Dear Taehyung,

I had my first prenatal checkup today. I was alone because you are in another business venture.

The doctor said I am having a critical pregnancy so I need someone to accompany me next time. I am having premature contractions and the doctor said it's dangerous. I'm scared, Taehyung. I'm scared of what will happen to the baby if I make a wrong move.

I wish you are here with me. I wish you know about this. So I am not alone in this fear...

I was finally determined to tell you about it because I don't want to lose the baby. But then as I was walking towards the front porch, I saw a shadow of a woman inside our house. She was looking at you while you are yelling at her.

You seem enraged and beyond angry. I wanted to go inside but then I decided against it. If I go inside and see something upsetting, I am scared of how that would affect me and the baby. The baby...she or he is all that I am thinking of.

I pivoted and went to Jennie's place. I stayed the night there and texted you that I am fine. And that I will not go home. You said you'd leave first thing in the morning for Vietnam.

Jennie was so mad at me. She was even angrier at you. She said you are stupid. For the first time in my life, I agreed with her criticisms of you. You are stupid, Taehyung, for cheating on me...for leaving me even when you're still there with me at home.

I'm tired. I have been enduring this feeling for the last two years.