Your P.O.V

i accidentally dropped the phone. and as i stand to pick it up, i feel my feet gets jelly. Im scared. Im sad. I dont know what to do. 

i recalled the conversation that i just read between Howon and Dongwoo-oppa on the phone. 

"Howon, have you thought about it? "

" neh, hyung. i think i really need to . "

" but do you want to? "

" i need to hyung. i dont want her to lose a best friend. and if i stay, it would be really hard, especially for her. "

" but dont make it hard for you either. i know it wont be easy for you . " 

" hyung, ill only be gone for 2 months. i sure i'll also have fun in Europe. "

" okay then. suit yourself " 

what the heck are they talking about?! Why is he going to Europe for 2 months?! and why the heck am i losing my best friend?! 

........ and no, not just my best friend.... 

also,

my love for years.