2018

A collection of my tribute letters | Thank you, Jonghyun.

"I'm here." - 12.00 AM 1.1.2018

It's amazing. Amazing how that phrase appeared and was sung right when the clock struck 12.

I actually smiled.

It feels like you're really here.

Today marks 2 weeks prior to when you left, but with this song, it feels like you will always be here.

(Aigo, it’s tiring
Hey, we have to finish this song today
Oh? Today? Let’s do it tomorrow
Tomorrow?
Let’s do it tomorrow, tomorrow, I’m tired today)

It’s okay to cheer up by tomorrow
No, it’s fine even by the day after tomorrow
Even if you are gloomy, gloomy for about a month
I’ll be standing here (right?)

(We) can’t be having fun everyday as we live
(We) won’t be tearing for a lifetime either
(It’s okay) (Really?) (It’s okay)
It’s fine to put aside everything and rest for just a day.

It’s okay to cheer up tomorrow
No, it’s okay even by the day after tomorrow
Even if you are gloomy, gloomy for about a month
I’ll be standing here (really)

Sometimes, why am I the only one who was silly,
or why am I the only one who isn’t doing well
I feel bitter, I can’t, to the point that it’s hard to bear
(When it’s stifling) During that time (When it’s dreary)
It’s not that bad to waste it like that for once

(We) can’t have fun every day as we live
(We) won’t be tearing for a lifetime either
(It’s okay) (Really, right?) (It’s okay)
It’s fine to put aside everything and rest for just a day

It’s okay to cheer up tomorrow
No, it’s okay even by the day after tomorrow
Even if you are gloomy, gloomy for about a month
I’ll be standing here, yeah

(We) can’t be having fun every day as we live
(We) won’t be tearing for a lifetime either
(It’s okay) (Really?) (It’s okay)
It’s fine to put aside everything and rest for just a day

It’s okay to cheer up by tomorrow
No, it’s okay even by the day after tomorrow
Even if you are gloomy, gloomy for about a month
I’ll be standing here
Even if you are gloomy, gloomy
I’ll be standing here
I’m here

"It's okay to cheer up tomorrow. No, it's okay even by the day after tomorrow. Even if you're gloomy for a month, I'll be standing here."

"We can't be having fun every day as we live. We won't be tearing for a lifetime either. It's fine to put aside everything and rest for just a day."

Kim Jonghyun, thank you for everything. You're the source of the words that I've always wanted to hear.

"I'm here" is one of the powerful ones.

Thank you for starting my 2018.

You may not be watching the fireworks with us, or celebrating meals with us, but deep down we all know that you're watching us by our side.

우리가 살게하자.

Let's live happily. 

Happy new year, Kim Jonghyun. Please watch over all of us this year. Make it a beautiful one.

You weren't able to hear this in hopes of 2018's arrival, but I'll say it to you now like as if you're right here.

You've done well, Jjong.

 

From a fresh start,

 

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to-toro
#1
Chapter 9: i’m sorry i’m sorry but i know this is might be hard from me. i think this is a way of god letting us know that today was another day that he has taken back another soul and that this is a test for us to be able to remember jonghyun as the best soul he was in his life and for us, to remember that god has taken him back for learn that this is the pain for life. yes i am really sad over jonghyun’s death but i know this is all in the mightly lord hands and all i can do for him, is praying for him and others. so it is okay to cry for this special person but remember that we complete our life cycle on different ways.
you do not have to ignore it, because accepting and remember that jonghyun is someone who deserves your love with help you feel the relief. it will hard on you, since his death has huge impact but never forget this wound will find it peace in one way or another.
Donghae28
#2
Chapter 6: https://www.facebook.com/backtowardslight/videos/1631848593558132/
Donghae28
#3
Chapter 6: https://www.facebook.com/backtowardslight/videos/1612832252126433/
ChrisKpop00
#4
Chapter 6: Your letters are everything I've been feeling but couldn't express. Thank you. With time I know the pain will subside. It's just truly hard to miss this angel. He deserved better, he deserved to feel our love & my only regret is that I couldn't give back the love he gave me...us..Shawols I mean...it was too late..and for him to feel so utterly alone & broken to decide to do the unimaginable breaks my heart over & over...I wish I could have seen the signs, I wish I could have saved him. I wish I could have hugged him in his darkest hour & cried with him..to wipe away his tears..to give him hope & joy & strength. But it's all too late for that now. All we can do now is continue to support & love him from a distance..
Ghad20
#5
I still feel miserable for his death I can't even bare to see the name Shinee
I don't know why but it scares me evreytime I see a video about them I can't help but to ignore it
I just can't ... accept that he's gone