18/05/18

Five months.

It has been five months Jjong, how are you? Are you doing alright? I bet everything looks pretty from up there.. You know, I have so many things to tell you my love. Will you listen? Of course you will right? 

Five months my love, time goes by so fast no? There has been a lot going on, excited things though, your brothers are coming back with a new album my love.. Though how I wish to see you promoting with them, you are guiding them aren't you? I'm pretty sure you're happy and excited for their comeback too! You're their number one fan! 

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Five months Jjong.. 

Five months and the pain is still here, five months and I'm still stuck in this timeline to where I found out.. Will I be able to get out of this my love? 

Five months...

I still look for you

You know love, the more I hear about the comeback, the more my world crumbles down

Why?

Because... This will be our first comeback without you physically, and it hurts so bad.. So bad that I start being bitter.

I am starting to hate the world, the world where you once existed. Why? Because they took the only person whom I can count on, the person who understood me. They took you away from me. 

Life is unfair huh?

Five months, and this bitter feeling lingers.. 

Gosh, I miss you so much my eternal moon..