Entry no.104

Semptember 7, 19xx

WEDNESDAY 

Sometimes I hate being amongst men. I know I am in no position to complain because I have fought for my way to be a sailor, but I cannot help but to hate how I am seen as a child by my own crew. Jihoon almost tear out his hair when they found me lying on the shore. I think he forgot that I am his captain and saw me that time as a woman child who needs protection. I just turned 18 a week ago. I am no longer a child. I have defeated waves thrice as large as my ship, sailed uncharted waters and fought old men who tried to challenge my authority. Yet,since I was still under the spell of the creature who saved my life, I did not talk back to Jihoon nor tell Sungchan the reason why I was lying on the shore, looking half dead

After doing business with some old friends of my father who also visited Enas Niata, I headed towards their library to learn more about this small island. I wanted to know why my father speak fondly of this place and what exactly did he saw that he considered to be beautiful that he died shortly after seeing it. The librarian was an old woman who's back is so crooked she looked small. She asked me if I was a new resident here. I told her that I was just a tourist in a vacation with my family. I do not know why I lied about being with my family because my Mom did not like going out of her house and my father is dead some years ago. I wonder what compelled me to lie to an old