Chapter 11 Jongwoon told Kyuhyun that night that he only feared one thing in life. And that was dying alone. Dying itself he did not fear, however, leaving this life without someone beside him did scare him.   That didn’t mean he had lost all his optimism. No. He was still 100% sure that he would cure. Though.. The ‘what if..’ question just kept on popping up in his mind. What if something happened in his sleep? Then he would be dead for hours until someone finally discovered him. People don’t check on bedrooms that often. It was that thought that just really frightened him.   And that was the reason that Kyuhyun decided that he would sleep next to Jongwoon from now on, whenever he could. And if he was unable too, Hyukjae would. They discussed it over the day after, when Jongwoon was away with some of his friends. So from that day forward, Jongwoon never had to sleep alone again.   Kyuhyun also learned more about Jongwoon’s disease and treatment. The latter was really open about it towards Kyuhyun, since Kyuhyun explained to him that he just needed to know what was going on. Kyuhyun learned that Jongwoon needed 14 chemotherapy treatments in total. He had received 6 this far, so he needed 8 more. He had to undergo one treatment every 3,5/4 weeks. Next to that, radiation therapy was also being used. Once again, every 3,5/4 weeks. Always one week after the chemotherapy had taken place.   There was a possibility Jongwoon would lose the ability to walk in the future. The cancer was located near his spine. If it somehow would grow, or affect places nearby (or something like that, Kyuhyun didn’t really understand the explanation because of all the difficult hospital-like words) it could paralyze Jongwoon from that spot down. Though Jongwoon was optimistic that this would not happen. He was healing, so this disease would not affect him any more in any way.   Kyuhyun’s trust in the fact that Jongwoon would cure also grew. The chemotherapy and radiation therapy were really strong doses, so Kyuhyun doubted that any cancer cell would and/or could survive that.   And just like this, 2 months passed. Those 2 months involved a lot of mixed feelings. Kyuhyun and Jongwoon really matched wonderfully together. They could talk for hours, laugh for hours, do things together for hours. They even went a week to Jeju island on vacation, together with Hyukjae and Donghae. Jep, once again, life started to shine again.   However, chemo therapy had gotten worse. The first 5 treatments Jongwoon had received went pretty much flawless. He only suffered fatigue and nausea because of it, but that was it. The 6th treatment (the one which Kyuhyun joined) was the first time Jongwoon had gotten really sick from it. He had thrown up the whole day and night, though, the next day he had felt much better.   In the past 2 months, Jongwoon had undergone his 7th and 8th chemo treatment. Kyuhyun joined him to both. Jongwoon got more sick of it each time. Where the 6th treatment was only one day of feeling sick, the 7th was 2 days of throwing up. And the 8th was 3 days of throwing up, and nausea for at least a week. But not just normal throwing up. No. Throwing up until his stomach was completely empty and only bile would come out. Throwing up that much and with that much force that he bruised his own throat and chest in the process.   The doses of the treatments obviously got heavier with each new treatment. But Jongwoon was strong. He kept saying that it was just some throwing up. It was all worth it, because he was going to be better in just 6 more treatments. And the nausea would go away eventually. That was one quality from Jongwoon that Kyuhyun really admired. His perseverance and optimism.     ✭✭✭✭✭     “Jongwoon, are you eating well? You really look like crap today,” Hyukjae said, 2 weeks after the 8th chemotherapy session. Jongwoon, Kyuhyun, Hyukjae and Donghae were eating dinner together, though Jongwoon barely touched his food.   “I’m just not that hungry,” Jongwoon answered, staring at the food on his plate, poking his chopsticks at it. Kyuhyun took a good look at his boyfriend. Hyukjae was right, Jongwoon really did look like crap today. The last few months had been hard on him, and he had lost quite some weight.   Kyuhyun took Jongwoon’s chopsticks from him and started to feed him. He had to eat well, to regain some of his strength. Jongwoon didn’t protest when Kyuhyun started to feed him, so Kyuhyun was pleased.   “Let’s go to the movies tonight?” Kyuhyun asked Jongwoon, while shoving some rice into the latter’s mouth.   “I don’t think that’s a-” Hyukjae started, but Jongwoon interrupted him.   “Sounds like fun.”   A small smile crept on Jongwoon’s face and he grabbed the chopsticks out of Kyuhyun’s hands and started to eat for himself again. Kyuhyun felt a sudden happiness inside as Jongwoon suddenly regained his will to eat.   Hyukjae still had a disapproving look on his face, but he didn’t say anything anymore. Kyuhyun smirked, feeling victorious. ‘The movies it is!’     ✭✭✭✭✭     “Somehow we always end up at this bench,” Kyuhyun said, laughing as he sat down on the familiar bench in the park across the playgrou