I am sorry.

I want to die.

I don't know why but these thoughts have possessed my mind now. I am sorry, you can ignore this shìt I am spouting but I really want to die! Please. I don't know what to do? I have a major exam which determines my future but all I see is nothing. I feel like dying. I am sorry to my mother and father whom I caused so much of pain. My genius sister for having such a dumb sibling. My grandpa for such a dissapointing granddaughter. I feel like a burden. I really wish I can vanish from this earth. I wish I can die. I wish death just engulfs me. Please, I beg you God please just kill me. Please.

I am sorry for writing such rubbish when you clearly have been waiting for an update but... I don't think I can survive any longer. It is becoming hard to even breath properly now. I am sorry for being a dissapointing writer. I am sorry to each and everyone on this earth. I am sorry. And I wish I can die. Please.