around me gave up because of my attitude yet he’s still here beside me and I hate him further. I decided to make his stay with me miserable for me to get revenge because he left me and now he came back with my heart.

I suddenly become a bastard towards him and others when Victoria and I decided to end our relationship. People thought that I became like this because of her but they didn’t know the truth. We know from the start that we agreed to start dating for the sake of our career and just continue to make it real but we both know that we didn’t love each other. She has someone and as she always say that I have someone that my heart wants to and that’s why I became a bastard because I can’t accept the truth she’s telling me. She always say that the way I look at Sungmin is different. 

I don’t accept nor acknowledge what she told me so I just brush it off. What I feel about Sungmin is hatred. I hated the way he smile, the way he laugh at people’s joke, the way he pout his lips when he’s concentrating, and I hated the way he said my name. I hated some girls and boys flirt him! I hate him.

I got an offer to do a movie after my concert in Japan. We were inside my tent preparing for my scenes and Sungmin is busy arranging things that his assistant should done but he left because he can’t stand my attitude. He deserve it because he’s flirting Sungmin.

What am I saying?! Tsk.

I ordered Sungmin to buy me some milk tea to divert my attention. I suddenly heard him sneeze. Do he feel sick? He look slightly pale. I shouldn’t care.

I heard him leave and fans outside started screaming. I focused on memorizing my lines when I heard someone entered my tent. I thought it was Sungmin but when someone touched my arms. I looked up and saw it was one of the actress in the movie. I looked at her and ask her in irritated voice.

“What do you want Ms. Seohyun? I don’t have time for you so please go away.” Ugh! This girl is truly a flirt sometimes she flirt Sungmin!

“I want you, Kyunnie~.” She said in disgusting cute tone! I was about to speak when she kissed me. What if Sungmin saw us? Heck! I should be angry with him. I heard fans screaming his name that’s when I started kissing her back. I don’t care about Sungmin. I heard him fake a cough to catch our attention but I don’t care.

“KYUHYUN!” He yelled at us. I let Seohyun go and smirked at him.

“I’m sorry for disturbing you guys but you can see there are so many fans out there and when they see both of you its end of us. So Ms. Seohyun, can you leave? Thank you.”

That’s one of the things I hated about him, he do care about me but only because of my career. So I lightly kissed her and told her to go. I saw Sungmin’s expression and he looked sick.

He sighed and handed me the tea. I purposely brushed my fingers to his. We felt it, I know there’s a spark but I ignored it. I should ignore it. I sipped my tea and look at him again. 

“Are you okay?” I suddenly asked him not minding if I sounded concern.

“Yeah. Be ready, your scene is next.”

I was about to tell him to rest but I should be hating him. One of the PD called me for my scene.

“Go. Don’t give the director a headache.” He smiled at me but this time his smile is different. He really looked tired and sick. I looked away and left.

I heard the screaming of the fans as I go to the set but my mind is still with him. Why didn’t I notice that he looked tired. Why should I even care? I looked pissed and I don’t care. I looked for my script when I reached the set but I excused to the PD that I just return for my script.

I’m still pissed at myself for worrying for him. I stormed inside the tent ready to shout at Sungmin when I noticed he’s lying on the floor. I quickly went to him. 

“Sungmin? Sungmin, wake up!” I tapped his cheeks and slightly shaking him to wake him. I placed my hands on his pulse. I sighed in relief. He’s still alive. I noticed his hot. Does he have a fever? I quickly placed him in my arms and immediately ran towards my van to bring him in the hospital. The PD allowed me to accompany him to the hospital. The fans were also worried when they saw Sungmin. I didn’t put my mask on. I showed to everyone, to myself that I am so worried about him. I looked at his lifeless body and touch his cheeks.

Why do I fight this feeling off? Why do I have to hide my feelings from him? 

We were immediately attended by the nurses and he was placed inside, the doctor came and check everything they need to check. 

“Doctor, is he going to be okay?” I immediately asked the doctor once he’s done checking him. 
“Yes, but we still need further examinations just to check his condition. Based on what we did, he lose his consciousness because of over-fatigue and dehydration. He’s having a fever too so we’re transferring him to another room and you can go see him later.
“Thank you.” He smiled at me and went ahead. I sighed in relief.

I called our company, the PDs and his family about his condition. After making the calls, I quickly went to his room. He’s still sleeping. I sit beside his bed and stare at him. So many years have passed from the day we’ve met, from the day we’ve separated and from the day he became my manager. Those years I forced myself to believe I hated him, that I needed to hate him and yet I didn’t. I know that I still love him. It’s time to face the truth. I noticed some tears in his eyes, is he dreaming? I wiped his tears away. My heart aches twice the pain I had before whenever I see him like this.

“I’m sorry Sungmin.” I said quietly and slowly I drifted to sleep.

I suddenly stirred and felt someone brushing my hair. I missed this feeling. I slowly open my eyes and look at Sungmin. Those eyes are red and hollow not the one I always sees. Am I the one did this to him? I want to reached his face to let him know I’m here.

“Hey…” His voice is hoarse.
 
“Hi. How are you?”
 
“Fine. Kyuhyun~ah.” I looked at him and saw tears running down his face. I can’t move my hand. I want to wiped his tears away and to ease his pain away. 
 
“I missed you.” How much I wanted to say that I missed him too so damn much.
 
“Uhm…Sungmin…”
 
“Kyu… I realized something. I realized that no matter what, you will not come back to me. You will not love me anymore. For 25 years you are the only I love, my world revolves only to you. You know that right? That I love you even if you don’t want me anymore…”
 
“Sungmin… I..” I know. All this time I know that Sungmin loved me that’s why he didn’t leave. He started crying with all his might, he’s telling me he is so damn much in pain. And here I am the bastard who hurt him. I want to wipe those tears away but how? How can I took away those damn pains when I’m the one who cause it! My heart breaks to pieces as he is.
 
“Kyuhyun-ah…Let me love you even if you don’t want me too. Before I know that you can love me back but now I don’t know. Just don’t tell me to stop loving you... I’m sorry Kyu. I promised that I will make your dreams come true. I made it right? That’s why I will stop now. I will stop being your manager but I will not stop being your best friend. I missed being your friend. Haha.
 
“Sorry. You can go now. I will ask for a new manager for you, don’t worry.” What is he talking about? I want to tell him everything but no words came out my mouth! Don’t do this please? I hated his smile now because it’s fake!

“Min…”
 
“Kyu…please.” I want to stay. I don’t want to leave. I wanted to tell him that I won’t leave him but there’s no words coming out my mouth. I looked at him and I know he needed to rest so I decide to leave for now because I know this is for him.
 
“Okay…”
 
“Thank you.”
 
I hesitantly left his room. I slowly close the door behind me and I can still his cries and I can’t help to let my tears fall. I want to go back. I want to be by his side. I wanted to tell him how much I love him. I still love him even if I believed I didn’t.

I composed myself and called his brother to accompany him. I waited outside his room. Asking so many questions. Why did he leave me before? Can we be together again? Can he forgive me? What should I do? After 30 mins I didn’t hear his cries anymore and his brother just arrived. I slightly smiled at him and patted his shoulder and left.

It’s 1 in the morning when I got home to the dorm. There’s no one else here and I can’t sleep. I drag myself to the shower and let myself soaked underneath it. Damn! I am stupid! I hurt the one I loved the most because of my selfishness. I hated him because he left me and not knowing the reason. I hated him because he made me feel love. But I realized it’s not his fault. To begin with, I am in love with him way before my mother died. I became blind because of what I don’t want to see and now that he’s in so much pain, how can I help to ease it? How can I prove to him that I still love him? How can I pay the mistake I’ve done? I feel numb because of the pain I’m feeling. I am so badly hurt too, seeing the one I love like this. I deserved it, the pain I’m feeling, it’s nothing compare to his.

I love Sungmin. I want him back.

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Two weeks had passed and all the managers assigned to me didn’t even stay for 2 days. The management gave me 1 week to rest as they look for another manager. I feel like my life doesn’t exist anymore.

I was called for a meeting in the conference room. I took a sit next to the CEO and looked up when we noticed someone entered. I stare at him and didn’t hide my smile. I am happy he came back. I was still smiling throughout the meeting. The CEO told me that I need to catch up the drama, the endorsement and shows.

The CEO left me and Sungmin inside the conference room. I can’t take the awkward silence and his cold treatment anymore.

“Sungmin?” He just looked at me with those lifeless eyes. I winced and clear my throat.

I can’t do these here so I grab his hand and went outside to the elevator down to my car. I guide him inside the passenger seat and went to the other side and drive to our favorite place before. Throughout the hour long drive he doesn’t look at me nor talked to me. I parked my car beside the pathway to this beach. He unbuckle his seatbelt and went ahead of me. I watched him as he absorbed the surroundings. 

“We used to go here every summer vacation when we were still students. Do you remember? I told him as I sit on a log. We watched the sunset while he’s still stand near me.

“Why?” I know what’s his asking.

“I don’t know. I wanted to be the Kyuhyun before and you, the Sungmin before this.”

I slowly walk towards him. I exhaled and looked at him. I let myself throw all the mask, all the pretending I have and embrace all the true feelings I feel. I quietly put my hands around his waist and hug him behind. 

“Min…” I feel him shivered on my arms. 

“I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry because I hated you. I hated you because you make me feel love. I don’t want to believe in love after my mother’s death. That love that killed her and I don’t want that. I shut every thing about you because I’ve love you. And then I felt you betrayed me when you left me. I thought that together we will make our dreams come true but you decided to quit. I was mad and didn’t even ask you why. When you returned as my manger I became a bastard who made your life miserable because you make me want you. I feel all the feelings that I buried with my mother. You told me not to stopped you from loving me and I wouldn’t want you to stop because damn I want you back! I wanted to prove to you that I still love you. I want to ease all the pains I caused you. Even if it would take me forever I will prove to you that I love you. Please give me another chance. Min.”

I didn’t realized that I was crying with him until he turned to me and wiped my tears away. I don’t deserved him, but I am a selfish bastard who want his love and whole of himself. He is everything to me before and until now.

“Kyu…” He held my face and I leaned in to his touch. I missed his voice calling me that and  I want to hear it everyday.

“Thank you for telling me the truth but this time, it still hurts so much that ‘I love you-s’ are not enough to ease the pain. I decided not to continue our dream to make way for your dreams. I promised your mother before she died that I will make your dreams come true. I made it right? That’s what is important to me right now. So please let’s stop this.”

There so much pain I’m feeling right now. The pain I have and the pain that I am hurting him. I embrace him tightly as if I didn’t want to let him go. If this isn’t the right time yet I’ll respect his decision but I won’t stop showing my love for him. Every single day I’ll prove it.

I kissed his forehead and wiped his tears away, for now that’s all I can do. I held his hand and guide him to my car. I know when we get back to the city it would be Kyuhyun the well known singer and Sungmin the well known’s manager. But I won’t let that stay for long because I want to be his Kyuhyun and his my Sungmin again.

After that day I become the Kyuhyun before my mother died, I smiled a lot, I’m not the bastard anymore, I am more responsible to my career. I become a better person. I can also sing a happy song that doesn’t sound sad. Every single day I sent flowers to Sungmin, making him know that I am serious to prove to him that I love him. I noticed that Sungmin changed, if I’ve changed to be a happy person that’s the opposite of him. He becomes gloomy and easily irritated to me. Only to me.

The day before my concert in Japan I ordered a big bouquet of pink roses and reserved a table for two at his favorite restaurant here in Japan. I texted him that I have a emergency here in this restaurant that he need to come and fetch me. He was catching his breathe when he entered the restaurant and stormed his way towards me. He’s glaring at me and I was smiling sweetly at him.

“What did you do this time?!” He said while clenching his teeth because of anger.
“I didn’t do anything.” I said to him while smiling widely at him and handed him the bouquet. He was surprised but he didn’t smile, he looked at me and sighed. 
“Please stop, Kyuhyun.” He plead me to stop but I don’t want to. I know that every time I show him how much I love him it irritates him and bothers him and yet I didn’t stop every time he asked me to stop but this time, he looked tired of every thing so I decided not to argue and asked if I could treat him here.
“No, I’m sorry. We needed to return to our hotel.” I exhaled and left the restaurant with him behind.

That’s the last time I sent him flowers and today we are busy preparing for my fan meeting in Korea. Today I plan something for Sungmin and this is my last chance to make it right. My last shot to prove to Sungmin that I love him.

The fan meeting started, a few songs that I sing, a little dance number and it’s about time to end the event but it’s time to start my plan. 

I took a sit on a stair in the middle of the stage and closed my eyes as my Gaemers started screaming when the spotlight is directed to me again. I opened my eyes as the music cued and started singing, pouring all of my feelings for him in this song.

 

No, I’m not.. It really doesn’t make sense
Even when I’m eating or falling asleep, I keep thinking about you like crazy
All the time I keep hating myself so badly
How could I, how could I fall in love with you? That’s a bit weird
My heart hears you.. from head to toe
My friends tease me for this but my heart only listens to you
One two three, you smile and I think I lost my breath
By seeing you’re smile, I’ll cook with love everyday
Forever I love you love you
love you love you love you~

 

I stopped singing but the music is still playing so I talk to my Gaemers.

“I have a confession to make to you guys. You know you’re all my girlfriend right?” They all saying yes. I laughed on how cute they are.

“But there’s someone who I’ve been in love to for so many years. Someone that I’ve known for so many years even when I haven’t debuted.” They were screaming again, I think they know who I love. 

“He’s always there beside me even if I am a bastard. Always there to protect and take care of me and now it’s my turn to protect and take care of him. Do you know who is he?”

“SUNGMIN!!!!” They all shouted. I laughed how they know so much about me and I am so thankful of them. I started singing again and slowly walked towards him. I didn’t take my eyes off him as I stand in front of him and singing my heart out. I can see that his eyes are to glisten with his tears. 

 

I went through the night, and another night, and another night
My memories are getting blurred
But you always stay in my heart and in my smiling eyes
You’re the one forever~

 

I wiped his tears away. I touched his left cheek with my free hand and sing in front of him looking straight into his eyes. I hoped he can feel my love. I hoped he can see me proving how much I love him.

 

My heart hears you.. from head to toe
Although the whole world laughs at me, my heart only listens to you
One two three, you smile and I think I lost my breath
Stay the way you are, I’m gonna say ‘I Love You’ and kiss you everyday
Forever I love you love you love you
love you love you love you~

 

The music slowly softened and the fans continue to sing for us. I brought down the microphone and held his face with my both hands so that he can only look at me.

“Min, I’m sorry for all the things I’ve done to you. I am sorry for not showing how much I love you. I hoped you’d forgive me and I hope this time that you can give me a second chance. Please?”

“Kyu, you didn’t have to do this big. I forgave you since the day you brought me to our favorite beach but I still needed time to think and now, here in front of so many Gaemers you prove to me how much you love me. So I really wanted to thank you Kyu. I know for the past years you hated me because your afraid to love. And now I’m asking you to trust me if your afraid. I will prove to you that my love for you will never change.

He smiled at me sweetly. I brought his face closer so our foreheads touch each other.

“I should be the one thanking you and I will be the one proving to you that I love you Sungmin so damn much.”

He giggled and grin at me.

“I love you too Kyuhyun.”

Our little Joyers were delightfully screaming at us.

“Do you hear them? Let’s give them what they want.” He laughed and closed his eyes as I slowly lean in to kiss my Sungmin. We smiled as our lips touched and the sweetest music we heard are the screams of our happy Joyers.

 

 

 

 

END

 

LAST AN: I really do hope that KYU and MIN will be together. But now i'm happy that he's happy with saeun. 

I know that you know what song i used. :) l love Listen To You. :))

The BEST OF BEST IN THE PHILIPPINES held last night was daebak!! RV gave me goosebumps when they performed. Sungjae of BTOB is so cute. SNSD is good but I think Sunny has a problem. and SUJU is BEST OF BEST!!! I do hope there's an SS6 MANILA. 

I still haven't gotten used to not seeing Sungmin performing on stage with SJ and it's my first time to see KANGIN! It's Hangeng, Kibum and Zhoumi that I need to see. :) 

Well, that's all! THANKYU FOR READING! :)