My brows drawn together as I begin to regain consciousness from my sleep when I felt movement on my bed and slowly opened my eyes to see him getting changed. I looked at the clock and it's just the crack of dawn. "You're leaving already?" I yawned, rubbing my eyes as I held the sheet to my chest as I'm still bare under the covers, sitting up.

"Sorry, did I wake you?" He bent put a knee on my bed so he can bend down to give me a kiss on my forehead. I shook my head, grabbing a shirt I can put on.

"You don't have to see me out, go back to sleep." I complied, laying back down as I drowsily look at him pick his stuff up, preparing to leave.

"are you..." he paused by the doorway and turned back to me. "are you seeing someone else?" 

"Are you still dreaming?" he chuckled. "Sleep, I'll see you later." With that, I was left alone in the darkness of my bedroom and sighed, staring at the ceiling. Maybe he was not seeing someone else and if he does... if he does..." I closed my eyes, shaking my head and went back to sleep.

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I slowly closed her door and stayed there for a second. Wondering if I should go back in and clear her doubts but doing that, she might confuse us again. I heaved a sigh.

"A penny for your thoughts?" I turned to see my bestfriend drinking a glass of water. 

I walked over to him and sat down at a stool next to where he stands "I thought you guys were in your place?"

"We were until lisa realized she left leo alone in her room and found him sleeping, she didn't want to wake him up so we decided to sleep in her room instead." I chuckled, "do you have a beer?"

"This early?" I laughed at his expression, "Bro we drink from midnight til dawn."

"Yeaaah that's not the same as drinking beer as soon as you wake up." he nags but got me some anyway.

We were silent and I looked over to her door wondering if she can hear us or if she's dead asleep, I did exhaust her last night. She must be sleeping. My thumb played at the rim of the canned beer and heaved another sigh. "Why are you feeling guilty?" my head snapped to jungkook, feeling like a deer caught in headlights.

"I don't know man." I say, taking a sip of my beer.

"You do know or you won't be heaving a sigh like that." I huffed, rubbing my palms on my face and leaned back

"I feel like I made a mistake." He stood in a protective stance and I rolled my eyes "I'm not seeing someone else."

"I just... Maybe I shouldn't have asked her if I can stay with her. Like this."

"Like that? Then be with her. What changed? You were so eager to look for her? You were so determined to find her so she can be your girlfriend and then when you did find her, what did you do?"

"I bumped into her before I found chaeyoung" I took a long gulp and he cussed, "Her? Yizhou? Oh my God, is this still about her?"

"I thought I was over her, I thought I accepted that I can never be with her again." 

"What? Are you still hoping she'll come back to you? She's married for goodness sake!" Yizhou was, is, my childhood sweetheart. I thought her parents supported that, they knew we were together by the time we got to Highschool and suddenly, without a warning, she never came back after going on a vacation back to her hometown in China after we graduated. Our relationship became long distance and after the 1st semester in our first year of college she called crying saying she's