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Khun Appa

I take a one-shot of my sul. Taec is looking at me with a pity expression. He plays his cup and letting out a sigh.

“This is so not you, Khun-ah”, he says as he sips his sul. I pour another shot to my cup. I raise my cup and giving him a toast, ready to one-shot again. But suddenly, Taec’s hand blocks me from drinking it.

I give him an annoyed look. I let go my hand from his grab and drink it one-shot.

I’m about to pour another shot, but Taec is much faster than me. He takes away my sul and cup. I whine as he forbids me to drink again.

“Spill it out, Jashik-ah ”, he says to me harshly.

I scoffs and suddenly all that happened today flash before my eyes. Hangeng hyung at my house, My wife’s crying, The living room’s like a mess and even, my conversation with Hangeng hyung.

I bury my head deep between my arms and cursing myself for being such a coward like this.

“There’s something happened in my house this afternoon”, I say slowly.

“And then… ?”, Taec hangs his question as he waits for me to continue my story.

“Hangeng hyung came to my house this afternoon. To meet my wife”, I add. I let Taec absorbs it.

Taec raises his eyebrows and let out a shocked expression. He nods several times and then drink his sul in one-shot.

“Oh. So this is why you didn’t come back to the conference room this afternoon ?”, he asks as he plays his cup in one hand.

I nod. Vic’s crying expression suddenly appears to me, and it’s just making me hurt. I promised my self not to make her cry ever again. But today, I failed. I left her like that just when she needs me. Like a jerk.

“This is Hangeng, ex-Super Junior Hangeng, right ? What did he want ?”, Taec asks again. He puts my sul and cup back in front of me.

I don’t waste anytime to pour another shot and drink it right away.

“He wanted to meet her. And he did something that pissed me off. He did something to my wife. If you know what I mean”, I reply and curl my hand into fist, as if I’m going to hit someone. Repeating this story only makes me burn with anger again.

Taec nods again and tap his cup slowly to the table. He gives me a sign to continue my story.

“Fortunately,my foster kids, B1A4 were there. They helped Vic and handled the situation before I got there. We got into a fight and then, we had a conversation”, I pause.

Taec’s order, nuts and dried squid, come. He takes one of the dried squid and bites it. He nods and saying some strange words as he chews. He finally gulp and say, “Go on..”.

I drink another one-shot and then continue, “I confronted him and he seems like not over with Vic yet. He still has feelings for her. He said that Vic may not be over him yet. He said that she got no other choice but to marry me. He said that I never knew about her past with him”.

I grab a handful of nuts and eat it right away. The bitter taste of Soju mixes with the salty nuts. Creating a greater effect to my feelings right now. Complicated.

“Then why are you here ?”, Taec shots a straight forward question that sharp to my heart.

Why am I here actually ?. Being an irresponsible husband ? or just afraid to find out the truth ?. I drop my head down and think again, why in the first place I leave the house.

“Did you ask Vic what exactly happened ? or even ask did she still got feelings for Hangeng hyung ?”, Taec asks again and even creating a big hole of shame in me.

I shake my head slowly.

“Nan babo cheorom (I’m like such a fool). I left the house without even asking her what exactly happened”, I say as I scroll my phone and looking at “NAE SARANG” album. It’s where I place all of Vic and Nicky’s photos. I smile bitterly as I stop at Vic’s laughing pic. I should make her laugh like this, not cry.

“You shouldn’t have left like that, Khun-ah. It’s a complicated situation and she needs you more than anything. To be the one that’s on her side”, Taec says.

“I… I … was too afraid to face the truth that she might still has feeling for Hangeng hyung”,  I say what’s been hurting me inside since I left the house.

Taec scoffs and laughs playfully. He shakes his head and says, “Ya Khun-ah! I didn’t remember I have such a coward brother like you. You’re her husband, and you should know the truth. And what’s with this doubt thingy ? You doubt her after all that you guys have been through ?. No babonya (Are you that stupid ?) ?”.

Taec grabs my cell phone and scrolls around. He turns my phone so its facing me. I saw my photo with Vic when we were still in “We Got Married”, We took a couple-photo when we escaped to Jeju-do. We both were smiling happily on the pic.

“See this ? Look at her expression. Does she looks like lying about her feelings for you ?”, Taec asks. I look at the photo closely. I never doubt her feelings since the first time.

He scrolls again and showing me and Vic’s wedding photo. Then he moves to a picture that I took when Vic was holding Nicky for the first time.

“These photos, does she looks like being forced and not following her heart ?. And why would she gave in to you that night if she’s not in love with you ? If she still in love with Hangeng hyung, she won’t accept you”, Taec adds. “Think about it”.

I absorb what he said. I take another one-shot and start to feels drowsy. I close my eyes and making up my mind. I push my self to stay awake.

“I better make sure about her feelings by my self”, I rise from my seat, grab my cell phone and leave the drink house with consciousness that left in me.

Baro

We decided to sleep over. I don’t dare to leave Omma when Appa is not around and she’s still crying since the scene. CNU hyung even made her a soup for her to eat, but she refused to eat. She shook her head and not saying a word. She sits on the couch and cuddling Nicky on her lap. We all tried to make her take a rest upstairs but she also refused. Jin Young hyung claims himself as the house guard as he walks round and doing frequent laps to observe outside.

I, Gong Chan, Sandeul and CNU hyung cramps them selves on the floor near the sofa.

“I should’ve called Omma’s members”, CNU hyung says as he looks disappointed with his decision not to call Omma’s members.

Sandeul and I give him a curious look.

“Wae, hyung ?”, I ask him.

“If they come here, then Omma would feel much better. They can comfort her. They’re girls”, Hyung says. He corrects the place of his glasses.

Sandeul rolls his eyes, and giving a flat expression to Hyung.

“Hyung, you wanted them to come here to comfort Omma or to comfort your heart that longs for Krystal-ssi ?”, Sandeul snaps him right away.

Suddenly, CNU hyung’s cheeks blushing red. Aigoo, he’s busted !!!.

Gong Chan is seems in trace mood so he didn’t even bother Sandeul teasing hyung about his crush.

“Hyung, it’ll be if you fall for her. She’s like…our imo ?”, I say to him.

Sandeul turns to me and he seems surprised with my recent sentence.

“Oo! Majda! She’s our imo, hyung, how could you ?!”, Sandeul says as he punches CNU hyung’s arm playfully.

Jin Young hyung comes to us and hisses, “Aissh, neomu ssikkeuroun (too noisy !) !”. He points to Omma, who’s still staring blankly to the front door. Waiting for Appa to come home. Babo cheorom, just like those fool that caused by love.

 “Gomawoyo, boys”, suddenly, Omma says to us. She turns her head to us and gives us her beautiful smile. “Thank you for staying here and taking care of me. I feel like I got 5 bodyguards”.

Jin Young hyung smiles shyly and replies, “Kwenchanayo, Omma. We’re glad to help you. Consider us as your foster sons”.

She smiles again and taps our head lovingly one by one.

“You guys better take a rest first, Nicky already falls asleep”, she says as she rises from her seat and holding Nicky in her arms and brings him upstairs.

CNU hyung quickly takes Nicky away from her into his arms and brings him to his room.

“It’s allright, Omma. Let us take Nicky to his room. You better take a rest too. We’ll check here gradually”, Sandeul says. Yeah, Omma seems too tired, and she really needs to take a rest.

Omma shakes her head and goes back to the couch.

“I’ll wait for Khun here. Don’t worry, I’ll be fine”, she says.

Omma, himnaeya (Omma, be strong) !. 

*This story is now more like a marriedlife story than about Nicky himself, *sigh*. Hope you guys still enjoy reading it. Thx for all the comments and the supports that you guys gave, I owe you a lot. This chaos will come to an end, next chap for sure. Please anticipate the next chap. Cheongmal Kamsahamnida. And oh yeah, if you guys wondering, i'm Indonesian. But i often put Korean phrases inside the story and put the meaning behind it, it's just to share some phrases. I'm still learning my self, so lets study together.