Chapter 6

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Planted in front of a wall of the cabin, in front of a tap which came out of the ground, from a deep natural sump and which, incidentally, was his only source of drinking water, Jongin closed his eyes, blowing gently, to slow down the beating of his heart that had panicked.

He felt something for Baekhyun… It had suddenly and violently overwhelmed him as his hands were equally violently invested with a perfect knowledge of his body.

A deep feeling, as if already installed… a feeling so strong that he felt like he had injected himself into his veins and was on a trip.

Of course, he had already thought that he was falling in love, when Baekhyun was just a mythical creature that he surprised in the woods every night and felt overwhelmed by his interest in him, for his gorgeous body. A feeling that might have grown over time, if he had any in front of him. Yes, if he had time, he wouldn't have said no.

But what he felt now was not the result of an interest turned into romantic feelings, what he felt was already very strong and was not the result of the time spent together, which had been too short even if he added his week of voyeurism.

It was a deep sense of love that almost choked him, as he fought it. Was Baekhyun right after all?

Regardless, it was a feeling he didn't want to have!

He was doomed! What a filthy selfish person would he be, if he allowed himself to be overwhelmed by these feelings and gave Baekhyun what he wanted, knowing that he would soon give up on him? Maybe he should just give him back his fur and chase him away ...

Laying down the bottles he had mechanically filled, on the steps of the cabin, it was with his hands in his jeans pockets that he finally slowly took the direction of the lake, his mind vaporous.

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Half an hour later, sitting on a large, flat white stone on the beach of the lake, Jongin, his head in his hands, could only give way to one more obvious fact. He didn't want to die anymore. The last page of his story was about to turn on the word "END" and he had only one desire, that of living!

Damn… he had mourned his loneliness all through his hell and it is today, now that he had arrived at the end of the tunnel, that he found a link to life… why was fate so cruel to him?

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Two hands crept up against his sides before running to tie himself to his stomach, as Baekhyun posed, his cheek, against his upper back and Jongin closed his eyes, pleasantly comforted.

"-Why am I not like you?" He asked him then. Why am I in another life, when you seem to be always in the same?

"-You'll remember that soon…" Baekhyun said softly.

"-No ! Tell me!"

A silence, as if the whole of nature was hesitating, then ...

"-Your father ... the king ... killed you ...

"-My…

He didn't know what to react to the most. To the fact that his father was a king or that he was still an .

"-He… hm… Hesita Baekhyun pivoting his head against his back, to rest his forehead on it."

"-Tell me.

"-He surprised us while we ...

"-Oh okay I see… , really?

"-Yes. It was horrible… He… He went into a mad rage and I couldn't say anything, it was the King, but you… although you are his own son, despite your rank… he did not leave you defend you either, he wouldn't listen to anything and… it's my fault. He finally said, bursting into tears.

" -No. Jongin said turning quickly to hug him.

"-Yes. You lost everything that night, because of me. I didn't deserve to live. You lost your rank, your family… your life… I beg your pardon Kai. I was selfish, I didn't think about the consequences ... I should have ...

"-Baekhyun Baekhyun stop! Why are you taking responsibility for it? You ... You weren't alone in this story! You… we were two… And then the only one to blame here is my dad not you! Damn have I had an intolerant father in all my lives? He realized. It's incredible.

And as Baekhyun poured out his long-held pain in his arms, Jongin lost what little resistance he still had.

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They later returned to the cabin, quickly eating a small snack of cured meat and energy bars that Jongin had taken in his gear planned for his last days of life and which made Baekhyun wince. The cured meat was too salty for him taste and unpleasant on the palate, and the energy bar, while pleasantly sweet, was just too chemical a bunch of things for his delicate palate from another era. It was clearly not good, and Jongin wished he had found Baekhyun when he was still in town in order to offer him something else to eat, than industrial , after so many years away from his human form.

It was, however, a short, but pleasant source of amusement that relaxed them and made Jongin forget how much he was in pain today… for a while.

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Just a moment, because as for the end of this frugal meal, he got up to go wash his hands, a phenomenal pain radiated all his right thigh up to his pelvis and he had to restrain himself at the table not to give in.

Seeing immediately that he had a problem, Baekhyun then rushed at him, helping him to stand on his legs and reach the bed where he urged him to sit up.

"-You are in great pain, you should rest.

Immediately injecting himself with a dose of the opioid, Jongin shook his head.

"-No, it's not necessary.

But Baekhyun's gentle worried gaze fell on his and he didn't resist.

Lying down gently then, as Baekhyun snuggled against him, his head against his shoulder, Jongin naturally put his hand on his head, his fingers digging into his hair and he felt good in the embrace.

"-It's been such a long time since I dreamed of being in your arms again…" Baekhyun whispered, his hand resting delicately on his stomach.

"-You ... so you really went through the ages without ever ceasing to love him ... to ... love me ...

"-Never… When a soul loves another with a love so true and powerful like ours… nothing can break it, neither years… nor death. Of course ... it took a while for the stars to align identically and for you to reborn, but you had promised to come back to me and I had promised you, in return, to wait for you, we do not could only end up here ... a bit as if it was written.

"-How? ... I suddenly decided to come here to to hasten the end, I ... it was not originally planned, how is it possible that you waited for me here?

"-Because it is here, on the edge of the lake ... that we made this promise to each other, just before ...

Baekhyun's fingers twitched on his stomach.

"-That I die.

"-Yes…

"-Wow, is this where my elephant graveyard is then? He whispered to himself.

"-What are you saying ? Baekhyun asked raising his head.

"-It's a loop.

"-What do you mean ? No. I am not in a loop, I am still in the same life.

“-But I came here to die.

"-Why die? He said shaking his head. No no. There is no reason, we are free to love each other today.

"-No… I'm telling you I came here to die. You know I'm sick... I'm dying Baekhyun.

"-But no…" He said in a broken voice.

"-Yes, I'm sorry to… to do this to you again, but this disease that I have… I'm terminally ill. I only have… a week… two at most, but it would be a miracle for me to live so long… I'm at the end of my strength. So far I've been able to walk again, but in a few days it may hurt too much to stand up, it's going really fast.

"-But you can't leave me yet, I don't want to!"

"-I don't want to either, but that's the way it is, there's nothing we can do about it. He said putting his hand on his cheek, wiping away tears with a caress of his thumb.

Then Baekhyun closed his eyes, heart aching to scream, when Jongin… Kai… lifted his head and gently kissed his lips.

A kiss from him. The most beautiful declaration of love he could make to him.

Then in the midst of tears of despair followed a deeper, intoxicating and demented kiss, which quickly brought them to the limits of carnal desire, but without going beyond them. They still loved each other and it was beautiful. They were soul mates definitely made to be united yet it was with a sorrowful heart that Baekhyun, snuggled in the arms of his love, joined him in the rest he so needed.

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