Reading over the exams Sooyoung already knows she isn’t going to have fun grading them. Pinching the bridge of her nose she has the scan over a short answer over and over again because she can’t believe the answer.  

What set off the baroque period?

Timmy thick and thick cheeks da baddest combined forces of their gargantuan...brains to create a beautiful art period. 

Sooyoung almost gives credit because she’s just that tired. Instead she just looks those people up because she’s never heard of them. Covering she can't believe the tonka trucks these individuals have. It could be considered a planetoid. 

Giggling to herself she sends a pic of the blonde one to Jinsoul.

[To: All mine <3]: you with a fade

[From:All mine <3]: haha you’re so funny.

[To: All mine <3]: I sowwy :( 

She knows she’s in a bit of trouble when Jinsoul doesn’t text her back when she apologizes. Sooyoung puts her phone down, getting some new motivation to grade these exams.

Who wrote Romeo and Juliet, Hamlet, and Macbeth.

Maya Angelou.

She stares at the name, “oh...I know why the caged bird sings.” Sooyoung mumbles out and marks off the question that was meant to be  angiven. “Because these ing kids slow as hell.” Sooyoung can’t believe the disrespect, for Angelou and the other guy. 

Don’t get her wrong, Sooyoung adored her job. But she hated this class. She was a dance instructor at the university and taught multiple classes and one Humanities course. It made her question humanity every time she stepped into the class.

Hearing a knock at the door she peeks outside her office, “oh Jesus christ.”

“Hiii Mrs. Jung.” It was Soyeon, the annoying kid from her class. “I just wanted to bring you this, you know to be nice to my favorite professor.” The girl sits down a lopsided thingy in front of her. Sooyoung pokes at it with her pen, it looked like it was gonna start crawling around.

“Is this like...what is this?” 

Soyeon’s smile drops, “it’s a cake?”

“Oh.” She goes back to grading the exams. But the blonde stands there with her arms straight to her side. Ever since Soyeon wanted to demonstrate to the class her ‘rap’ and Sooyoung had said she sounded like porky the pig they’ve had a standoffish relationship. “You can go now. Thanks.”

Soyeon grimaces and leaves out the door to leave her some peace, Sooyoung immediately throws away the cake. After spending 30 more minutes losing her damn mind over some of these answers, Sooyoung gives up. She’s clocking out for today. Gathering her stuff, she dials a number. It rings a few minutes until a sweet voice picks up, “Sooyoung you know what I said about calling me at work! They already on my from yesterday.” She smiles at Jinsoul’s ranting, her wife didn’t get in trouble often at work, but accidentally knocked a bunch of octopus tanks yesterday. 

The video Jinsoul sent her of all them popping and slipping around When Jinsoul said they sound like pop rocks! It had made her crack up during a lecture when the kids were taking an exam, “aight now but you answered!” Sooyoung locks her office door as she giggles at Jinsoul’s frustrated sigh. She couldn’t wait to get home, “Imma go to subway what you want.” 

Her wife hums over the line, “the usual.” 

“Not gonna be different today?” Sooyoung teases, sometimes Jinsoul would get the basics and other days Sooyoung would be dumbfounded trying to order. Instead of an answer Jinsoul just sighs out an I love you and hangs up. 

Sooyoung shakes her head at her phone, at her lips thinking of Jinsoul. Clicking down the hallways she waves at some of her coworkers and students she recognizes. 

Seeing a tiny woman waddling down the hall she instantly smiles, “Heeyy Miss Juicy.” Shirlene Pearson a.k.a miss Juicy was one of the music professors on campus and Sooyoung liked speaking to her.  

“~It’s Miss Juicy babey~.” The tiny woman sings out and even holds a finger up to her ear like they was an earpiece there. She then looks Sooyoung up and down, “where you think you going? Already sneaking out.”

Sooyoung pushes some hair behind her ear shyly, “oh you know, I’m going to get dinner for me and my wife.” Dr. Pearson gives her a forced smile and starts to look around like they were a camera crew around. This happens every damn time and it gets better and better. Sooyoung’s favorite thing to do was to confuse Dr. Pearson who didn’t think homouality exists.

The woman laughs and grabs her hand to shake it around, “ahhh I think it’s cute that you call your roommate your wife! You a little fruity baby!” Sooyoung only nods and the woman drops the smile to give a questionable look to no one in particular. The woman finally says goodbye and leaves Sooyoung to go free.

Turning she stands still and nods her head at the other woman in the hallway, “Professor Tox.” The woman glares at her almost cross eyed. Her mortal enemy, Sooyoung couldn’t stand her.

Walking out after the exchange Sooyoung makes her way to her BMW, the same one that she’s had for years.

She listens to all the cds Jinsoul has burned for her. It’s none of the music she really liked, some girl group named red velvet, t-pain, and weird mashups of songs, like Mariah Carey and Crush. Jinsoul’s taste was horrible, but Sooyoung liked listening anyways because if she imagined hard enough, Jinsoul was in the passenger seat singing her heart out.

Parking in the closest spot, comes the hardest part of her day. The only subway for miles was in the Walmart. Sooyoung did not want to do this but she was really craving an egg mayo sandwich. Slamming her palms on the steering wheel she lets some of the anger out before getting out of her car.

Some people stare at her, she still liked to dress up. Sooyoung can admit she looked good most of the time. 

Quickly making her way through she sighs when there’s no line. Walking up to the counter she puts on her professional yet dazzling smile. “Hi.” The little meth head looking girl just stares ahead at nothing. Sooyoung reads the name tag Grimes. 

The kinda name is that.

“Umm, I need two foot longs.” Sooyoung mumbles out, yeah she hated this place.

The raggedy Ann-doll shakes as she turns around, “what bread?”

“Both Italian herbs and cheese.” This girl looked like she got fleas or something. And Sooyoung thanks god for the overly large gloves and hairnets. The girl is actually pretty good at making the sandwiches, like some kinda android. Sooyoung gets plenty of meat and cheese and it’s toasted just right, but then the worst happens.

It’s passed off to the vegetable part, “Sooyoung.” Looking up she scoffs...it’s Johnny. Who she still had problems with pertaining to Jinsoul. The guy was a creep, having dropped out of college he’s now the manager at Subway. He borderline stalked her wife and Sooyoung has had to use her glock a few times to get him to leave them alone, even a restraining order was placed. 

Sooyoung never let Jinsoul set foot in a subway.  

His hat makes his hair stick up in numerous places and he smells like . Sooyoung can smell his from here. She resists the urge to hold her nose. “Not you, damn can it be anyone but you.” 

He smiles like he’s won, “fortunately for you I’m the manager. So yes…me.”

Narrowing her eyes she snaps, “I know you’re the goddamn manger you tell me every time, I don’t give a get dirty sneakers to make my sandwiches.” Johnny sneers are her, literally sneers like a looney toon villain.

He doesn’t move he just looks down at the sandwiches, “is one of these Jinsoul’s.” He says it weirdly and Sooyoung starts slapping at the glass, she swore to god if he touched her wife’s sandwich she was gonna shove a foot long up his . 

The glass thumps against her hand, “ay ay incel hands off!”

Johnny has to listen to her so he backs off. Letting the girl do it, Sooyoung is glaring at Johnny when she speaks, “I applaud your rebellion against capitalism.” 

Sooyoung reverts her gaze to Daisy-loo, “um yeah, go ahead and put some tomatoes on there.” The girl starts to lay it on but runs out midway, so she starts to spread it. Sooyoung liked her tomatoes though, “don’t be shy, put some more.”  

The girl looks at Johnny and back to the empty container. “We’re out…”

She tries to stay calm but her patience has run thin, “we’re in Walmart how are you out just go buy some like damn.” The girl starts to shake like she was going to combust from being yelled at. Sooyoung rolls her eyes, “man forget it I’ll get my own ing tomato.” Her sandwiches are finally done and Sooyoung’s ready for pay.

She’s in the middle of paying when Johnny starts to speak like an almanac, “I know which on is the goddess’s.” Sooyoung throws her head back and groans loud enough to make the girl jump. “She hates vegetables but loves sweet onion sauce, she has such a beautiful pallet unlike you...eating jalapeños and tomatoes with egg mayo.” 

“If you don’t shut the hell up imma come over their and whoop your into some salami.” Johnny visibly cringes, “yeah yeah, trust, you will be dealt with.” Sooyoung was sick and tired of men, especially Johnny, no chin having .  

The girl behind the counter shakes her head, “period.” 

With a throbbing headache she makes her way home, smiling when she already sees Jinsoul’s vehicle in the lot. They owned a bigger apartment now, that had two bedrooms, one for them and one that was for their baby that they were planning on having. She hurries up the complex in record time only to meet Jinsoul unlocking the door, “HELP SUMBODY ROBBING ME!”

Jinsoul jumps a foot in the air and starts to curse at Sooyoung from afar. Her wife is only laughing holding her arms out for a hug. Jinsoul drops her work bags to fall into the embrace humming along with her wife as they sway side to side in the hallway. “Hi I missed you a lot today love.” Sooyoung mumbles to Jinsoul and rubs her fingers through her hair before pulling back to leave a loving kiss on her cheek.

They wobble inside together, Jinsoul’s arm still secure around her waist and hers around her shoulders. Once the door is closed Jinsoul pulls her into a long kiss, smacking her lips with hers over and over again. They’re chaste but full of affection and Sooyoung’s heart starts to beat double time. She really loved her wife. 

Jinsoul unfortunately pulls away at some point and grabs the food out of her hands, “god I was starving. I hope you didn’t pretend to forget today.” Sometimes Sooyoung would mistake Jinsoul’s usual for something else, but today she went for her favorite. Her wife screams happily when she pulls the sandwich out, with happiness when she takes the first bite. 

Sooyoung is ushered over for another kiss for a reward for doing good. This kiss lasts longer and it’s fuller, she gets to press her lips against Jinsoul’s how she likes but has to jerk away, “how your breath already stank?” Jinsoul frowns at her and rolls her eyes before jabbing her in the stomach.

“It does not.”

“Yes, it does.” Sooyoung holds her nose as Jinsoul whines at her trying to get her to come back when she walks away. She can’t resist the adorably curved eyebrows and pouty lips with a little sauce on them too long. Jinsoul’s pout was her weakness, her wife could get away with anything when she made that expression. She was just too cute to handle. Sooyoung struts back to wipe the sauce off her lips before letting Jinsoul it off. 

She can’t help but her own lips and reaches down below Jinsoul’s belt to palm her . Jinsoul lets her get away with at first too focused on scarfing the food down but when she squeezes she’s pushed off. 

Sooyoung tries her own kinda pout, but Jinsoul isn’t phased at all. She’s learned in a three year marriage that the things Jinsoul used to love about her, have become quirks that she knows far too well.

And that’s the scary thing, they know each other in and out now. Sooyoung can’t hide anything from Jinsoul, her vulnerability, her boredom, whenever she’s annoyed with. Over a year ago Sooyoung thought this love was going to consume her, but it’s faded. Still, it constantly burns in her chest, it’s not as hot but it’s comfortably warm.

Sooyoung wouldn’t have it any other way. 

If anything she liked this more, because even if she wanted to rip Jinsoul’s head off sometimes. She doesn’t have anxiety of her wife ever leaving her because she feels like they’ve hit the point where nothing else would make sense if they weren’t together.

So they tolerate each other when not in favor of one another.

While the passion and desire has fizzled, none of Sooyoung’s affection for Jinsoul has gone away. She loves Jinsoul if not more now. Because she’s learned to love every part of her, the bad and the good. Her wife was messy, sometimes y, and hated to be alone.

Sooyoung at first didn’t know how to handle it, but with patience and some progressive fights they’ve figured it out along the way. 

Not matter how bad it got a certain points, which have been few. She still hated it when Jinsoul wouldn’t sleep in her arms. She still hated it when Jinsoul wouldn’t give her a good morning kiss, she still hated it when Jinsoul wouldn’t look at her when she said I love you. Sooyoung was badly attached to this woman, and surprisingly Jinsoul was just as bad if not worse. So everytime it felt like the end of the world, Sooyoung would remind Jinsoul that she was hers, just to get those things she was so addicted to. Jinsoul was habit now, one that wasn’t bad for her health. 

That was debatable, Jinsoul still felt dangerous when she got in that one mood. Her wife could stop her heart in a second with one look. 

Grabbing Jinsoul’s waist she stares at her like nobody else existed, “I love you.” 

Jinsoul looks at her while shoving in a piece of bread. “I wuf you.” Sooyoung leans back when Jinsoul tries to Eskimo kiss her. Her wife’s breath did reek of onions and steak. But at least she was happy.

That was one thing Sooyoung didn’t complain about. She was always happy with Jinsoul. Her wife never made her question her decision to spend the rest of her life with her.

That’s how she knew this was true love.

Because Jinsoul was her vital source of happiness.

Three years with this woman has been ugly sometimes, but most of it has been exceptionally amazing that’s left Sooyoung wanting 70 more.

“You would never guess who I saw.” Jinsoul finishes the rest of her sandwich and goes to sit on the stool, Sooyoung joins her and smiles when she watches Jinsoul pick up her sandwich. 

Her wife holds it up for her to take a bite, maybe Sooyoung had been spoiled rotten over the years. She’s become a lot less independent(but still was when she needed to be), “who?” Sooyoung chews and shakes her head when Jinsoul offers her another bite, instead pointing at the drink. The younger woman holds the cup up to her and Sooyoung takes a long sip. 

After she washes some of the food down, Jinsoul rubs at her cheek where some of the mayo had got stuck, “You’re boyfriend.” Jinsoul rolls her eyes and continues feeding her. They always joked about Johnny, Sooyoung would often tease Jinsoul and say that one day she’d leave her for him. Sooyoung knew better than that though, especially with Jinsoul’s reaction.

“Yeah you think when I get kidnapped one day.” Sooyoung tenses up, the single thought of Jinsoul being taken away from her makes her blood run cold. 

She grabs Jinsoul’s wrist that was holding the sandwich up to , her wife’s mouth open as well looking at it, like she was feeding a baby. “Don’t say that Jinsoul, deadass, I’d kill him.” Jinsoul’s eyes widened but she smiles, Sooyoung has proven to be kinda psychotic sometimes, at first Jinsoul found it extremely unattractive and would retreat to her sisters apartment for a few days to let her wife cool down, but now she found it somewhat...hot.

Jinsoul would never admit what it does to her.

Thankfully it’s never towards her and will never be, just men who won’t leave her alone. Like Johnny, who had his nose broken once and one time Sooyoung ran over him accidentally. 

Shaking her head she pushes the sandwich up to Sooyoung, “ooh so you can joke but I can’t.” 

Sooyoung wasn’t a jealous type, people would flirt with her all day and she wouldn’t bat an eye. It’s when things got over the top or if Jinsoul was in danger when Sooyoung couldn’t help but want to knock someone upside the head. Hell, she used to do it for money. Jinsoul never got mad, she just wanted to give her some space.  

Taking a bite aggressively chewing she talks with full, “that’s not a joke.” 

Jinsoul frowns and apologizes sincerely, “I know I know, I’m sorry.” Jinsoul hated it when Sooyoung would joke like that too. As if she’d ever leave this woman.

Sooyoung pouts up at her for the rest of the time, not looking at Jinsoul as she eats out of her hands. Jinsoul knows she went too far, she’ll have to make it up somehow. “You wanna take a shower together?” Sooyoung’s eyes light up at that and Jinsoul feels the heat blossom at her wife’s stare. She’ll never get over the way Sooyoung looks at her. 

Her wife takes one last bite not even finishing before running off to the bathroom. Jinsoul rolls her eyes but bites her lip in secret as she starts to clean up. She hears the shower turn on and a speaker bumping, Jinsoul gets a little excited, actually more than just a little.

Fanning her face as it starts to get hot. She gets a whiff of something, Jinsoul knows that smell from anywhere. “Oh hell no.” Jinsoul starts to seeth and goes to the cabinets, the cereal one to be precise. She gets the honeycombs out that smell like cat piss. Opening up the box she bounces on the ground and cries out, “JUNG SOOYOUNG.” Jinsoul screams and pulls the ounce out of the box. They had a doctors appointment coming up soon. Jinsoul wanted to throw this box at Sooyoung’s head. This was just one of the examples, used to Jinsoul would be entranced watching Sooyoung smoke, but now it was a nuisance. 

Her wife came sprinting to the kitchen with a cheesy smile, only in her underwear. Jinsoul would find it adorable if she wasn't fuming. Sooyoung’s smile drops as soon as she sees the bag, “I thought you said you quit!”

Jinsoul throws it at her, making it spill on the floor. “I did...for a few weeks.” She crumbles into nothing and guilt eats at her. Jinsoul has her arms crossed and her foot tapping on the floor. Her wife’s skinny body curled up, her hands rubbing at the skin underneath her chin. Something Sooyoung did when she was either nervous or was caught doing something.  

“You gonna smoke when you’re pregnant?” Jinsoul asks with a sharp tone and Sooyoung quickly shakes her head, “then get rid of it, if I see it again I swear Sooyoung...” Jinsoul uncrosses her arms and holds her hands up to her head and groans. 

Her wife pushes past her without another word, the bedroom door slamming, making her jump.

Sooyoung picks up the weed and texts Yerim to tell her she has a surprise for her.  

She then takes her shower alone, to a different playlist.

~~~~

Red walls become a light blue, Sooyoung keeps pushing the painter up and down. Her arms burning from holding them up for so long. She’s finally done with the section and steps back. Sooyoung ended up not selling her playroom and was now redoing it.

She first took all the furniture out, put new floors in and flatten the walls out, knocking the one out that separates the room from the waiting room. Jinsoul was behind her finishing the paint on the other side. Sooyoung looks around, at the far end she was going to place panel mirrors. Sooyoung was going to turn this place into her own dance studio. Jinsoul would often joke she was going to be on the next dance moms. 

This room was like the image of herself, how her life had changed. Used to, she’d make money from her...hobbies and ended up meeting the love of her life. She sits down on the floor and watches Jinsoul paint the corners. Her wife only in jeans and a tank top, her shoulders tense from the way she was positioned. 

Sooyoung smiles at the woman, silky black hair was braided by herself. She loved it when Jinsoul would let her play with it. Jinsoul’s hair was soft, just like everything else about her. The younger woman takes a break for a second and wipes the sweat off her forehead before going back to it.

Staring at her wife from behind, Sooyoung is flooded with memories. When she first met Jinsoul and she was just a college student. Sooyoung didn’t know what to think, Jinsoul was a lot different than the other clients she ever got. She was in a baggy striped shirt and some jean shorts that barely reached mid-thigh. 

Jinsoul had such a baby face then, Sooyoung was a little smitten at how cute she was. The girl had stumbled around the room nervously at Sooyoung’s predator like stare. Sooyoung shakes her head when she remembers what she said to Jinsoul and the girl’s reaction. She almost ran her off. Sooyoung had panicked a little and told her to leave to get more comfortable. She was so scared that Jinsoul wasn’t going to come back she even got Vivi to meddle with it. 

But Jinsoul had came back...that time Sooyoung knew it was trouble. Because everything about the girl she liked. Her lips had bruises from how much she had bitten them during their first time together in this room. Sooyoung looks down at her hands, remember how it felt touching Jinsoul. It was addicting, she wasn’t surprised when she became obsessed. Sooyoung already wanted her to be her plaything, so she said silly things that had embarrassed later at times. 

Never had she became so interested in someone. 

Jinsoul was so soft, so pretty. Sooyoung can still feel the heat from when she first saw Jinsoul, the girl looked so vulnerable but would give this gaze that had Sooyoung feeling like she’s been set ablaze.

Sooyoung promised herself she’d never let her work and life intertwine. But of course she had to get cigars one night and her usual gas station was closed because of a robbery. There she met Jinsoul again, but not as Yves, as Sooyoung. It was so embarrassing when she had blushed when the then blonde had smiled at her like she was a good friend. Only one word ran through Sooyoung’s head .

Why is she so cute.

Her name should have been kept a secret, but Jinsoul had dyed her hair for her. It would be rude to not open up a little bit. From there it was just a spiral. Sooyoung was attracted to everything, Jinsoul was just, some would say she was different, but Sooyoung saw her as perfect. 

She was sweet, fun to be around, and down to earth. Someone that Sooyoung wasn’t afraid of letting loose around, she was comfortable. Sooyoung had boundaries, she had rules. She never found anyone worth breaking them for, everyone was so typical she had given up on love. Sooyoung never dared to get close to anyone, but Jinsoul had proved her wrong again and again. 

Sooyoung used to be alone. She’d live in the routine. She found it bothersome to break from it until she met Jinsoul. The girl was just so easy to be with, Sooyoung had been curious, wanting to know more and more about the girl and why she made her feel so good just by spending time with her. Seeing her smile and hearing her laugh. It confused Sooyoung, how she started to hate being alone just because of one gorgeous girl who kept sweet-talking her.

Then there was the ...Sooyoung blushes thinking about it. She thought she’d never find a perfect match or someone that compatible, but Jinsoul kept her on her toes and kept surprising her. Sooyoung couldn’t wait to be around her and craved her attention. She was so badly attached in a short amount of time. Not ever getting Jinsoul out of her mind no matter how much she thought about her.

But that wasn’t what made her fall, at first Sooyoung was just infatuated, surprised that someone slipped into her personal bubble and it didn’t make her uncomfortable. It was Jinsoul’s ability to make her feel like she was the only girl in the world. How her lover would only look at her and act as if she was precious. Jinsoul made her feel safe and taught her how nice it is to receive affection in which she used to hate. Jinsoul was an exceptional listener, even though she wasn’t good at comforting her verbally, she always knew how to make a few words mean everything and make Sooyoung feel better.

Jinsoul had the best hugs, she was patient and compassionate. Jinsoul cared about her from the start even if she never gave ber reasons to, at first Sooyoung tried to keep her distance. But Jinsoul kept pushing through her walls with little effort, breaking them down to build new ones. She had never met someone so honest and easy to trust. Sooyoung could rely on Jinsoul in her weakest moments and the girl wouldn’t think of her any different. Sooyoung couldn’t ask for a better woman. 

Falling in love with Jinsoul is something she’s thankful for everyday of her life. 

She had turned her world upside down and made her life easier. Sooyoung had expectations of living a lonely life but Jinsoul had showed the exact opposite of that future. Sooyoung had fallen so hard she couldn’t see anything but Jinsoul. Her love for Jinsoul grew into something beautiful. Sooyoung had never had a feeling consume her like the desire and devotion she had for Jinsoul. She longed for her until she completely gave into her. 

Sooyoung wanted to spend the rest of her life with Jinsoul, she was her special person. She was it, no one would ever compare to her or how she makes Sooyoung feel. 

Jinsoul was a good teacher, she’s taught her how to find happiness in the littlest of things. She’s allowed to relax when she needs to and speak her mind when she wants to. She’s taught her so many things, how to compromise and when to share. She shared a lot of things with Jinsoul and she loves the details they’ve created together. She wanted to do all the things she said she’d never do, with Jinsoul. 

Sooyoung wants nothing more to keep building this life with her.

Not being able to stand anymore she wants to share this moment with Jinsoul. She adored her, “Jung Jinsoul come here!” Sooyoung leans back on her hands and feels giddy as a teenager when Jinsoul turns around, her hair whipping around. The bright smile shines right through Sooyoung. 

Jinsoul puts down her paint and skips over towards her. Her wife is about to sit down in front of her but Sooyoung whines and gestures with her hands, “noo in my lap.” Jinsoul tilts her head and narrows her eyes at her. Sooyoung only gives her a charming smile, Jinsoul can’t resist it and carefully lowers herself until Sooyoung grabs her waist to jerk her down.

Sooyoung tickles at Jinsoul’s waist as the younger woman screams and squirms around, kicking her feet around. When Jinsoul starts to pull on her hair that’s when she quits, her wife is breathing heavily from the torment and shoved her in the shoulder before raising up. Sooyoung holds her there in her arms, looking at her from below with nothing but tenderness in her eyes. Sooyoung massages at the flesh on Jinsoul’s waist and whispers sweet nothings to her, Sooyoung will never stop telling this woman how amazing and beautiful she is inside out.

Jinsoul is blushing and hiding away from her kisses, “stay with me?” Sooyoung asks before planting more kisses along her jawline and right below her ear. Jinsoul has her hands squeezing onto her shoulders and leans into her wife’s kisses. Sooyoung wishes she could have this moment forever along with many others. Years of them, bad and good, stick to Sooyoung’s heart. She wants so much more.

Jinsoul finally looks at her, those eyes hold everything Sooyoung wants. Her love. Because Sooyoung knows how she felt, she has for a long time. But with a single look, Sooyoung’s reminded how much she’s loved by the woman that fits perfectly against her. Her wife never had to tell her those tiny little words, because she can just see the love sparkling in black eyes. They flicker between her own, emotions strung high. She knows Jinsoul loves her from the way she treats her. 

Jinsoul’s eyes are so gentle and it traps Sooyoung there. She can’t imagine her life without her. “Of course, as long as you'll have me.” Sooyoung can’t fight the smile off her face and snuggles her nose into Jinsoul’s jaw. 

Her hands slip underneath the tank top, her hands belong on the warm skin there. “Forever ever?” Jinsoul threads her fingers in her hair and blunt nails scratch at her scalp making Sooyoung sigh. 

“Mhmm.” 

Sooyoung pulls back and shakes her head, “what do you want?” 

Jinsoul taps on her chin pretending to think for just a moment, “what would you give me? Anything I would ask for?”

Nodding quickly she manages to pull Jinsoul closer, “ya, i'll give you everything if you want it. I’ll show you every corner of the world if you asked.” Sometimes Jinsoul still didn’t know how to react to her, but usually it was a funny noise and a lot of wiggling around from all the tingly feelings.

Sooyoung meant every word though. Since Jinsoul was her everything, she’d give her anything in return. But still her wife managed to one up her, “what if all I wanted was you?” Something about Jinsoul was so genuine and Sooyoung could never get used to it.

“Okay, but that’s all you want? I’m not that much.” Sooyoung pouts at her and puckers her lip. She was teasing because she knows Jinsoul hates it when she talked lowly of herself.

Her wife pulls on her hair slightly, “oh shut up you’re more than enough...sometimes too damn much.” 

“Am I that bad?” 

Jinsoul rolls her eyes and gives her a fat kiss on the lips, “no you’re the best. Always.” It leaves a hot sensation in her chest as Jinsoul says it, her wife’s voice was so dreamy. 

The room starts to become more than just the first place they met. It becomes a place where they fall in love for the second time, all over again. It’s the new chapter, pages turn and begins the life they’ve built around each other. Sooyoung rocks herself and Jinsoul back and forth. Her face pressed against Jinsoul’s chest. 

Talking about their future wasn’t scary at all, and that’s how Sooyoung knew she had nothing to worry about. “Are you nervous?” The appointment was soon, they had decided for Sooyoung to have the first baby since she was getting older. Also...she kinda wanted to be a mom really bad. 

Sooyoung hopes she’s a good one. “No, I’m excited. I want them to look just like me.” Jinsoul shorts and pinches at the back of her neck, “and act just like me.”

“Please, we do not need a mini Sooyoung, you know my would go crazy.” Jinsoul messes with her, whining and crying about how bad one like her would be. But Sooyoung knew she was kidding because Jinsoul often tells people that she hopes to have them all be like Sooyoung since she was such a kind person. 

Sooyoung pretends to cry anyways and Jinsoul is quick to eat her words, “I guess it wouldn’t be so bad, maybe they wouldn’t be mean like you.” 

“I’m not mean?”

As Jinsoul glares at her and starts to rant about all the mischief she gets into, Sooyoung reaches behind her for a forgotten paint rush. Jinsoul is too focused on complaining about how she play fights too roughly to notice the paint brush coming towards her face. 

Sooyoung leaves a heavy swipe across her cheek and Jinsoul shuts up. Her wife is now staring straight ahead silent as Sooyoung laughs, still painting her wife’s skin light blue, “awe my little m&m.” She expects the worst, and she gets exactly that when Jinsoul grabs her and rubs the still wet paint against her face against her own.

Five minutes later, they’ve both managed to cover themselves in paint. Sooyoung’s tummy is starting to hurt from how much she’s laughing, Jinsoul looked so silly. She chases her wife around in a circle with paint smeared on her palms, Jinsoul screams in terror that could bust someone’s eardrums out. Sooyoung has learned how to drown it out.

Cornering Jinsoul she creeps up to her, hands spread wide like a monster. As she gets closer however her hands come closer in and she smears the paint across her wife’s cheeks, cradling her face she gives Jinsoul a messy kiss that doesn’t really work to well from how hard they’re smiling. 

Jinsoul falls into her, like she has a thousand times. Sooyoung can feel cold paint on her waist from where Jinsoul holds her there as they kissed over and over again. 

Her lips are warm, they slide against her own in a familiar rhythm. 

Sooyoung screams when Jinsoul picks her up and swings her around, she clings onto her wife’s shoulders. The floor beneath them creaks at their combined weight but Sooyoung feels feather light in Jinsoul’s arms. Her wife had the prettiest smile, Sooyoung can’t take her eyes off of it. 

As Jinsoul struggles to hold her up since she’s laughing so hard, Sooyoung can only think.

How many times can you fall in love?  

~~~~

“Sit still.” Jinsoul was about to lose her mind. She was trying to play her game on her phone but Sooyoung kept poking at her. The older woman could be a bit annoying at times, for example right now. It was like she couldn’t relax. Sooyoung stops goosing her in her side for a few seconds, but as soon as Jinsoul starts to get her groove back in the puzzle game Sooyoung does it again.

Her wife’s fingers were digging into her side, “Sooyoung!” She whisper shouts and puts her game down for a split second. Her wife is giving her puppy dog eyes, begging for attention. Jinsoul is too aggravated to give in though, no matter how pitiful Sooyoung looked. She smiles when she isn’t poked anymore. Sooyoung just huffs and puffs, crossing her legs every second or so.

They were at the baby doctor. Sitting in the waiting room for an hour had been a test to Sooyoung’s patience and Jinsoul was starting to notice. Jinsoul rolls her eyes when she hears Sooyoung hum sadly for the hundredth time. “I know you hate the doctor but this will be fun...no shots or anything.” Jinsoul was surprised when she found out Sooyoung had white coat syndrome. Everytime she got sick Jinsoul would have to drag her to the doctor.

If Sooyoung got a shot, Jinsoul would have to baby her for a full day. She had to be held and pampered to, Jinsoul felt like she already had a kid with how needy Sooyoung could be. But then again she thought it was ridiculous with how long Sooyoung would keep things from her, one time she went a whole week keeping a huge gash in her hand from cutting up fruit. Simply because she didn’t want to get stitches. Her wife was tough but she didn’t understand why the doctor's office bothered her so much.

It was no different now, Sooyoung’s been pushing this off for a while. “I’m nervous and you won’t stop playing that damn game.” Jinsoul groans and shuts off her phone, now Sooyoung was just being petty. Her wife had her arms crossed on the verge of crying, her heel clicking into the floor tiles. 

“I never get to play it.”

Sooyoung rolls her eyes and turns further away from her, “you play it every night before bed.” Jinsoul studies Sooyoung for a moment, she was definitely having a little temper tantrum. Slipping her phone into Sooyoung’s purse she starts to up to the older woman. First she squeezes at Sooyoung’s thigh to stop her from tapping her foot, then she leans over blow in her ear. Sooyoung swats her away, not in the mood to be picked on. But Jinsoul always got picked on no matter how tired she was.

Jinsoul nudges her with her elbow, “here hold my hand you’ll feel better.” Sooyoung turns and hesitates but with a few scratches to her thigh she gives in and holds her hand. Jinsoul squeezes onto the hand and brings it up to her lips to lightly kiss it. “I got you, everything will be okay.” Sooyoung gives her a pensive look before leaning into her. Jinsoul wraps one arm around her while she rubs her thumb across the hand she’s holding. She leaves a kiss on Sooyoung’s temple before resting her head against her wife’s.

It’s silent for a couple moments, Sooyoung finally content since Jinsoul acted like she existed. “You think I’ll be a good mom?” Jinsoul frowns, Sooyoung has voiced her doubts multiple times about being scared. How she thinks she won’t be a perfect mom, but Jinsoul knows better. 

Humming she closes her eyes, “I think you’ll be the best.” She rubs Sooyoung’s shoulders for reassurance.

Jinsoul comforts her wife as they wait, “you wanna get ice cream after this?” Ice cream was Sooyoung’s guilty food and Jinsoul never bothered getting it for her, it was kinda mesmerizing watching the woman eat it. Her tongue was long and fat and Jinsoul would get fixated on it as it swirled around the cone. She liked comparing it to one of those clams, Sooyoung would even get mad at her when she said it. 

“What if I just want a healthy portion of that ?” Jinsoul doesn’t know how Sooyoung’s hand sneaks down there but she has to fight from letting out a yelp when the cold fingers slipped inside the waistband of her jeans. Sooyoung pinches at the top of her booty cheek and Jinsoul scoots back to squish the fingers against her chairs. Her wife whines at the pain and quickly pulls them out to shake them.

Jinsoul glares at her, Sooyoung could never keep her hands to herself. Even in public Sooyoung would be grabbing something of hers, tiddies, waist, thighs. It was frustrating when her wife would just rub up on her and nonchalantly chat as if she wasn’t starting something. Thankfully Sooyoung never dared to do it when someone was looking. Always praying on her when they were in the back of the store or bathroom before letting her wandering hands go to town. 

Shooing the hand away like she always does she lets out a low whisper, “wait till we're home.” Sooyoung then breaks out into sleazy smirk like she just won the lottery and was trying to keep it a secret. It brought heat to Jinsoul’s cheeks, “God you’re such a , why did I marry you again?” Jinsoul could be a hypocrite at times. Because secretly she still liked it when Sooyoung would touch her when she wasn’t supposed to.

Sooyoung just giggles and gives her a more innocent smile that makes her cheeks puff up, “because you love me.” Jinsoul can’t help but lean forward and kiss the scrunched up nose. She thought it was the cutest. 

Brushing her wife’s hair behind her ear Jinsoul is reminded just how much she adores the woman when she looks into those eyes, “well you’re not wrong.”  

They spend the rest of the time slowly talking to each other with tones full of affection. The doctor they were seeing was an old friend of Jinsoul’s and currently Sooyoung’s best friend.

It’s not much longer until they’re being called back. 

“Jung Sooyoung?” They both jumped up at the name and Sooyoung holds her hand as they walk through the back and out of the cold waiting room. After some physical examinations they’re directed to a room.

Sooyoung is looking at a poster of numerous birth control options when the redhead pops in, “helloooo party is here!” Jiwoo screams and bounces in before slamming the door shut. Yes, Jiwoo had somehow managed to become a doctor, an exceptional one at that. She was both a pediatrician and baby doctor. While usually not taking on cases like this she accepted Sooyoung and Jinsoul because well...old times.

The redhead spins around before flopping into Jinsoul’s lap, “let’s see what we have here.” She wasn’t the most ethical doctor and the hospital has been sued a few times because Jiwoo was too different for some people. Sooyoung raises a brow as Jiwoo bounces in her lap like a kid, her shoes were duck house slippers. “WHAT YOU'RE ALREADY PREGNANT!” Jinsoul and Sooyoung both look at each other with shocked expressions, but then Jiwoo starts to laugh, “ah I’m sorry this is the script for that time Jungeun went on Maury,” Jiwoo takes the paper out and shakes her head at it, “how’d you get in there silly!” 

The doctor throws the paper behind her and slaps Jinsoul in the face with it. Jiwoo nods her head at the papers in her hand, “so you guys are wanting a baby?” Jiwoo glances up at Sooyoung who smiles. Clicking her tongue she folds her file back together, “well I have to break it ya, you're gonna have to start smooshing if wanna get preggers.” Sooyoung’s jaw holds open and Jinsoul contains a laugh behind her.

“W-what?”

Jiwoo crosses her arms, “Sooyoung please don’t tell me you’ve never heard of…” creeping forward she covers , “.” She spells it out like it was taboo. Sooyoung starts to charge forward and Jiwoo hops up to wave her hands protectively, “I’m joking! Jeez grumpy I’m trying to lighten the mood, Jinsoul said you didn’t like doctwa’s.”

“That’s not how you say it…”

“But don’t fear! Chuu is here! And imma help you bake a little bun in the oven.” The doctor says with enthusiasm before flopping down on a spinny chair almost falling out of it. Jiwoo grabs her things and starts to exam Sooyoung herself, “there’s a few ways we could do this.” She speaks as she listens to Sooyoung’s lungs and heart. “The old-fashioned way, taking somebody baby gravy filling up a turkey baster and get to squirting!” Jinsoul has to cover to hide the noise that’s itching to be let out when Sooyoung gags.

Jiwoo checks on the woman’s ears and then sticks out her tongue, “lie thiff!” Sooyoung does the same and the light goes in . “Looking good Sooyoung have you been taking your vitamins?” Jiwoo glances at Jinsoul who can’t fight her smile.

“Yup she takes her flintstone and scooby vitamins every morning like a good girl.” Sooyoung blushes like crazy and Jiwoo screams and hops so high her head almost hits the roof.

Sooyoung glares at her, “I take adult vitamins thank you…” 

Jiwoo raises her brows up and down and pulls a blow pop from god knows where, “so you don’t want this candy for being a good patient today.” 

“I’m not a ing child.” Jinsoul gasps at Sooyoung’s language. She narrows her eyes at her.

“It’s apple flavor.”

“I mean one wouldn’t hurt, thank you.” Her eyes soften. Jinsoul wants to squeeze Sooyoung to death from how cute she is when she starts to chew on the lollipop. 

As Sooyoung sits on the table, Jiwoo clicks on a little tablet. It’s several minutes before she speaks again. Meanwhile Jinsoul had been eyeing Sooyoung, speaking to her with a bat of her eyelashes and a warm smile

“I think with you I’m going to try IVF which is in-vitro fertilization.” The serious tone is a contrast to the bubbly ramblings from earlier. “We will take either one of your eggs or Jinsoul’s and fertilize it with a donor of your choice. Then when were sure it’s ready we will transfer into your uterus.” Jiwoo emphasizes by sticking her finger into a hole that she made with her other hand. “It’s good that you wanted to start now, because the older you get the harder it will become for you to have children.”

Sooyoung nods and smiles at Jinsoul, “well this is the only time I’m planning to have one, any more is up to Jinsoul.” She blushes at the wink Sooyoung throws her, Jinsoul had no doubt in a few years they’d be doing the same thing, it will just be her on the doctor’s table. 

Jiwoo nods and writes something down on her paper, “good, also you’re above average in physique, blood pressure is good, no bad cases in your family’s history. Think you’ll be just fine.” Jinsoul is just getting excited and so is Sooyoung. They’re both borderline bouncing in their seats. “IVF has its problems, it doesn’t always take and there’s a risk of miscarriage and multiple births. Is that okay?”

Sooyoung stays in thought for a moment, “whatever you think is best.” 

Jiwoo claps her hands together and makes a happy noise, “Ah, I'm so glad you’re letting me do this! Here all I need you to do is go sprinkle in this cute little cup and then we’ll start the blood work.” Sooyoung stiffens at the mention of blood work, that meant needles. But before she can start to whine and cry Jiwoo shoves the test cup that's riddled with stickers into her hands and shoves her out the door.

Jinsoul frowns at the manhandling but then Jiwoo squeals and pulls her into a tight hug, “YOU'RE GONNA BE A MOM!”

Laughing she hugs Jiwoo back, “I know, it’s crazy!” 

Her friends pulls back with tears in her eyes and rubs at her face, Jinsoul’s heart flutters. “Are you excited?! Have you picked out any names?”

Jinsoul shrugs, “no names yet...and yeah I’m so excited, Sooyoung’s worried that she isn’t going to be a good mom.” Jiwoo looks surprised and Jinsoul shakes her head, “she’s always been so hard on herself, when she’s the best person I know.” She laughs and leans onto the counter, “I hope they're just like her.” Jinsoul says happily, “Sooyoung is empathetic, always thoughtful of other people’s feelings and takes the time to understand them. She makes this world a better place I swear, she’d help anyone in a heartbeat. So I can only imagine how she’s gonna be with the baby.” 

Jiwoo smiles at her, “she has a heart of gold I can tell.” 

She nods at that, “yeah she does, it reminds me of Jungeun.” Jinsoul mentions her best friend from childhood until now, who Jiwoo was married to. 

Jiwoo shakes her head, “they’re nothing alike are you kidding!”

Jinsoul raises one brow as Jiwoo starts to ramble, “my wife can be so stubborn! At least Sooyoung is nicer, Jungeun’s way out there whew sometimes it feels like my heads gonna blow up.” Jinsoul could agree, while Sooyoung was more timid and reserved, Jungeun was like a firecracker. It didn’t take long to know her. They were the same flame, just different points. While Sooyoung was the cooler outer flame, Jungeun was that hot inner core. 

“Junguen is my rock, she’s a good balance, I think if I was with anyone else I’d become lost in my own little world.” Jiwoo says a bit too seriously. “I can always depend on her you know! It took a whole lot of loving to get her to soften up that bad attitude she had but now she’s just my big baby hehe.” Jinsoul melts a little at the way Jiwoo talks about the woman, Jungeun was a hard nut to crack but Jiwoo had some magical ways of getting people to fall for her.

The door opens again and Sooyoung gives Jiwoo the covered up cup. Her wife still had the lollipop in . “Okay now to the lab! MUAHAHAHA!” The red head darts out the room like a man scientist, Sooyoung gives Jinsoul a pouty look.

“I thought you said no needles.”

Jinsoul frowns and rubs on her wife’s back, “I technically said no shots, but if you don’t punch anyone I’ll make it up to you.” Her wife’s eyes light up at that and then Jinsoul is offered a of the lollipop. Smiling she sticks the whole thing in and hums before popping it back out. “That’s good!” Sooyoung’s eyes have become dark and she slowly at the lollipop then, Jinsoul of course ignores it. She really didn’t need to give her wife any ideas.

Especially since for the next 24 hours since she’ll be making up for her little lie.

Looking at the various paintings on the walls and not at Sooyoung chewing at her lip. Jiwoo pops back out of nowhere, “that’s right I needed to ask who’s eggs we were using! Unless you need more time to decide.” Jinsoul reaches for Sooyoung’s hand and squeezes.

Her wife thinks for a moment, “can we do both?” 

Jiwoo’s eyebrows raise and she makes an exaggerated noise, “ooooh! Yeah, but Jinsoul’s egg would probably take before yours, so there’s a lower chance it will be your child.” Jiwoo quotes with her fingers. It would be Jinsoul’s genes but Sooyoung would nourish it.

Jinsoul isn’t so sure, “Sooyoung this is your only time and chance don’t you-“

“I wanna do that, both of them.” Sooyoung says quickly. 

Jiwoo squeals and runs off again, accidentally running into a nurse and tumbling to the floor. Jinsoul is dragged by Sooyoung to follow the girl, “Sooyoung…”

Her wife looks back at her, smiling wide with her cheek being pushed out by the candy, “I think I want a mini you more than a mini me.” Jinsoul’s heart swells and she can’t argue with that since Sooyoung seemed so content with the decision. Jinsoul can’t wait to get home to shower this woman in love.

It’s all she’ll ever do.

~~~~ 

Jinsoul doesn’t stay at work longer than she has to, nowadays she tends to leave earlier. She just couldn’t wait to get home, her wife was on her mind twenty-four seven. Jinsoul’s been really happy these days, she didn’t have to think of the reasons.

Rushing into her home she bites her tongue when she sees Sooyoung’s shoes already there. She sits the groceries down that she had grabbed before making her way here. Jinsoul was so excited to see Sooyoung, even if it had only been several hours since this morning. Running through the hallway she peeks inside the bedroom. 

Sooyoung was laying on her back wiggling her feet watching something on her phone, “hi.” Jinsoul mumbles out, not even trying to fight the smile off her face. Sooyoung only raises a brow and lays her phone down on the sheets. She was already in her nightgown and Jinsoul’s heart grows three sizes bigger from the prominent belly that was poking up.

Jinsoul was amazed at how big it’s gotten. Sooyoung looked like stick with a soccer ball attached. Her wife is spread out on the bed, gazing at her as she approaches sneakingly. “Whose this beautiful woman in my bed?” Jinsoul says teasingly and Sooyoung gives her an amused expression. “Looking all kinds of y I cannot lie.” Her wife rolls her eyes at her and pats on the bed.

“Hurry come here I want some lovings.”

Not wanting to make Sooyoung wait any longer she crawls onto the bed and greets her wife with a loving and full kiss. Jinsoul loved these lips so much and she would never get tired of smooching them. She draws back and shares a fleeting but all knowing glance with Sooyoung before pressing her forehead against her wife’s “How was your day?” She asks with a light tone that matches her smile. Her wife starts to ramble about how tired she is and how annoying work has become since she can’t do anything. 

Jinsoul could agree about the work part, but that was because she only wanted to be with Sooyoung. Continuing to listen to the older woman with her full undivided attention she sneaks down and starts to lift the gown up. Sooyoung was really far long, it wouldn’t be too much longer until they were meeting their baby. Jinsoul kisses on her tummy as Sooyoung finishes ranting about her day. She hums when fingers thread into her hair and encourage her to keep going. 

It’s easy being intimate with Sooyoung Jinsoul thinks, she feels like they’re always getting closer to each other. Jinsoul believes she shares a lot more with Sooyoung than just their love, her wife was her other half. Rubbing on the tight skin she wants to almost cry, she’s never been so devoted to someone or something. Jinsoul surprises herself with how much she’s fallen in love with Sooyoung over and over again through the years. 

Sooyoung lets her know the gesture is appreciated with a satisfied hum. Even if Jinsoul would prefer to do this for a few days straight she knows she should really get to business, “hmm I know what you’re thinking.” She sits up on her calves and scoots back after flicking Sooyoung’s with her finger. Grabbing her wife’s feet she starts to massage them. Sooyoung smiles happily and pushes her head back into the pillows.

“God I love you.” Being a professor who specializes in dance while being pregnant was a challenge. Sooyoung would come home with swollen feet everyday. Jinsoul only giggles as she takes the swelling away with magical hands. Sooyoung groans and stretches in bliss. Jinsoul warms up at the words softly spoken to her.

After she’s sure she’s gotten Sooyoung feeling back to better she goes to lay on her side to rub at her wife’s tummy. Jinsoul lets her eyes trail up and down her body, “sooo when are you gonna tell people I’m your baby daddy.” 

Sooyoung gives her a fixed look, “what did I tell you about that Jinsoul.” 

“Come on it’s funny!” Jinsoul tries to defend herself. Sooyoung hated it, probably because of her mixed hormones. But Jinsoul insisted that she’d be referred as the baby daddy just because she liked when Sooyoung had said it a handful of times, there wasn’t enough times and Jinsoul begs her to say it more. Sooyoung has had an experience with Jinsoul during this pregnancy, the woman had become clingy ten fold, to the point where Sooyoung had to ask to be left alone.

Of course she was forever grateful for her wife for being so sweet and caring. It honestly pulled on all of her heart strings how affectionate Jinsoul was. But she could be irritating, far too much for Sooyoung’s  liking. “If you ask me one more time.” Jinsoul pouts up and tries to cuddle up to her but Sooyoung pushes her off, “no you can’t convince me either.” Jinsoul has somehow made her say it a few times...in ways Sooyoung would not like to reflect on since it was embarrassing. But Jinsoul had been acting this way ever since she started showing.

Corny. 

Sooyoung hated it, because well, she didn’t exactly hate it. Sooyoung secretly loved it. “Look I even took a picture for you, to show my potential.” Jinsoul holds her phone and shows Sooyoung a god awful picture. Jinsoul is posing like a…Sooyoung sighs, Jinsoul still looked too damn good. But she wouldn’t let her know that. 

“Jinsoul, the hell is this.” Her wife shoots up and recreates the pose. A finger gun under the chin, her nose scrunched up her bottom lip between her teeth. Sooyoung has many questions, but can’t ask not one since she’s speechless. 

Her wife giggles and finally quits, “don’t try and hide it...you like don’t ya, you think I’m hot.”

“No.” Sooyoung smiles as she says it. 

Jinsoul gets upset and starts to shake her in the bed, “Sooyoung you’re so mean!” She ignores the younger woman by turning her head. The only way she’d stop this nonsense is by shutting it down entirely. “I just wanted to make you laugh…” Sooyoung’s eyebrows upturn in concern when she hears the sad voice. Turning her head around she’s met with the most pitiful face she’s ever seen. Jinsoul sniffles and rubs at her eyes and Sooyoung struggles to raise up. Cradling her wife’s face she’s quick to apologize and kiss the tears away.

She should have known better when Jinsoul starts to laugh, “seriously!” Jinsoul tries to not smile at her now frustrated wife. Sooyoung was difficult to tolerate, she had plenty of mood swings but Jinsoul was patient and understanding. Sooyoung turns her back to Jinsoul and the younger woman can’t help but try and comfort her. Her hand is swatted away every time she gets close, “no I’m through, don’t touch me.” 

“Sooyoung...don’t be like that. I was just kidding.” Jinsoul pokes her in the back until she speaks.

“I really thought you were upset.” Sooyoung mumbles out.

Leaning down she leaves a kiss on Sooyoung’s face, “I am, because you won’t play around with me.” Sooyoung turns to glare at her. 

“You know I hate seeing you cry.” Jinsoul frowns, she really shouldn’t use that against Sooyoung, but her wife was being cruel. Jinsoul holds her hand over the one that caresses her cheek and leans into Sooyoung’s touch. 

Jinsoul pats on her shoulder, “I’ll forgive you if you call me your baby-“ The hand clamps over , Sooyoung looks annoyed.

Her wife raises up again and points a finger in her face, “say it again.” Jinsoul feels the fear of god in her chest and nervously laughs putting her hands up in defense. 

“Okay okay you win.” Jinsoul accepts defeat and thinks she’s not really losing when Sooyoung smiles at her and pulls her into a heavy kiss. 

When it’s broken, Jinsoul’s left a little breathless. Opening her eyes she knows Sooyoung’s about to say something, “I’m glad you know your place.” Jinsoul’s smile drops and she rolls her eyes. Sooyoung is only petting on her head thinking that she’s really won, “so are you done?” Jinsoul narrows her eyes and shrugs her shoulders, she really did like bothering Sooyoung.

“Are you?” 

Sooyoung gasps and tries to grab her but Jinsoul rolls off the bed and out of her grasp, “just because I’m pregnant don’t think I can’t beat your .”

“I’m sorry? You can’t even get out of bed by yourself.” Jinsoul mocks and Sooyoung turns red in the face. Biting at her lip she tries to not laugh as Sooyoung struggles to get off the bed, Jinsoul fights the urge to help her, but she knows if she even goes near Sooyoung her is over. 

The bed creaks as the woman gets over to the edge, “You better pray I don’t catch you!” Jinsoul starts to giggle as Sooyoung’s wobbles towards her, she doesn’t even have to try that hard to get away from her. Jinsoul makes her way around their home, Sooyoung huffs and puffs trying to get a hand on her. Jinsoul makes sure to slow down when Sooyoung gets a little too carried away with chasing her.

Finally, her wife is worn out and leans onto the couch with one hand on her back. Her bottom lip quivering, Jinsoul lets her shoulders slump, she went too far. She knew exactly what this mood was. During the pregnancy she’s seen it once or twice but Sooyoung would fully break down on her. 

Jinsoul starts to creep towards her, “Sooyoung? You okay?” Her wife is holding a hand over her face and making small noises that’s too close to sobbing. As soon as Jinsoul lays a hand on her wife’s back she should have known it was a trap, now she was in a headlock with Sooyoung’s elbow right against . 

“HAH WHAT NOW?” 

Sooyoung laughs like a maniac above her and Jinsoul slaps at her arm to let her lose, when she gets a knuckle to the head she jerks free...but runs straight into the wall. Sooyoung gasps when she sees Jinsoul’s head bounce off the wall, leaving a hole. The younger woman crouches on the floor cradling her head crying from the pain. Sooyoung only holds a hand over . 

Lowering herself to her knees Sooyoung rubs on Jinsoul’s back. “Let me see baby.” Jinsoul raises up with tears burning her eyes. At first Sooyoung looks shocked, her eyes wide and open. Jinsoul cries even harder when Sooyoung starts to laugh at her, making fun of the knot on her head. She even pokes at it, “you still all there?” Sooyoung jokes and continues to laugh, Jinsoul pouts up, her wife really was so mean. 

But Sooyoung was laughing, and to Jinsoul. That meant something. Her main goal was to make this woman happy. She wanted to see her smile and laugh all the time even if it was her pain that was the joke.

Sooyoung wipes a tear from her eye, “you’re silly Jinsoul.” Her head was throbbing, but it feels much better when Sooyoung plants a soft kiss directly where it hurts. Sooyoung then looks a lot less angry than before, “how can I make it feel better?” Jinsoul points at her head again, the kiss was pretty nice.

Her wife gives her that beautiful smile and repeats the gesture over and over again. 

~~~~

“Right there!” Sooyoung points at the screen, they were laying on the couch, Jinsoul was playing Pokémon and her wife was helping her. Jinsoul was leaned back into the corner, Sooyoung was between her legs with her back against Jinsoul’s front. 

Jinsoul’s arms were around Sooyoung, resting the console on her belly. She ends up catching the Pokémon and smiles to lean forward, “thank you gorgeous.” They share a quick kiss before looking back at the screen. Sooyoung was too comfortable in Jinsoul’s embrace. This was their routine now, Sooyoung had officially went on maternity leave since it was too difficult to drive and work by herself. Jinsoul would come home earlier everyday to help her around and cater to her.

Sooyoung felt a little weird just sitting around all the time as Jinsoul would come home from work and do every chore and even cook a nice meal for her. Then again, she really liked to be pampered, she was spoiled for the past 3 months. She’d make sure she’d repay Jinsoul after she recovered, her wife had been so good to her. 

It was night now and it meant there was nothing but time to relax. Jinsoul would often make them a comfortable spot to sit in for a few hours before finally going to bed. Sooyoung thought this pregnancy was going to be a nightmare, but Jinsoul in ever way has made it decent. She had really married an angel. Watching the fingers type on the buttons Sooyoung already feels herself getting sleepy and melts further into Jinsoul’s body. It was so warm, Jinsoul was like a pillow.

“OH!” Sooyoung smiles, she wasn’t exactly the quietest though. Opening one eye she leaned her head back onto Jinsoul’s chest and watches the woman scream as she battles a rare Pokémon. Sooyoung wraps a hand around Jinsoul’s arm and squeezes before it up and down. 

Jinsoul groans when she fails and the game makes a sad noise, “I was so close…” Sooyoung hugs the younger woman’s arm to her chest. Resting her cheek on it as she stares at the idle hands now.

“You’re such a dork.” Sooyoung sighs out dreamily, she found it adorable. Jinsoul gives her a questionable grumble and continues to play the game, Sooyoung looks up and giggles, “stop you know I don’t want you any different!” Jinsoul was just bluffing, quickly smiling when Sooyoung pokes at her cheek. She gasps when Jinsoul goes to chomp at her finger and pulls it away from danger. 

Sooyoung lets out a happy noise when Jinsoul lets her squish her cheeks. Raising up she kisses the bottom of Jinsoul’s jaw and lets her hand reach to the back of her head, letting the black hair slide through her fingers. Sooyoung gushes over the expression Jinsoul makes, “I have the cutest wife.” Sooyoung mumbles out with a deeper voice. Jinsoul glances down at her for a second before going back to the game.

Smiling Sooyoung scratches her nails into Jinsoul’s scalp, the younger woman takes a deep breath, “that feels nice.” 

“I know baby.” 

She keeps massaging her fingers into Jinsoul’s head and the younger woman looks like she’s going to fall asleep. The game is shut off and sat to the side and Jinsoul’s hands wrap around her fully. Sooyoung is feeling a little overwhelmed at the moment, from the tightness in her chest. “Jinsoul?” Her wife hums closing her eyes and pressing her cheek into the side of her head, “thank you.” Sooyoung raises up a slight bit so she can look at Jinsoul better. The younger woman has her brows upturned in question, “for being everything that I’ve ever wished for.” 

Jinsoul’s lip starts to quiver and Sooyoung doesn’t hesitate to kiss her. When she pulls away she breathes onto Jinsoul’s lips, “I don’t want anything else as long as I have you.” The kiss they share is gentle and slow, until Jinsoul accidentally deepens it. Sooyoung lets out a low noise from that breaks them apart. Her neck is starting to hurt from this angle but she doesn’t want to stop kissing Jinsoul’s soft lips. 

Jinsoul looks at her with nothing but devotion in her eyes, “you’re glowing right now.” 

Sooyoung smiles, “it’s all because of you.” 

Their next kiss is desperate and hot, Jinsoul is quick to pick the mood up, “someone feeling needy?” Sooyoung blushes and nibbles at her wife’s cheek. Being pregnant had caused many emotions to come out of her, but one was surprising. 

“Will you take care of me?” She says a bit pouty and it makes Jinsoul’s eyes ten times darker. Soon Sooyoung is leading a dopey Jinsoul into the bedroom, she would be lying if she said she wasn’t as giddy as the woman behind her. Opening the door Jinsoul hops on the bed and already starts stripping, Sooyoung stares at her wife’s body already feeling the heat rise to her chest.

Taking off her pajamas and she noticed something in their messy room. Wobbling over she has to sumo squat to pick it up, “damn baby is that all you?” Sooyoung giggles at Jinsoul’s deep voice and tries to raise up ier. Her wife is half on the bed smiling at her, she sits the hat on top of her head and poses. It was  Jinsoul’s cowboy hat from last Halloween. Jinsoul claps for her as she wiggles around the best she can, this is the closest she can get to dance. 

It doesn’t take five minutes for Sooyoung to get winded and she wipes the sweat off her head a little goofily. Jinsoul laughs at her and begs her to come over. This was not only her wife.

She was her best friend.

Crawling onto the bed she makes her voice a few octaves deeper just the way Jinsoul likes it, “can this cowgirl ride?” Jinsoul scoots up the bed and pats her lap, chewing at her lip like she was starving. Sooyoung crawls the rest of the way up and straddles Jinsoul’s waist before rubbing her hands up and down her front. The soft skin beneath her palms is so warm. Jinsoul sighs and lets Sooyoung’s hands squeeze onto her. “You’re perfect you know that?” Jinsoul feels a little light headed from how sweet Sooyoung is being. The hands on her body feel like heaven.

Sooyoung’s hands rest on Jinsoul’s chest when her wife raises up, trying to pull of her shirt. But Sooyoung stops them from going any further. “No wait, I wanna keep my shirt on.” Jinsoul’s brown eyes fill with concern.

“We’ve talked about this honey, you’re still the iest woman alive.” 

Jinsoul pushes her shirt up a little bit but Sooyoung pulls it back down, “it’s not that…” She folds her hands over Jinsoul’s, “what if she’s watching?” They both look down at her belly. Jiwoo had confirmed they were going to have a healthy baby girl and Sooyoung couldn’t be more excited. 

“You think so?” Sooyoung nods and pulls her shirt down a little farther. Her wife looks down at her belly, “baby can you close your eyes?” Sooyoung pushes Jinsoul but she only smiles at her and brings her hands to another area that makes Sooyoung moan from the sensitivity. She tries to pull her wife closer but her belly gets in the way. It’s even hard to kiss Jinsoul in this position. Sooyoung is starting to get upset.

Whining she looks down at her wife, “please hold me Jinsoul.” Jinsoul tries but it’s unsuccessful. No matter how either of them was, the struggle was real. Jinsoul already has worked up a sweat maneuvering them and hasn’t even got to the good part yet. 

Everywhere Jinsoul touches though makes Sooyoung let out a small noise, “you’re so sensitive.” She’s almost afraid to grab Sooyoung too hard. Her hands squeeze at her tiddies and Jinsoul widens her eyes. Yes, the tiddies, larger than usual were really nice. “Hehe woah.” Her wife would nag at her if it didn’t feel so good. Jinsoul is having a lot of fun, since this is the most amount of times Sooyoung’s let her top. She loved it when Sooyoung was more submissive. Her wife reacted more to her touch.

But something was different, her lap was soaking wet. “Uh Sooyoung?” Not like...wet...but wet. 

Her wife had noticed too, “what the,” Sooyoung rolls off of her. It’s everywhere. A clear liquid. “Oh damn I think my water just broke.” Sooyoung says nonchalantly as Jinsoul starts to freak out. Sooyoung watches her wife scramble and rush to put her clothes back on and then sprinting towards her holding up some sweats.

“OH NO WE GOTTA GO!” 

Sooyoung snorts, it was just her water. It’s not like the baby was coming out right now...wait. That didn’t feel so good. Sooyoung holds her belly and looks down, yeah that kinda hurts. Jinsoul is bouncing from one foot to another as she slowly puts her pants on. 

When she stands she cringes, Jinsoul instantly takes a hold of her. Damn it do hurt! Sooyoung still makes an effort in comforting Jinsoul who looked like she was about to pass out, caressing her back she kisses Jinsoul’s temple as they walk out, “Jinsoul it’s okay, I'm fine.” 

They make it to one of their vehicles and Jinsoul helps her in, she even brought a pillow for Sooyoung’s back. Sooyoung lays back as Jinsoul buckles her in and gets her comfortable.

Jinsoul then runs around the vehicle even tripping on the way there before finally getting in the driver's seat. Sooyoung’s watches with worried eyes as Jinsoul shakes around and drops the keys four times before putting it in the ignition. Her wife looks at her and smiles, “haha we out here.” Jinsoul drops her smile as quick as if formed and swallows harshly. 

After the vehicle is started Jinsoul puts a hand behind Sooyoung’s headrest and looks back, only for them to go forward. They bump into the parking bump and it shakes the vehicle, “oop!” Sooyoung bounces in her seat and grinds her teeth at the pain. She taught Jinsoul how to drive but the woman still wasn’t the best. Looking over Jinsoul is gripping the steering wheel for life.

Sooyoung leans over to rub circles into her back, “shhh deep breaths.” Jinsoul goes to rest, but ends up bumping her head onto the steering wheel that’s concerning for Sooyoung and she pulls her wife back to look at her head. Taking her thumb to swipe at the small red spot she kisses it. Jinsoul is on the verge of crying.

“I’m sorry I’m so stupid.” 

Knitting her eyebrows Sooyoung cups her wife’s cheek, “you’re not stupid you’re just...different.” Jinsoul looks at her and Sooyoung can tell she doesn’t believe her. “Jinsoul.”

The younger woman slumps, “I’m supposed to be comforting you.” 

“You have for the past nine months, I think this one time is okay.” Sooyoung tells her sweetly, Jinsoul’s eyes soften at that and some of the panic fades away as they share a hug. 

It’s like a whole new person when Jinsoul pulls away, “aight let’s gas this .”

Sooyoung is in too much pain to ask her wife to slow down. She doesn’t think she’s ever seen Jinsoul drive this fast...or good. It was kinda  y. Jinsoul has one hand on the steering wheel and one hand across her holding her protectively. Jinsoul sends a quick text to Jiwoo before parking in the lot and helping Sooyoung in.

The nurse at the front desk is painting her nails, “hi we have a baby coming.”

The girl looks up, “okay.” 

Jinsoul raises a brow, Sooyoung was clearly in pain by now and too out of it to say anything. “Okay? We need to speak to a doctor, her name is Jiwoo.”

“Where’s the baby?”

“Huh?”

The nurse rolls her eyes, “you said you had a baby coming, where it at.” 

Jinsoul is thankful that she isn’t this stupid. “Um, my wife’s belly.”

The nurse peeks over the counter, “oh, heh, okay.” 

“AHHH! MOVE!” 

It’s Jiwoo who’s running down the hall, she’s not in her doctor clothes. “Sorry I just had dinner with my hunties, nurse Joy will get you in a room.” In the room Jinsoul helps Sooyoung change into a hospital gown. 

Jinsoul is a lot calmer before, “how are you feeling?”

Sooyoung looks up at her before some of the nurses get her on the bed, “like I gotta take a massive .” Jinsoul snorts and watches all the nurses get to work.

Jiwoo comes in all in gear...with spaghetti. The doctor is shoving it in while she jogs around the bed, “spread them legs!” Jinsoul can’t believe she use to date this girl. Sooyoung holds her legs up and Jiwoo gives a thumbs up before slurping more noodles, “wow! You’re dilating fast that baby wants OUT OF THERE!” 

The red head says excitedly before dropping a meatball, Jinsoul watches it roll and questions her decision in letting Jiwoo be the doctor. Jiwoo picks it back up from the bed and pops it in . The nurses look away in disgust and Jinsoul really really can’t believe she used to date this girl. 

Jinsoul sits at her wife’s side, cradling her head in her hands. She tries her best to take the pain away, but all she can do is comfort her. When the nurses give Sooyoung a shot that looks incredibly painful, Jinsoul winces when Sooyoung bites down on her wrist. Apologizing since she didn’t know you had to get shots, she ignores the tingling in her wrist.

“QUICK GET ME THE DEFIBRILLATOR.” 

Sooyoung and Jinsoul look at Jiwoo with fear and the red head only laughs, “ahah got ‘em” 

Jinsoul gets chills from the dark voice below, “Imma kill her…”

Jiwoo smiles, “just wanted to liven things up!” 

One of the nurses leave and the other stays, she and Jiwoo guide Sooyoung through. Jinsoul watches closes, mostly at Sooyoung’s face which showed that she was in a great deal of pain.

Her wife is gritting her teeth but suddenly groans out, “JIWOO THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU!” Jinsoul looks down the bed and doesn’t know what to think when she sees Jiwoo continuing to eat spaghetti.

“What?!” 

Jinsoul doesn’t say anything, she just throws her hand up. The nurse looks defeated. “I’m starving! What if I eat the baby!” 

“W-why would you even say that?!”

The doctor shrugs and finishes the spaghetti before throwing the bowl behind her, “imma leave that one between me and god.” 

Jiwoo narrows her eyes and claps. 

“Oooh I see the head! Jinsoul come look!” Jinsoul gets a far as she can since Sooyoung won’t let go of her hand. She’s sure she’s lost all feeling in it by now.

Jinsoul peaks down below, “ewww.” She laughs because it looks a little funny. But Sooyoung almost breaks her hand with how hard she squeezes. “Ow ow I’m sorry jeez.” She makes her way back up to support her wife and let Jiwoo do her work.

The rest of the time is pretty repetitive, Jiwoo tells her to push and Sooyoung screams pierce her ears. 

But in between it all, Jinsoul kisses Sooyoung’s forehead and whispers out what she’s been saying all these years. Until she hears the cry of a baby. Jinsoul smiles and looks down where there’s a really strange looking thingy in Jiwoo’s arms as the nurse cuts the umbilical cord. 

Jiwoo then holds the baby up high, recites the opening theme to the lion king, “NYAAAAA SAVENYA!” and proceeds to piss Sooyoung and Jinsoul off.

“PUT MY BABY DOWN!”

Jiwoo giggles and the baby is passed off to the nurse to go to the nursery. Jinsoul turns to Sooyoung and wipes the sweat off her forehead, “you did it baby!” 

“UH OH!” Jiwoo screams, “THEY ANOTHER ONE!”

Jinsoul and Sooyoung scream in unison, “WHAT?!”

She feels way too light headed, another one? Jinsoul falls back and all she sees is white.

Jinsoul passes out.

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When she wakes up again Jinsoul looks around her, Sooyoung was nowhere in sight, “SOOYOUNG?!”

She was on a hospital bed and hops off of it, then she hears her favorite voice in the whole wide world. “Shhh! You’ll wake them up.” Jinsoul quietly tip toes to the source and pulls back a curtain. 

It was morning now, the ghost like lighting was creeping into the room through the windows, barely covered by the shades. In the bed, it’s the most beautiful thing Jinsoul has ever seen. Sooyoung is laying there, looking the prettiest she ever has. Her skin looked soft, her smile was wide, lips spread thin and the natural color of them was Jinsoul’s favorite. The faint light made the woman seem like an angel. Because she was. Jinsoul didn’t have to be convinced. Everything was so perfect about Sooyoung, her black hair was pulled into a low ponytail. Her cheeks were full. Jinsoul believed in a higher power. 

It was her wife. 

When she looks down, that’s when it’s over. Two…

“Two of them.”

Sooyoung glances at the babies and then back at Jinsoul, “two of them.” Jinsoul thinks she may have died and gone to heaven. There was no way something like this could be real. It didn’t feel real. She’s never felt this way before. Stepping closer she can’t fight it any longer, but then Sooyoung stops her, “wait...for one second.”

Her wife softly tells her before smiling brightly. Sooyoung looks down at the two bundled up babies, she can’t keep her eyes on one of them. They flicker back and forth. “Girls, I want you to meet someone very special.” Jinsoul lets the first tear drop, “she makes me really happy, and has made my life a dream.” Jinsoul doesn’t listen to Sooyoung and continues to come closer as her wife speaks to babies, “she’s the best, I love her with all my heart and soul.” 

“I know you girls will too.”

Sooyoung looks up at her then, her brown eyes glow. Jinsoul mouths it out I love you so much. “Meet your momma. Come here Jinsoul.” The woman scoots over for her, with both babies in hand. Jinsoul carefully gets in bed with her wife and takes the baby on her right. Jinsoul can’t fight the smile away when she finally sees her babies face. It’s adorable, and it looks just like Sooyoung. It’s all she’s ever wanted. “I think I’m the luckiest woman alive.” She mumbles out to her wife beside her. 

Jinsoul can’t take her eyes off the girl, she’s never seen anything cuter, “I have all three of my babies with me.” Sooyoung giggles out. But Jinsoul can’t even think of a reply. 

Until it comes to her, “we made this Sooyoung.” 

“I know my love.” 

Jinsoul holds the sleeping girl to her chest and snuggles into Sooyoung’s side. “Thank you Jinsoul.” She glances at her wife who looked impossibly pretty, “for changing my life, you know, I want this forever with you .” 

This woman was unreal, “oh Sooyoung…” She leans forward to kiss her senseless, she’s never loved something this much. Pulling away she sighs out, “you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me, I told you I was going to give you my all.” One of the babies makes a noise and gets both of their attention, but Jinsoul still wants to voice her feelings. “You’re it Sooyoung, you know that.”  

“Thank you for letting me share my love with you.”  She looks at the pair between them, “and now we have...two, that we can share this with.” One of them yawns and they both squeal at how cute it is. Twins, Jinsoul can’t believe Sooyoung had twins, she hasn’t even looked at the other one yet that Sooyoung was holding. Glancing over hangs, she looked like her. 

Jinsoul was amazed. These were cute little things. She wouldn’t mind having like three more. “What should we name them?” She rubs her foot against Sooyoung’s. Her wife rests her head against shoulder. 

“You get one and I get one.” Jinsoul looks at her baby. 

She was so cute, “Yeji.” 

Sooyoung smiles, that name went perfect with the one she was thinking of. She and Jinsoul really belonged together, the world wouldn’t turn right if they weren't.

She looks down at the baby that favors Jinsoul.

“And Yuna.”

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