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A collection of my tribute letters | Thank you, Jonghyun.

To our precious Jonghyun,

Hey there.. it's officially been 2 months..

2 months, Jjong.

2 months since you left.

Up till now, I keep pondering.. what if you really didn't want to leave? What if you just really wanted someone to come and.. help?

I still feel extremely horrible. But I'm progressing to acceptance now.

Jjong, can you do me a favour? Can you relay this message to God for me?

"Oh God in Heaven, forgive me for all my sins. I'd do anything to protect anyone who don't deserve the bad things one shall encounter in life. I'm willing to take the pain, just please protect my loved ones. I will do better. I will improve myself. Thank you for all these lessons You've brought upon to me. Please take care of Jonghyun too. I know he's happy now that he's with You and Your Army. In the Lord's name I pray, Amen."

Anyways, let's not talk about me so much today. It's going to be about you bby.

You were there during the concert right? Somehow, everyone saw 5, when clearly there's only 4, as much as I don't want to say this. You saw how much love that was pouring out for you and your members right? 

Everyone misses you, Jjong. 

I kept thinking, if you could've just endured just a bit longer, you could've lived up to this day and see us, your family, truly loving you with all our hearts.

The concert went well, Jjong-ah. I'm sure you know that better than all of us, because you were the angel watching over everyone.

This is so heart wrenching. I don't really know what to say anymore. One thing for sure, I miss you, I love you, and I always will.

Thank you for the happy moments. 

Thank you for everything.

2 months ago, you wanted to hear this. But I'm going to say it often now.

수고했어요, 김종현.

You've worked so hard, Jonghyun-ah.

Till the next letter awaits.

Loving you always,

재이.

 

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to-toro #1
Chapter 9: i’m sorry i’m sorry but i know this is might be hard from me. i think this is a way of god letting us know that today was another day that he has taken back another soul and that this is a test for us to be able to remember jonghyun as the best soul he was in his life and for us, to remember that god has taken him back for learn that this is the pain for life. yes i am really sad over jonghyun’s death but i know this is all in the mightly lord hands and all i can do for him, is praying for him and others. so it is okay to cry for this special person but remember that we complete our life cycle on different ways.
you do not have to ignore it, because accepting and remember that jonghyun is someone who deserves your love with help you feel the relief. it will hard on you, since his death has huge impact but never forget this wound will find it peace in one way or another.
Donghae28 #2
Chapter 6: https://www.facebook.com/backtowardslight/videos/1631848593558132/
Donghae28 #3
Chapter 6: https://www.facebook.com/backtowardslight/videos/1612832252126433/
ChrisKpop00 #4
Chapter 6: Your letters are everything I've been feeling but couldn't express. Thank you. With time I know the pain will subside. It's just truly hard to miss this angel. He deserved better, he deserved to feel our love & my only regret is that I couldn't give back the love he gave me...us..Shawols I mean...it was too late..and for him to feel so utterly alone & broken to decide to do the unimaginable breaks my heart over & over...I wish I could have seen the signs, I wish I could have saved him. I wish I could have hugged him in his darkest hour & cried with him..to wipe away his tears..to give him hope & joy & strength. But it's all too late for that now. All we can do now is continue to support & love him from a distance..
Ghad20 #5
I still feel miserable for his death I can't even bare to see the name Shinee
I don't know why but it scares me evreytime I see a video about them I can't help but to ignore it
I just can't ... accept that he's gone
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