Chapter 9: i’m sorry i’m sorry but i know this is might be hard from me. i think this is a way of god letting us know that today was another day that he has taken back another soul and that this is a test for us to be able to remember jonghyun as the best soul he was in his life and for us, to remember that god has taken him back for learn that this is the pain for life. yes i am really sad over jonghyun’s death but i know this is all in the mightly lord hands and all i can do for him, is praying for him and others. so it is okay to cry for this special person but remember that we complete our life cycle on different ways.
you do not have to ignore it, because accepting and remember that jonghyun is someone who deserves your love with help you feel the relief. it will hard on you, since his death has huge impact but never forget this wound will find it peace in one way or another.

Chapter 6: https://www.facebook.com/backtowardslight/videos/1631848593558132/

Chapter 6: https://www.facebook.com/backtowardslight/videos/1612832252126433/

Chapter 6: Your letters are everything I've been feeling but couldn't express. Thank you. With time I know the pain will subside. It's just truly hard to miss this angel. He deserved better, he deserved to feel our love & my only regret is that I couldn't give back the love he gave me...us..Shawols I mean...it was too late..and for him to feel so utterly alone & broken to decide to do the unimaginable breaks my heart over & over...I wish I could have seen the signs, I wish I could have saved him. I wish I could have hugged him in his darkest hour & cried with him..to wipe away his tears..to give him hope & joy & strength. But it's all too late for that now. All we can do now is continue to support & love him from a distance..

I still feel miserable for his death I can't even bare to see the name Shinee
I don't know why but it scares me evreytime I see a video about them I can't help but to ignore it
I just can't ... accept that he's gone