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"Byul..." Yongsun says before in a deep breath. Whatever it was, Byul knows that Yongsun gathered all her courage just to start this conversation. And whatever it was, Byul could already feel it in her bones, judging by the way that Yongsun is looking at her, that Yongsun's about to break her heart.

"Yong..." She didn't know what her girlfriend would say, but she needed a moment - at the very least.

But Yongsun can't give her that. Otherwise, she might not be able to say it at all. She spent sleepless nights second-guessing this moment. And now that she finally had the courage to say it, she can't let her girlfriend stop her from finally saying it. "Let's break up."

Moonbyul's a little surprised that she wasn't surprised at all. They both saw it coming. Neither of them had the guts to say it out loud, so both of them were just waiting for the other one to say it first. But even though they saw it coming from a mile away, it didn't stop their hearts from breaking.

Solar's just glad that they were both in the confines of their room. Because inside the four corners of their room, they can be whoever they want to be. They can be their real selves.

And so, Yongsun could cry her heart out, from the pain and agony of having her heart broken in a million pieces; and hearing nothing but silence from the one who broke it.

Was it really delusional to think that Moonbyul would stop her? That Moonbyul would beg her to get back with her?  Is it selfish to hope that Moonbyul would look as devastated as she feels? To see Moonbyul miserable hearing what Yongsun just said?

Yongsun couldn't make sense of why Moonbyul looked so composed. As if she saw it coming from a mile away.

"Is that what you really want?" Moonbyul finally asked, deciding to finally break the silence.

Of course.

Of course, she knows that she has been hurting Yongsun for months now.

Ever since that night. Moonbyul knows that she did something very wrong, and said something she shouldn't have. And every single day, guilt has been eating her away. But what can she do? She didn't want to lose Yongsun. She wasn't brave enough to stop Yongsun's pain in exchange for hers. She wasn't ready to let Yongsun go. And yet, she made no attempt in cutting whatever string she had a hold of Wheein. She's a selfish coward, that's what she is. And she didn't think she had any right to even look heartbroken with what Yongsun just said.

And if Yongsun was brave enough to cut off whatever it is that was causing her pain? Then what right does Byul have to stop her from doing so?

"That's all you're going to say?" Yongsun was trying to hold back her tears. She didn't want to look more pathetic than she was already feeling. If Byul won't even shed a tear for her, then Solar should at least try to look strong. "You're asking me if this is what I really want?"

Why in the world would Yongsun want to break up with the person she has loved for so long? Who in their right mind would want to give up someone who's always been there? The person who's been there despite all the pining, and the waiting; all the uncertainty that Byul endured - just because Solar couldn't make up her mind; just because she wasn't brave enough to admit her own feelings.

Of course not.

This is not what Yongsun wants.

But this is what she needed to do. It's the right thing to do.

So maybe she's crazy for breaking up with her person. But it's what they both needed to move forward without hurting each other even more.

"Yes." she answers instead. Because it's what she believed was the right thing to say.

Byul smiled sadly as she looked at the floor, before a humorless chuckle left . "I have loved you for years now, Yongsun. I loved you since the day I met you." she declares, as if it's her first time admitting it. "And I have known you for more than a decade now."

Yongsun didn't know where Byul was going with it, but she couldn't help but cry. Byul has loved her for so long. It's a shame that Yongsun might have loved her a little too late.

Moonbyul takes a step closer to her sun. She gently places her hand on Solar's cheek and softly wipes away her tears. "And up until now, you're still a terrible liar."

Yongsun couldn't help but lean in at Byul's touch. She couldn't hold back a sob. Only then did Yongsun realize that Byul's heart is broken in the same places as hers; that she's not the only one hurting.

Moonbyul wasn't ready to let Yongsun go. But she was willing to let her go even if it wasn't easy - if only Solar could answer her with an honest 'yes'.

"Yong, I know we can still fix this." Moonbyul has always been so optimistic about them.

But Yongsun shakes her head. "Do you love me still