Chapter 10 For 5 days straight, Jongwoon came over to Kyuhyun’s and Donghae’s house to look for Kyuhyun. It was always Donghae who opened the door and it was always Donghae telling Jongwoon that Kyuhyun really could not see him right now. Jongwoon always answered that he understood and that he would return the next day to see if Kyuhyun was ready then. The 6th day Jongwoon didn’t come anymore. At that day, Kyuhyun waited for hours for Jongwoon to come. Because all those other days, Kyuhyun had stared outside the window (without Jongwoon noticing him, of course), so he could take a glance at Jongwoon as he walked towards the front door; to see if he was looking alright.   But why was Kyuhyun acting this way? Because guilt took control of him. His feelings for Jongwoon were tremendously big, but Kyuhyun knew he could not give Jongwoon what he needed. He could not take care of him and he could also not forget about the disease that easily. He just wasn’t a person who could stay insecure about the future. And who was Kyuhyun to make Jongwoon’s life even harder than it already was, by asking about his disease, if the latter didn’t want to talk about it? Kyuhyun was no one. That’s why he decided to avoid Jongwoon, to stop being boyfriend-boyfriend, friend-friend, or whatever. Jongwoon was better off without Kyuhyun, so he thought.   However, Kyuhyun still had to go to work. And on the 7th day after the ‘scary’ event, Jongwoon came to the café. Kyuhyun’s heart stopped beating for a small moment as soon as his eyes spotted Jongwoon. Unfortunately he'd just had a break, so he could not take a break again to avoid the man who had just came walking in. Jongwoon also saw Kyuhyun. They exchanged glances for a short moment before Jongwoon walked towards the counter to order. Kyuhyun hastily looked around if there was someone who could take his cashier place for a bit, but he saw no one.   “Kyuhyun,” Jongwoon smiled and Kyuhyun froze for a short moment, unsure of what to say. He decided to just act like a dumb fool who didn’t know the person standing in front of him.   “Can I take your order?”   “Ehw...” Jongwoon was slightly startled by Kyuhyun’s cold behavior. However, he finally realized what Kyuhyun had tried to 'tell' him the last 7 days. He wasn’t waiting to be ready to face him again, he was just ditching him. “One black coffee, please,” Jongwoon ordered, and he remained staring to Kyuhyun, who felt really uncomfortable under Jongwoon’s stare. As Kyuhyun turned around to make one black coffee, he could feel Jongwoon’s eyes drilling into the back of his skull. As he turned around and handed Jongwoon his coffee, this one just nodded as a ‘thank you’ and walked to his usual table to read his usual book.   Three hours later, when Kyuhyun’s shift ended, Jongwoon was still there. Apparently he had finished reading his book, because it was lying closed in front of him, and he was staring outside to kill some time. Kyuhyun tried to leave unnoticeable, but Jongwoon spotted him.   “Kyuhyun-ah, wait!” He yelled, and Kyuhyun stood still on his spot. Running away now, after hearing him yell, would be way too rude. A few seconds later he felt a hand on his shoulder, indicating that Jongwoon now stood behind him.   “Why are you acting like this?” The hand on his shoulder used force to turn him around and Kyuhyun could now see straight into Jongwoon’s eyes. There was nothing but confusion and hurt inside of them.   “Acting like what?” Kyuhyun tried to turn around again, but Jongwoon’s hand held him firmly in place.   “You know what I’m talking about,” Jongwoon hissed back to Kyuhyun.   “Please don’t make a scene in front of my work,” Kyuhyun solemnly said, freeing himself from Jongwoon’s grip and started to walk towards his house. Jongwoon followed him and didn’t speak for a while. He waited until they were far enough from Kyuhyun’s work to start discussing things over.   “Now answer me,” Jongwoon said, as they walked into a small, dark and silent alley. Kyuhyun turned around to face him.   “I really don’t know what you are talking about.”   “You do know what I’m talking about, you are avoiding me. Why?”   “I’m not av–“   “I’m not stupid, Kyuhyun,” Jongwoon snapped, interrupting Kyuhyun. This was actually quite hard for Kyuhyun. Pretending he is not acting weird, while he actually is. But it would be better if Kyuhyun acted cold towards Jongwoon right? So the latter could just hate Kyuhyun and be happy that he is gone? That was Kyuhyun’s master plan.   “You are hallucinating Kim Jongwoon, go home and get some sleep.”   Kyuhyun started walking towards his home again. He didn’t mean to hurt Jongwoon, but the latter could be so stubborn. Maybe using harsh words would deliver the message. Tears started to form in Kyuhyun’s eyes as he walked away. His mind said he was doing the right thing, but his heart said the complete opposite.   A few seconds later, once again, a hand grabbed Kyuhyun at his shoulder and used force to prevent him from walking away. Instinctively, Kyuhyun pushed the person away who touched him. Jongwoon fell with his back against the wall and a scream of pain echoed through the whole alley.   “O my–... Are you okay? I didn’t meant to do–... I’m so sorry!” Kyuhyun rushed towards Jongwoon, who was now sitting on the ground, heavily breathing, his eyes clenched together and tears running down his face. Kyuhyun kneeled next to him. “Where does it hurt?”   “B–back,” Jongwoon answered, still groaning because of the pain.   “Sit forward,” Kyuhyun said, and Jongwoon did what he was asked to do. Kyuhyun lifted up the back of Jongwoon’s shirt, but he instantly dropped it again, as he saw something he had never seen before. “It doesn’t look good...” He choked out.   To Kyuhyun’s surprise, Jongwoon started to laugh through the tears and the groans of pain. Kyuhyun noticed Jongwoon tried to stand up, so he lent him a helping hand. Jongwoon walked away as soon as he stood up, holding Kyuhyun’s hand and dragging him with him. They ended up in the park. At the same bench where they had sat during their first ‘date’. Jongwoon still had a painful face, but he had stopped groaning on their walk towards the park. His breathing also slowly turned back to normal.   Kyuhyun still felt kind of scared. What he had seen on Jongwoon’s back really didn’t look healthy. And Kyuhyun could only figure it was because of his push. He must have injured Jongwoon really badly.   “Shouldn’t we call the hospital?” Kyuhyun already searched for his phone while asking this, but Jongwoon just laughed again and answered with a simple “No.”   “But it really looks bad. There is this lump on your back, and it’s surrounded by this really unhealthy red color. You must have fallen really awkwardly.”   “Kyuhyun-ah, don’t worry. That’s how it was before I fell.”   “W... What?”   “You really don’t know much about my disease do you?” Jongwoon smiled at Kyuhyun’s confused face, as it looked rather adorable. But that face soon turned into a mad one.   “I would have