“I’m not sure what scares me more, that you will never start loving me, or that I will never stop loving you.”-Wu Yifan

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“Aren’t you going to confess your feeling at your lovely husband ge?”, Yixing asked as he stared at Yifan. Yifan sighed as he stared at Junmyeon from their table. He was currently sitting three tables away from Junmyeon during lunch as it had become their habit. Their relationship had gradually getting alright these past few weeks but like people said, old habit dies hard. His feet will automatically walk to this table everytime during lunch. “I don’t know Yixing-ah. What if he didn’t like me the way I like him?”. Yixing snorted loudly as he heard that, “You know, I still can’t get it how can you endure not to scream out your love for him when you guys living under one roof. And didn’t you tell me that you’ve fall for him way before you guys get into this arranged marriage. Your love story is so messed up you know ge.” Yixing shake his head and sipped on his orange juice. A small smile plastered on Yifan face as he was being reminded of his pathetic one sided crush on his husband. He still remembered though, all of the feelings that he felt when his parents announced his arranged marriage to Junmyeon. He thought he was dreaming when his parents state that it was the one and only Kim Junmyeon that went to the same faculty with him. 

Flashback

Unlike his appearance, Yifan apparently someone who’s yearn to be love too. He might appear as a tough and cool person, but deep in his heart, he’s a human too who wants to know how does it feels being love and loving someone. He’s aware that nobody will like him as his reputation as the badass guy in the college scared everyone all the time except his one and only friend, Yixing. If we’re talking about secret, there’s one thing that people didn’t know about Yifan. The secret is he’s having a deep one sided crush on one of the popular student in the college. Someone that goes by the name Kim Junmyeon. Junmyeon is different from Yifan, totally different. When Yifan was someone who scared people away, Junmyeon on the other hand being love by all of the students and teachers too. He was pointed as the role model for being excellent academically and had a nice personality. 

It all started when he was being smitten by Junmyeon dazzling smile that he accidently gaze at when he was about to fight someone. And yeah you can say that he got one nice punch on his stomach as he was being distracted at the moment. Starting from that day, he started to secretly sneaking a peek on Junmyeon. This behaviour of him didn’t go unnoticed by Yixing though. Yixing will always push him, making him confessed his felling to Junmyeon. But Yifan always give out a reason that it’s not the right time to do so. 

One month had passed with him admiring Junmyeon from afar and sometimes gulping down the sourness that he felt whenever someone being to close with Junmyeon. Yixing had long giving up with his friend as he knew that Yifan had felt too deep in the pit of love. 

“What do you mean with arranged married? Mother, we are living in the modern day. Why did the both of you still going on with this arrange married thing?” Yifan’s mother, Mrs.Wu sighed and glanced toward her husband. Mr.Wu nodded and took a deep breath, “You see son, it’s not like we decided about this thing like one or two months before. All of this had been decided way before you were born. We had promise our bestfriends to make you and their son married one day. We can’t go back on our words. I’ve never asked anything from you, so please son. Just for this once,” Mr.Wu sighed and stood up as he whispered, “I hope you’ll do like what I wished for.”, before walking away leaving him alone with his mother. Yifan groaned as he realized his father was using the guilty card on him. 

Something white and square in shape was suddenly being presented in front of him. “That’s the picture of your fiancé. Remember to meet him tonight at the restaurant. Be nice with him Yifan-ah.” Mr.Wu said before walking away too, leaving Yifan alone in the living room. Yifan sighed and leaned his back on the sofa. He really want to scream at his parents and told them that he likes someone, but what will he do if his parents asked him to bring Junmyeon over to his house when they’re not even closed. Staring at the picture on top of the table, he can’t help but to get curious over who’s this person that his parents want him to be married with. Is he even as beautiful as his Junmyeon? Sitting straight on the sofa, he took the picture and carelessly flipped it over. His eyes were wide opened as he saw the face of his supposed to be fiancé. Is he dreaming right now? He pinched his arm hardly and let out a loud groan as he felt pain on his arm. So, he’s not dreaming. But what if this guy is not Junmyeon, just his face is similar to Junmyeon. He stood up abruptly and went looking for his mother. “Mother! Ma! Where are you?” “In the kitchen baby…” comes a soft respond from his mother. 

He walks to the kitchen hurriedly, startling his mother. “What with the hurried hmm?” Yifan rubbed his neck awkwardly as he realized how stupid he is right now. “Well, I just wanna asked, what is his name? I meant, I don’t want to be rude by not knowing his name when I meet him later.” Mrs.Wu chuckled and shakes his head, “Oh yeah, his name is Junmyeon, Kim Junmyeon.” Once he heard the confirmation fro